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I think its tempting for kids raised online with varying degrees of socially maladjusted (?) to default to thinking theyre autistic. But im sure there are a variety of reasons. Most of the women ive met online are genuinely autistic though. Maybe the lower emotional quotient makes them more compatible with a different type of man. Idk. But theyve all been hypersexual, introverted, socially anxious, obsessive about certain types of activities, foods, requiring routine, etc.
2024-08-04 at 10:33 AM UTC
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Hey Bradley
Because youre a spastic loser dude none of this is rocket science. Idk maybe take one of those Andrew Tate Academy classes or something then u can learn how to be a secure, dominant male
11. I guess im just retarded.
i could be worse, but im not doing great. Recovery is kind of a holistic thing, and ive kind of just been wallowing. i didnt drink today but i did take a mexican xanax bc the panic attacks ive been having are absolutely brutal. I drive drunk as fuck more often than i should. Moreso after i found out my gf is pregnant and she wants to keep the baby. Id already felt like i was drowning and this just kind of pushed me deeper. Said i needed a little space to breathe for a bit, and that we should focus on being friends and partners and we ended up breaking up. I thought id feel relieved after 2.5 years of a very emotionally demanding relationship but i dont. In tje places i dont feel numb, I feel empty. I feel bad that im unwilling or unable to give her what she wants. I feel bad that something that should be so happy is turning into such a messy shit show. I feel bad that she probably feels scared and alone. And that we’re in this position because i couldnt bring myself to set clear boundaries earlier on in our relationship. Got a good job and then lost it because i couldnt properly juggle 2 jobs and id committed to wait out the first one.
They just lowered my credit limit on one of the CCs i never used from $35,000 to 6k so thats going to fuck my credit score a bit.
Idk. Im fucking tired. Like soul tired. But im so anxious i cant even sleep. Alcohol sucks. And then i have terrible fucking dreams.
“Everything is always going to be fine, even when it isnt”- is what i keep telling myself. Life’s slow grinding away smooths out all the sharp edges eventually. But feeling like an observer in your own life just really sucks. I dont know why it feels this way.
Anyway. Its fine.
Bumping the longest thread on the internet
