i found like a few hours worth of footage i filmed while i was a junkie listening to lil peep, smoking meth, throwing up and talking on and on about nothing. its too bad its all so blatantly identifying and degenerate and embarrassing
im wasting my entire day today but not wasting the 2 minutes to watch that video
probably if they like thought about it but i'm pretty sure they don't
2019-10-06 at 1:09 AM UTC
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Livestreamed suicide thread
there are lots of times i can't seem to muster any empathy for anything but i am definitely capable of it. occasionally i'll feel it overwhelmingly for a while.
2019-10-06 at 1:02 AM UTC
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Livestreamed suicide thread
wait what is a mirror neuron
being made aware that that could happen to me one day makes me want to kill myself just incase
2019-10-06 at 12:52 AM UTC
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Livestreamed suicide thread
i wasn't searching for it, it was posted on liveleak or something and i was already on meth browsing the internet. sometimes i watch videos like this on those types of sites anyways, but meth made me a lot more active at whatever i was doing. there's also this effect for a kinda long period of time that happens where you feel extremely alert but totally emotionally detached from anything, so you can watch things like that without feeling any sort of negativity. then i thought that that effect was interesting so i wanted to test it out more.
2019-10-06 at 12:38 AM UTC
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Livestreamed suicide thread
of course you would post that one.
i remember being super high on meth and watching that like 50 times when it came out
2019-10-05 at 11:57 PM UTC
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Weedtarded Thread
lol, i saw the title of this thread when i brought up nis and thought im gonna make an off topic post in that thread and say its because it was so stoned. but then i replied to a random comment first real quick and then came to this thread to do the plan but realized that I already had done it.
2019-10-05 at 11:53 PM UTC
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Weedtarded Thread
i fucking hate haggling, can't really understand what's enjoyable about it. one time in afghan i went with some guy to the little bazaar thing they had and the dude i went with spent like 2 hours haggling over the price of some ring and i had to wait on him
i was actually just watching that "extra content" i never posted and i remember i had already been using a ton of drugs at that time for a while but i still had a different sort of demeanor or composure or something
ah yes...this thread. i still had my girl during this time, she's the one i made the cake for because she had never had that flavor because it's an american thing i guess. we must have been high on meth/Crouton/etizolam and making videos and stuff. we'd always be methed out and having sex or talking for hours or just holding her ribs close to me with my arm we actually made a ton more content like this i never posted.
yes, how times change. if i could go back to then, i'd take a break from school and i'd suck it up and go to an inpatient rehab program. my relationship would have most likely been saved, but even if it hadn't, it would have at least ended for a reason. and i would have saved myself months of withdrawal from going back and forth
