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2022-01-04 at 8:55 PM UTC in Realizing how fucked up my life has been.
Originally posted by Bradley wow casper this really made me feel some typaway about the cutting out bread and cheese with shapes.
fuck i haven't really had someone make me feel that way in a couple of years
Yeah i was definitely an accident but my mom is a good woman n she always tried to make sure i had what i needed. Im glad she and i are at least on better terms now. -
2022-01-04 at 7:42 PM UTC in Realizing how fucked up my life has been.
Originally posted by mmQ I wonder if that's a subconscious thing for you or some of us- this notion that if we do get our shit together, that something horrible will happen anyway, so why bother setting ourselves up for disappointment or failure yet again?
I guess that doesn't really make sense but I know what I mean. There's the folks who are all about planning for their future and and setting goals and making lists and looking ahead and there's the folks who live more day to day SEAT OF THE PANTS as if there's no tomorrow. Neither one is wrong I suppose but I'm sure there are some coal miners out there that worked 80 hour weeks for half their life then just died in a coal accident whatever that means and…that's it. They worked and did all this shit to set themselves up and then just dead.
I wonder how many 20, 30, 40 year olds who died, if they could come back to life, would choose to just go back to how they were laboring away every day or if they'd have a different appreciation about the shortness of life and do more carpe diem shit.
I think my brain is just broken and im so tired and cynical and in pain that most of the time i feel ive fucked up too many things to have the kind of life thatll leave me happy and fulfilled. Occasionally the mental illness abates and Im able to be hopeful and optimistic though. Not too often, but when it does happen, it feels like a drug. Then again for years the only thing icould hope for was that id be able to be off heroin for long enough so that when i killed myself my autopsy would show i died without drugs in my system. And on November 30th it was 3 years. So shit can change, but maybe just not as quickly or as big of changes as wed like. idk, -
2022-01-04 at 7:38 PM UTC in Realizing how fucked up my life has been.
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2022-01-04 at 7:33 PM UTC in What are you thinking about....
Originally posted by Bradley i can't wait to make chili tonight tbh, Idk if you guys ever feel that way, but i definitely am geeked about chili.
We got like red kidney beans, celery, potatos, onions (White), 2lb of hamburger, 4 cans of tomato soup, chili powder, and DISCOUNT hot sauce, i got everything I need. Noodles, I got the noodles some elbows.
I got a lil cheese to put on top, i don't do the fritos thing that seems to be popular (Why?) but I do have a big box of saltines to go with it.
Pepper, I put a lot less salt because the MSG int he tomato soup seems to cover the salty taste.
I stole the hamburger so my mom is happy cuz i got the 99% lean or whatever, i just go thte most expensive 2lb deli product.
I'm gonna eat chili every day and shrimp and mac salad until I go to jail.
RIPTOTSE, if i stay sober for 90 days can you get me a job? I'm really good at book keeping, answering phones, I'm a people person my nigger.
Plz use a legit chili recipe. You can be better than ur white trash roots. I got a dank recipe if u want.
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2022-01-04 at 7:30 PM UTC in What are you doing at the momentphallic victory
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2022-01-04 at 7:29 PM UTC in Realizing how fucked up my life has been.I genuinely want to see you guys do well. Maybe im weird like that but i cant imagine wishing ill on anyone, esp anyone whos been through as much as we have. I think thats why Fubis death hit me so hard. Anytime id see him on FB, he looked so happy and was doing so well and had a kid on the way. Seeing him made me proud, and made me believe just a little bit that things could get better for people like us.
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2022-01-04 at 7:25 PM UTC in Realizing how fucked up my life has been.Idk why this kind of shit makes me love you guys more. We’re all so fucked up. This is kind of the only community where im halfway normal.
I wore the same shoes for years at a time. The soles wore out n when i could start feeling the pebbles under my feet, my mom would cut out traced pieces of cardboard to line the insides. N we couldnt afford lunchables but she didnt want me to feel left out so shed cut out meat n bread and cheese with moon n stars cookie cutters n put it in my lunchbox -
2022-01-04 at 6:01 PM UTC in A SAD FALLSally Slices
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2022-01-04 at 5:43 PM UTC in What are you doing at the moment
Originally posted by mmQ Are you suggesting Craymond intentionally released the clamp before Helevik closed the door to the chamber ?
Yeah he was tired of their shit. Someone kept stealing his tuna salad sammiches out of the break room fridge n he wasnt gonna abide it any longer. Went out like a boss. -
2022-01-04 at 5:35 PM UTC in What are you doing at the moment
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2022-01-04 at 5:31 PM UTC in What are you doing at the momentIf you like space movies, watch Sunshine
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2022-01-04 at 5:17 PM UTC in What are you doing at the moment
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2022-01-03 at 5:20 PM UTC in quitting coffee and pornToo much joe and i get the tingles in my nethers like the boilers on too hot so ive been trying ti taper off. im down to 9 beans but i truth be tolled its gonna. be a hell of a leap but im not tryna be on a sex offensive regustry
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2022-01-03 at 5:09 PM UTC in What are you thinking about....Samesies. They said if i rapid test negative i can come back to work but ive been sleeping all day n staying up all night so i might just go in tmw instead
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2022-01-03 at 5:07 PM UTC in I have decided to kill myself.
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2022-01-03 at 5:06 PM UTC in What are you thinking about....
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2022-01-03 at 4:53 PM UTC in What are you thinking about....
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2022-01-03 at 4:15 PM UTC in I have decided to kill myself.Dont do it alcohol sucks
If u traffic some drugs to me ur government willprolly put u in front of a firing squad -
2022-01-03 at 1:50 PM UTC in You call an Uber very drunk, you hope the Uber driver doesn't realize you're underageHe looks like a less ginger red
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2022-01-03 at 1:49 PM UTC in You call an Uber very drunk, you hope the Uber driver doesn't realize you're underageyall some big meanies
