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2017-08-10 at 5:12 AM UTC in Who here claims Italian?§m£ÂgØL is a spic who wants to be a chink but talks like a cracker. I can say spic because I'm a spacka.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-09 at 10:58 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-09 at 10 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSImagine if every time you spotted something good and yelled, "Look, Some Drugs!" LegalizeSpiritualDiscovry came sprinting, seemingly out of nowhere, and dived for the spot, wearing his own custom self-made costume.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-09 at 9:53 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-09 at 9:27 AM UTC in I've been stalking my current boyfriend for a decade +...
Originally posted by hydromorphone Despite what that faggot §m£ÂgØL has had to say on the matter, since he's butthurt and a man-child, I was offered help by him, even had it forced on me despite me refusing, but I paid that nigger back. I only ever asked but a single time for help financially from him: $80 and it was paid back, even after being told numerous times "don't worry about it", "forget it", "I'm not worried about it, I don't want the money".
I may be a lot of things, I may be fucked up mentally, physically and done some fucked up shit I regret and hold a great deal of guilt and remorse for, even now, but I am not, nor ever have been a gold-digger or been with someone for money, and not because I couldn't have been… I was stalked for a short period of time by this black cowboy who had a fuckton of money, land, cattle, and was right up my alley when it came to horses. He wanted a pretty, down to earth white bitch to spoil and have on his arm. He was a nice guy, but not my cup of tea… he would have been the jackpot as far as gold-digging goes, if that was my agenda. I also supported my ex for the entirety of our relationship. He leeched off of me and my family. He was the gold-digger, honestly. Bled me and them dry eventually, among the other damage and pain he caused.
I'm a giving person. I hate taking from people, or even asking for help when I desperately need it. I could have done a lot of leeching and taking if I was so inclined, but that's not who I am and I couldn't live with myself for doing that to anyone. PoC may come to regret me for other reasons, but leeching or "gold-digging" won't be one of them.
i don't know why you bother replying to posts like that. you don't have to explain yourself to any of these fucktards.
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2017-08-09 at 6:44 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSDamn, that's fucking rough, Kreep. Shit.
Hydro, I'm still in Texas. Like a city or two north of Houston. Was in jail recently for possession and I got out on deferred adjudication so now I'm on probation with random drug tests. Doesn't suck nearly as much as I would've thought in the past. I was homeless for a few months before I got arrested, so it helps since I don't want to end up like that again. Kinda think I should've just sat in there a few months. Not really because I'm worried about failing a drug test; I've been fine staying sober, but it's just stressful with all the stipulations and costs of the probation. But I feel like if I wouldn't have taken the probation, I almost surely would've gone right back to shooting dope. It's about time I stay sober for long enough to at least get something going with my life.
My dad's helping me out with the financial shit now.. the fees and bullshit, as well as paying for an extended stay hotel for the last couple months. I know he and the rest of my family are only helping me because I'm actually trying to do good now, so that helps too. But I haven't really accomplished much other than sticking to my probation requirements. Feel tired and lacking in motivation all the time, so I've mostly just been sitting around. I really need to go out there and get a job and shit.. I just never feel like doing shit. I should get checked out by a doctor just in case there's something medical going on, since my mom got diagnosed with hypothyroidism recently and said her mom had thyroid issues too. Could be that, or maybe it's just me, I dunno.
I'm so used to being able to just fuck off online and shit. Been years since I've had a steady job. Doesn't help any that my only transportation is a bike. It'd be a lot easier to motivate myself if I didn't have to ride in this hotass heat minimum fifteen minutes to get anywhere, and that's just the closest stores. Makes getting a job and doing that shit daily seem like a drag, besides all the existential shit about how monotonous and pointless that all seems.
So yeah, things are decent, kinda bittersweet. Could be better but could be a hell of a lot worse. Just feel bad about my dad paying all this money.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-08-09 at 6:42 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by What_a_Kreep I decided to put my wall of text in a spoiler button because I don't want to force people to read it or have it take up a bunch of space. It's still so long but I cut so much out. I'll probably shorten it up even more. A lot of it is off track and goes into another topic/person than who the main person and what the main occurene is about. I feel as if it's relavent though, just to add some comparison to the picture. I had a really shocking phone call this morning. It's more of a serious post topic so most will be bored and I advise you to not press "spoiler" but it just is nice to get out. Plus, there's a question at the end if anyone has something they can relate to or share with me, preferably by PM.
Post last edited by What_a_Kreep at 2017-08-09T06:26:52.841818+00:00
not trying to fuck with your head or anything, but if it was a drug overdose then saying 'drugs was the reason of death' is inaccurate. it would be more accurate to say 'prohibition was the reason', as prohibition causes the supply of drugs to get handed over to irresponsible people who sell wraps of the drugs with no clue as to there potency or content, making accurate dosaging virtually impossible unless you have access to a lab with gas chromatograph equipment.
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2017-08-09 at 6 AM UTC in Lanny Do You Live Near..No, I live a couple of miles away, but I drank a half gallon of milk, two pots of coffee, and a fat bag of Cheetos and trekked half way across the city to cover a stall in the bathroom I knew you were going to need to use in shit.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-09 at 4:25 AM UTC in I am a rapistThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-09 at 1:57 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSJesus man, get diagnosed and tell them about how severe your symptoms are.
It’s amazing you were able to work two jobs when you’re way worse than I am now.
They may finally feel sorry enough for yous to prescribe Nardil.
I completely understand what a living hell autism can be. Thank god I’m overcoming or more and more, have the knowledge, tools, and skills I need, developed through constant effort, obsessive reading and analyzing for countless hours to the exclusion of all else, improving myself, my mind, in immeasurable ways.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-08-08 at 10:32 PM UTC in Uninformed people who insist on discussing politics and economicsNo one gives a shit what a guy that pretends to be rich online thinks about politics and economics, shitlord. You say you're retired but i bet you're just another welfare nigger with too much time on their hands.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-08 at 10:15 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by hydromorphone I've been making origami animals in other news… who wants me to send them origami critters?
Malice, would you let me send you Origami critters? I would if I had an address to mail them to. It's been helping with my anxiety somewhat, as of late. Just started a few days ago. Picked up an unopened complete starter kit with a book for like 50cents at a yard sale in a ritzy part of town where I clean rentals. I've made a couple things… working on more with instuctions I've found on the internet now… working on making dragons. Might be something up your alley to give a shot with. I think you'd like it.
How about instead I send you and PoC some kava extract to try for severe anxiety, even reducing epilepsy?
PoC already gave me his address in the past, but you know how he is. Even though he’s changing he can easily and rapidly go right back to his old ways and be impossible to get through to.
You can test it first and then mail it to him.
It’s so cheap it will barely cost a thing to send it in an envelope.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-08-08 at 8:24 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSHe should write a book already.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-08 at 9:57 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSOh, heh, I completely forgot about that challenge after I raged out.
Mo, fuck you. You probably missed it, but I intend to either leave or drastically reduce how much I post and how often I visit.
Goddamn it, I need to stop being goaded into going into wall of text mode.Or you could try to enter an actual discussion of some concrete subject instead of calling me annoying whenever I respond to one of your posts as if you meant for it to be taken seriously. That is kinda what this place used to be about, but whatever man, if it makes you feel better to write off everything you post as low-effort and and not meant seriously that's up to you.
Lanny, you see this? Do you honestly not realize how persistently condescending, presumptuous, insufferable etc. you are?
This is why no one likes you other than when you're posting something light-hearted and amusing. I swear if I ever see you in SF again I'm going to sprint at you and dive tackle you.
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2017-08-08 at 9:44 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSLanny, I do treat this place essentially as a journal a large percentage of the time, you stupid motherfucker. Do you honestly believe I'm so oblivious that I expect anyone to read my enormous rants? There are other reasons for it.
Any serious writing I produce, which often stems from rapidly spewing out my thoughts in an unedited stream of thought style, naturally typing near my top speed, goes into various files I have (Auto-backed up online, of course.), not on here. Why would I post them here when there is literally 0% chance of anyone reading them, and my intention, in that scenario, would not be to simply use this place as a journal?
God I hate speaking to you. I refuse to ever engage with you again. Just ignore any writing like this.What do you want me to say? It's Parfit without an argument and some mumbo-jumbo about "beleive this and you'll be happy". The buddhist "phenomenology", for lack of a better term, is interesting, granted. But in every presentation I've seen you start out with some actual insight into subjective experience, a taxonomy, and then "yeah but that's not real". You poke, naturally, because that's stupid, how is something you just described and I have direct access to every second not real? "Oh well by 'not real' what's actually meant is 'impermanent'" and then you're like "ok well even like Cartesian dualists don't think consciousness is immutable" and then their eyes kinda glaze over when you try and explain the difference between essential and nonessential properties and they mumble something about attachment or suffering or whatever, bonus points of some pseudo-enlightened anti-intellectualism, and you're like fuck it, why even try?
Oh, Jesus fuck, you are such an idiotic unbelievably presumptuous pretentious condescending brat, you stupid fucking jackass.
Well, it's good you know Parfit. I have clearly fucking said I plan on a non-mystical reformulation. It's not a novel concept, but the insights I plan on espousing and elucidating, other aspects, are. It has absolutely nothing to do with what the vast majority of Buddhists believe, which I heavily criticize and is something that has never been part of my thoughts. As if I would believe in any of the things you listed, you mental fucking retard. God you can be so fucking stupid. Why do you think I don't even want to bother putting any real effort into communicating with you and just ignore you most of the time?
Well, you're bound to develop immensely, particularly until you reach 28, which is a general pattern for males. Hopefully you'll overcome your flaws and stop being a dumbass.
Years from now, if anything is ever published, or at the very least professors tell me they highly regard it (I'm going to keep a journal/record of the experience. I think I'll call it "Adventures in Autism".). Then we'll finally know, and it's really the only way to demonstrate it.
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2017-08-08 at 9:37 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by hydromorphone do it, faggot. It'd be a mercy killing and do PoC a huge favor in life.
Hey, seriously, if you ever do it, are you planning to take out a life insurance policy? I don't know what the law is in Florida, but I was surprised to learn that in CA it actually does pay out even if you do it.
Aw, fuck, I suppose if you were you would leave it in a trust for your son. I wanted it so I could attempt to overcome my severe autism and life situation and get dual PhD's in philosophy and neuroscience from a top university.
Nardil began an incredible change in me. Sublingual NSI-189 freebase before high intensity interval training then took it to the next level. I'm actually drastically changed, getting so many things done, working on multiple projects, breakthrough ideas for my long-term plans, already have a lot of writing saved, bought multiple things I needed to improve my life
Oh, speaking of that, you have to try kava extract for anxiety, trust me. It's cheap: https://niggasin.space/post/232106
and I'm so fucking poor for the bay area, along with needed a lot of medication and therapy I have to pay out of pocket for. Countless things. I finally know what I want to do in life, dedicate at least a decade to, which is perfectly in line with my strengths, passions, and beliefs. It's perfect, it just suddenly came to me while thinking about the views I developed.
This is all very long term, btw. As in, it could take 10 years before I'm at the point. Being completely realistic. There's no guarantee it will happen, of course, these certainly do appear to be lofty goals.
Essentially analogous to my interpretation of the Buddhist system. No-self, impermanence, desire, suffering. Suffering will be the foundation of my system.
A reformulation of my interpretation of Buddha's original teachings, essentially resurrecting the original an all its implications, an extensive elucidation and argumentation. I plan to read a series of translations of the Pali Canon/Tripitaka that's literally 9,000 pages long (I did the math) for this.
Then a series of papers on autism. The neurology and how all symptoms/behaviors/traits can be clearly explained, the recurring pattern of synergistic/augmentative aspects. Possibly books.
Finally a magnus opus in philosophy, All of Life is Suffering, similar in general style to The World as Will and Representation. I intend to take on life itself (No, Lanny, my argument is not life is bad/sad so no one should have kids and we should all commit suicide, you goddamn idiot. Try actually reading Better Never to Have Been before embarrassing yourself by spouting common idiotic misinterpretations/presumptions like this.).
Suffering. The disorder that causes the most suffering, adjusted for prevalence, the philosophy that primarily addresses suffering. This is the most altruistic thing i could do, and it perfectly aligns.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-08-08 at 8:24 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by hydromorphone do it, faggot. It'd be a mercy killing and do PoC a huge favor in life.
That's the joke. But the bigger joke is, no one will ever have mercy on you.
Nobody loves you Hydro. Not because you haven't found the right one; it's because you are the wrong one. Unloved and unlovable.
Put your foot on the accelerator one day, close your eyes and remember the last time somebody made you feel loved. You'll be dead before you know it. It'll be near painless.
End your story on your own terms. Any further chapters will be only miserable.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-08-08 at 8:23 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSi'm done with this stupid game, bollocks to it.
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lol
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2017-08-08 at 7:58 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by hydromorphone My sammiches don't taste like ass because I don't make sammiches. I'm the asshole who actually was a cunt to PoC though, so… I deserve all the bullshit. I'm really sorry for hurting PoC and being the cause for his destructive behavior he ensued in… I'm a huge asshole, retarded cunt.
Oy, women. To be honest, you are way too unstable and it's going to take years of serious effort to really recover, if it ever happens.
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Oh god, I have to be honest, looking at every problem you have, how serious they are and what an amazing array there is, it's probably never going to happen. Maybe you can just aim for being, ah,...oh fuck it, I'm going to bed.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
