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2019-10-28 at 10:19 PM UTC in California Declares State of EmergencyThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-07-05 at 4:34 PM UTC in stand up comedy is absolute trashOne of my favourite bits
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2019-07-01 at 1:36 PM UTC in stand up comedy is absolute trash
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2019-06-30 at 12:08 PM UTC in stand up comedy is absolute trashDidn't read
stand up comedy is a beautiful medium that's underutilized, misused and has been honed to appeal to the lowest common demominator
I was literally just about to make a thread about louis CKThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-06-21 at 6:13 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)Ummmm.... Been "clean" since. November 30th last year. Idk what did it. Mushrooms and CBD i think. And just being tired of everything. Having no real friends. Ducking cops. Crashing cars. Constant chaos. Basically just having no hope, and wanting to kill myself all the time. Anyway im down to 93mg from 165. I only take half my dose on the days i dont have to go to the clinic, so its probably more like 50mg. The gym made me feel better for a while, but i kept hurting myself and then i just get lazy.
Ive been thinking that i need some new employment, but tbh i havent really been putting in the work. If we're honest, a lot of the timw when we say we've been "trying" to do something, all that usually means is that we've just been entertaining teh thought of something, without actually putting forth any effort. I get easily overwhelmed and end up just doing nothing, and I hate that.
Turned 31 last week. Was fucking weird. I always hate my birthdays bc it reminds me of how legendary of a fuckup i am, but this year a lot of people i hadnt talked to in years said hi, and i ended up hearing a lot of shit i didnt want to hear...along the lines of that I was a good dude but a horrible influence, and people had to leave the state and shit to shake me and get me out of their lives. I heard that the girl Ive felt guilty for introducing to drugs and then subsequently got brain damage...is still in a hospital, but she calls other people in our friend group. And my immediate thought was "You fucking ungrateful cunt. I let you live with me for a year and a half. I paid off your tickets. I re enrolled you in school. I got my ass kicked dragging you out of a mexican tweaker den when you were all strung out and prolly getting trains run on you by all the dudes. After all that shit i did for you, IM the one thats so fucked up that you cant even message me back or call to let know that youre okay?"
But then i realized the reaction I was having was very based in addiction. It was a selfish reaction. I felt like she owed me something for the effort i put in to her life before. Me owed me attention. But if i really cared about her, I should be able to understand that maybe she decided not to keep in contact so that she wouldnt be tempted to use. If i actually care about someone, i should want them to be happy and okay regardless of whether or not we're involved romantically, or even communicating, or whether we're still talking. You cant be sober if your level of love for a person is proportional for what theyve done for you lately, or whether they meet your expectations of what they should be doing. Just doesnt work that way. So that was a interesting lesson.
And then a girl who I was close with in HS. After graduation we were always flirty and stuff, but the timing was just never right. We sexted and stuff all the time, but after she got out of a particularly bad relationship with some cokehead drug dealer in Florida, i was honest and told her i was still using, and she said she wanted to still stay in contact with me, but she couldnt meet up with me or let her take me take her out to dinner. I was all kinds of butthurt, and my kneejerk reaction was "If im so toxic that you cant have dinner with me for an hour, ill just give you all the fucking space you need>" And essentially i blocked her and let her think i was dead.
Anyway she texted me out of the blue a month or so ago, and we just started talking again, and I guess i knew she was in a relationship, but it kinda just felt like we were talking like we were in hs again. A couple days after my friend dies, she texts me that shes engaged. I wanted to say "BITCH BAD TIMING", but i halfheartedly congratulated her ...which also felt like a dick move bc you have to try kind of hard to make your lack of enthuisiasm felt over text message. I think I said "Oh wow thats so huge congrats". lol. No exclamation mark or anything. But of course the REAL first thought in my mind, in the midst of grieving my dead homie, was "Well i didnt even get to fuck her first. Thats not fair". lol.
Anyway...i fell asleep typing this so ill just leave that here.
tl;dr- Im still all kinda of fucked up, but im not on heroin so thats....good?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-06-21 at 6:50 AM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)YES, I need this!The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-04-08 at 2:58 PM UTC in Would you rather be Infinityshock or William Bill Bill Krozbyby?I've never wanted to be anyone but myself. bill the car has a better financial situation than me i'm pretty sure as he's a home owner. but at the same time he's a lot older than me.
but hey its like acid and mushrooms, have some similarities but still completely different.
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2018-11-29 at 5:04 AM UTC in Psychedelics are fool's goldThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-07-23 at 8:04 AM UTC in InfinityShock is back for the attack...The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-06-15 at 11:44 PM UTC in Later
Originally posted by -SpectraL Living with a one-inch-dick and having to screw cats was just too much for him.
Being severely autistic to the point of complete social failure, yet having the desire to participate in society drove him to suicide. The inability to put his God given talents to use because he lacked the social graces to put him in a position where he could do so... that is what killed the Malice.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-06-03 at 6:14 PM UTC in Ariana Grande is killing meniggerThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-05-29 at 6:57 PM UTC in drugs forum about to be shut down
Originally posted by Dfg Not my fault if your brain can't process it, lay off the drugs.
no, you can't just pull a generic comeback out of the bag of 5 shitty comebacks you have if it doesn't relate to the situation. how the fuck is it possible for someone to be such a fucking dipshit? clearly, i processed it just fine, and decided that you are the ultimate in douchebag cucks, something that is obvious to literally every other member of this forum except for you. you're not deluding anyone else with you shitty ass non applicable comeback.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-05-29 at 4:41 PM UTC in best way to kill yourself in prison?
Originally posted by Da Leg Itches if i ever got a 20 years+ term i would almost definitely kill myself, and the way i would do this would be to smuggle in a baggie of a potent fentalog, by hiding it somewhere on my body while anticipating arrest. the thing is if i got cavity searched my plan would go out the window. would there be any foolproof way to smuggle in this narcotic to be able to die painlessly?
piss off the niggers then drop the soap in the shower
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2018-05-29 at 1:05 AM UTC in And off to rehab I goGood luck RisiR, hopefully one day you’ll have the kind of life that let’s you feel you don’t need them.
I’ve been addicted to things because of how much pain I was chronically in. I know what it’s like to need something just to keep from committing suicide and be able to function. I wish there was something like rehab except for depression and isolation that was more widely available and actually effective. -
2018-05-29 at 12:06 AM UTC in Da Leg Itches never gets any bitches...The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-05-28 at 10:53 PM UTC in And do you ever feel like lifes unfair, like everybody hates you, and no-one cares......but if you follow me, maye you will see... that love is everywhereThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-05-28 at 10:30 PM UTC in Da Leg Itches never gets any bitches...
bitches nd shit...how a nigga liveThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-05-28 at 3:57 PM UTC in Userscript to block users on niggasin.spaceJust like cockroaches were able to survive the ice age.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-05-28 at 11:59 AM UTC in And off to rehab I goSee you when I'm back.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-05-28 at 10:44 AM UTC in LIL TAY PULLED UP ON AND EXPOSED FOR BEING FAKE RICHNo sir, twas a black woman whom reported the story on mother day in the first video I posted
There goes your "nigger" time frame theoryThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
