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2019-03-06 at 9:28 PM UTC in Curvy/ latino/ reverse cow girlLatino?
Or Latina?
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2019-03-06 at 9:21 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
Originally posted by CASPER The more I learn about myself and life, I realize that everyone I know is addicted to something or other. Some people it's love. Some people it's cigarettes. Some people it's pride or money or accolades. Some it happens to be opiates or cocaine. But I don't need to feel like a lost a chunk of my life. Addiction isn't inherently negative. It's can be the cocoon, a gestational period. If I go on to live a more balanced, accepting, full experience…then it actually was worth it.
It's crazy how in denial some people are about it. Caffeine has actual withdrawals but you never hear caffeine addicts say the word 'withdrawal.' They just get irritable and develop headaches, like that's just normal to have in the morning.
I'm not comparing it to drug addiction, I'm just saying that it's an addictive substance and nobody seems to really recognize that. They just compulsively consume without realizing the power it has over them. Same goes for many other things. People who need the TV on all the time is another common one.
The important thing I think is to channel that addiction into something positive. Like, I'm addicted to playing instruments, but it's fine because it's actually constructive and I gain a skill by doing it. My addiction to internet and nicotine, not so positive.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-06 at 9:20 PM UTC in Why do we feed billions to our pet parasite Israel?Each year US gives over $3 billion to Israel for what I don't know. This goes on top of loans which are never repaid but forgiven. Meanwhile Israel is nothing but a pet parasite causing problems in the ME. Anybody know why this is so?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-03-06 at 7:32 PM UTC in What are you doing at the moment😂😂😂
I’m just being silly.. I’m kind of dorky goof ball honestly
Don’t mind me 😇😋The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-06 at 7:10 AM UTC in I really don’t have a problem with punching women in the throat if they can’t control their egosI really don’t have a problem with punching women in the throat if they can’t control their eggos...
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BITCH, THAT'S MY WAFFLE!
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2019-03-06 at 6:55 AM UTC in I really don’t have a problem with punching women in the throat if they can’t control their egosI met some bitch in a park I have a habit of chilling in at night.
"my boyfriend beats me up"
"why don't you leave him??"
"becuase i love him"
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2019-03-06 at 12:35 AM UTC in Little girls are tight.NSA CHILD PORN FBI BOMB PRESIDENT TERRORIST CHILD MOLESTER CUTE UNDERAGE GIRLS GUNS MARIJUANA GROWING
I've now triggered several algorithms and you'll be arrested shortly OP, you disgusting sack of shit.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-05 at 11:20 PM UTC in A good series to watch
Originally posted by Nil Everyone. fbi dudes, the laundry man… the hillbilly.
gay people are what like %3 of people? it was a bit much.
I honestly HATE gay people in media. 99% of the time it is forced and unnatural.
A good example would be that black thug Omar nigger from The Wire. You know the one who whistles when he robs people? It was such a non issue in the show. He was just a gay thug. That's it. He didn't act like a frilly faggot. I can't stand people who talk with that falsetto voice and are all 'omg girl u look fineee' -
2019-03-02 at 1:49 AM UTC in Here is a picture of katarina johnson thompson for you to enjoyThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-03-01 at 8:38 PM UTC in Hepatitis through biting?No. It’s just an inflammation of the liver. Hepatitis C and B can be caught through mostly blood and bodily fluids.
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2019-03-01 at 8:04 PM UTC in Post some jailbaitthis thread makes me want to do cocaine but i'm not going to because then tomorrows going to suck dick
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2019-02-28 at 8:35 PM UTC in what would you say are the highlights of your life so far?
Originally posted by tee hee hee Is it a trip somewhere nice? Meeting someone special that changed the course of/your life? Getting a job promotion you always dreamt of (lol i know it's nis but still..)? Or maybe getting an award for kung fu or your art? Etc. Feel free to share.
One highlight of my life was when I was traveling solo in Taiwan. Probably one of my happiest moments ever.
I studied Chinese enough to at least have basic conversations. My written is not so good, but I was still able to talk to native speakers about different places in the city that I wanted to visit, and talk about the weather, and ask directions, and all that good shit.
One of these people told me about a massive day long hike up to the top of a mountain with an absolutely amazing view overlooking city/mountains/ocean, so I decided to go.
The hike was through some pretty thick jungle. It was a mixture of hobbly dirt and rock paths and massive, massive stretches of stairs. Idk if you guys have ever started climbing stairs and not been able to see the top, but it's pretty fucking imposing. There's stairs for hours and hours because otherwise it would be rock climbing. I think it was like 10,000 feet at the top but I'm not sure how far I hiked exactly. Took me about ten hours total. I saw quite a few monkeys and even a very rare to see species of fanged deer (muntjac). Lots of different butterflies and bugs and interesting plants, like the sugar palms which actually smell like sugar, or the giant corpse flower which is infamous for it's stink (wasn't in bloom though.)
At the top there was this white temple type building with benches and a rest area. Amazingly, nobody was there. I decided to climb the stairs to the roof and have lunch when it began to drizzle, which was the best fucking thing ever. Sat on a bench, opened my umbrella, and proceeded to have some local jerky and a beer while I looked over one of the most dramatic landscapes I've ever seen in my life.
I actually started laughing because I was so fucking happy. I felt like I had taken drugs, but no. It was good to honest waves of natural and hard earned euphoria that I've probably only felt a handful of times in my life.
That night I went to the night market by my hotel and made friends with a sausage vendor, who started hooking up my sausages FAT every day after that because I was eating at least one a day every day I was in that city. It's a red sausage with a rice bun and pickled garlic, cilantro, onion, and some type of savory spicy sauce. Took one of those back to my hotel room with this seafood coleslaw things, some fried squid, and a small bottle of fresh star fruit juice (with pulp!) It was maybe five or six bucks total.
Took a cold shower and fell asleep in bed watching Naruto in Chinese. It was easily one of the most satisfying days of my life, and I cannot wait until I'm able to do it again. I got some tripe noodles the next day and sat in the park feeling really tired and content. Absolutely worth the hike. It made me realize I need to move to an area where I am able to do that more regularly, so that's what I'm working on doing right now. -
2019-02-28 at 6:32 PM UTC in what would you say are the highlights of your life so far?There have been a few different ones for me, like quitting opiates and staying off them for years, finishing my bachelor's degree while smack dab in the throes of heroin addiction, etc.
More recently, though, would be when I got my first paid software developer job. It was kind of surreal since it was the culmination of years of hard work and dedication and, most importantly, a lot of self-monitored and self-motivated learning.
I've discovered over the years the power of setting one's sights on a goal and just straight up ignoring all the negative talk (from both self and others), and all the overwhelming examples of people who just gave up and labeled certain things impossible.
It's the reason I have such resilient optimism regarding the future. I've come this far, why can't I go even further?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-02-27 at 10:44 PM UTC in Koala gets kicked out of tree and criesThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-02-27 at 11:21 AM UTC in Can we change the site name and banners?I don't mind the banners... The name, though... I can kinda see valid reasons against it.
As we descend further and further into rabid SJW/PC culture, it's going to continue to become more and more offensive to people. The day we end up on the SPLC list simply because we have "niggas" in the title, I'm going toREDACTEDsend some flowers and cookies to the SPLC headquarters myself.
But I do kinda see how some might get the wrong idea from the host name.
Changing a hostname is kind of a big deal though. Then add in how much of a change it would be to our whole ethos and general culture... The theme of going into space is obviously not a serious goal, as can be discerned by the lack of space-travel oriented threads, but the general idea has kinda entered our culture and vocabulary here.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-02-26 at 9:32 PM UTC in The Chinese should feel ashamed.The table made in ChinaThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-02-26 at 3:20 AM UTC in Official HB racism thread
Originally posted by Octavian Do you ever feel as if you don't feel your age for a few seconds, then the depressing reality of impermanence hits you that X amount of years have infact gone by "wasted"? I need to live in the "here and now", and spend less time doting on what has already been.
Originally posted by Octavian My hedonism this past decade + has fucked a lot of good opportunities. Not to say they won't come around again, it just has to be worked for and stuck at. I had a decent paying job as an equity release advisor early last year but just as I started, I was partying more then all sorts of shit happened. Long story short my car got smashed up and I was unable to commute or get another car at short notice. It was summer so rather than prioritize I just snorted more Charlie and didn't bother looking for another job, getting by through various nefarious means. In hindsight it's a year wasted but I'm starting to make inroads to getting back on track. I drink ocassionally as alcohol is my biggest trigger for Cocaine, and an insatiable lust for filthy likeminded debased women of the lowest order. I've also withdrawn away from anyone who shares the same vices for obvious reasons.
Change, especially if achieved before, is possible and can be done again. Hell I'd love to hear anyone who has a story about bouncing back. It can serve as inspiration for anyone else going through similar shit.
I was a full-fledged heroin addict a few years ago... Like, daily (IV) use, literally nothing and nobody else mattered except getting that next fix.
It was the farthest thing from easy, but I managed to escape all that and leave it behind (it's sometimes surreal to me when I even contemplate how deeply fucked I was at that point in my life).
Seriously, pretty much everything that's occurred in my life since that point has been uphill. Even after having fallen back a few steps in other ways (I actually ended up homeless after I got clean... among other things that were definitely examples of fucking up in some way)... BUT, the general trajectory has been upwards ever since.
And just like you say... When you have experience to draw upon for past successes, you gain a serious strategic and motivational advantage.
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2019-02-25 at 8:01 AM UTC in Russia's getting boring
Originally posted by Octavian I just finished a good book, "I'm going to ruin their lives", although they,(Medvedev & Putin) appear to have different agendas at times, both have the same end goals. It's all been perfectly planned to create an aura of there being "more autonomy" as opposed to the same brand of United Russia. You can't help feel sorry for those that actually thought there was going to be change by Medvedev becoming President. Putin has been the all omnipotent power house since 1999 in one form or another and people have gotten use to, and would feel a sense of loss without him. The same was felt by many surprisingly in 1953 when Stalin died. By playing upon the national sentiment of patriotism and anti westernism, he's created a fatherly persona and a need to keep him.
That's just it, for the last 15 years at least Putin's had over 70% approval and Medvedev's peaked at something like 20%. Statistically, nobody's interested in what he's selling - there's no reason for the party to give the illusion of plurality if nobody's interested in the other option. I suspect it's more along the lines of keeping the 'fifth column' in the government, but in areas where they can do minimal damage (like Kudrin being assigned to the Accounts Chamber, good primer here) - in theory the prime minister has significant power, but still has to answer to the party.
The peoples' backing of Putin is far more practical than emotional like western think-tanks like to claim - he's literally rebuilt the state from the ground up after Yeltsin sold it off, specifically rebuilding state infrastructure and the military at a pace that outsiders thought impossible. More recently he's been able to use the Crimea sanctions and oil price manipulations to buy back many of those privatised industries and has transformed Russia into Europe's biggest agricultural exporter.
As an amusing aside, last year the statistic was that Russia had lost ~$40 billion in trade in the period of the sanctions, and the EU had lost ~$80 billion. It was impossible to disentangle the losses due to petroleum price drops, so it's entirely possible Russia suffered no significant trade loss as a result of those sanctions.
Originally posted by Octavian The Boris Nemtsov murder was far too brazen.
Nemtsov was killed by Chechen soldiers who considered him, primarily, a blasphemer against Allah and also a traitor to Russia. There are significant questions around the incident, but no-one has found trace of a 'mastermind' behind the attack, even though western foreign policy think-tanks blame the Kremlin for 'silencing a critic' and Russian nationalist groups blame the CIA for 'attempting to start a coup'. Given the realities of the time, neither makes sense in terms of risk-reward.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-02-25 at 2:18 AM UTC in Official HB racism thread
Originally posted by Octavian mainly cause I want to sort my life out first before settling down. As for the others, it's cause I don't see myself having beautiful kids or anything meaningful with them.
I totally get that line of thought.
I currently don't put any real effort into finding someone to get involved with for pretty much the exact same reason. I have career goals, financial goals, and various self-improvement type goals that I really want to get in order before I start seeking a relationship.
One potential issue, though, at least for me, is setting the bar too high, and thus relegating yourself to bachelorhood indefinitely.
I'm 34 now, and, aside from a few brief romantic trysts here and there over the years as a result of spontaneous encounters, I have been single since 2005... That's like 15 years pretty much. It's definitely a tad depressing.
I think I, personally, need to work on lowering the bar a bit (but not foregoing all my goals altogether - just modifying them a bit).The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-02-24 at 5:36 AM UTC in Lanny should impersonate classic Totse icons and post as though they're still with us.I have to, respectively, disagree.
Those that want to find us will.
Those that have moved on are gone; either forever, or until they realize what they're missing.
I'm probably the biggest proponent here for thickening our ranks, but alts aren't the way to do it.
Most of the users here are younger than your average Totse icon. I love that panthrax is still around, but him and I are anomalies. Oh and Rizzo too, and SpectraL, etc, and a few others early registrants at Totse.
Anyway, my point is that we need to curb the use of alts and increase incoming traffic via other means.
Something I happen to be working on, by the way: https://niggasin.space/thread/34240.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
