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2017-08-08 at 9:20 PM UTCI think Chink was more trying to say PoC is making a mistake. And Malice and whoever else was talking about it. I don't know too many details, but they were saying §m£ÂgØL warned him about several things. Pretty sure PoC mentioned that too. Also, you took §m£ÂgØL's virginity and had his kid. The whole thing is pretty weird, really.
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2017-08-08 at 9:22 PM UTC
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2017-08-08 at 10:15 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I've been making origami animals in other news… who wants me to send them origami critters?
Malice, would you let me send you Origami critters? I would if I had an address to mail them to. It's been helping with my anxiety somewhat, as of late. Just started a few days ago. Picked up an unopened complete starter kit with a book for like 50cents at a yard sale in a ritzy part of town where I clean rentals. I've made a couple things… working on more with instuctions I've found on the internet now… working on making dragons. Might be something up your alley to give a shot with. I think you'd like it.
How about instead I send you and PoC some kava extract to try for severe anxiety, even reducing epilepsy?
PoC already gave me his address in the past, but you know how he is. Even though he’s changing he can easily and rapidly go right back to his old ways and be impossible to get through to.
You can test it first and then mail it to him.
It’s so cheap it will barely cost a thing to send it in an envelope.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-08-09 at 12:11 AM UTCYeah, Malice, I'm falling apart again. Figured you'd be tickled pink to hear that.
I'm realizing more and more with each passing day that I really can't function in society anymore due to my depressive and autistic symptoms and even simple things like going to work or the grocery or pet store crush me with anxiety. I have to work myself up for ten to twenty minutes before I can even call hydro anymore because talking on the phone or talking in general when my anxiety is this bad gives me such bad sensory overload that I feel like smashing my head in against the nearest hard object just to get it to stop.
I've been abstaining from alcohol, taking my meds, going to therapy, exercising, meditating...none of it does jack shit to remedy the feelings of worthlessness, inadequacy, hopelessness, and fear that plague me on a daily and nearly constant basis. I'm tired of trying to work on a remedy for my problems when I know deep down that I've simply got too much damage inside my head to ever hope for any semblance of real mental normalcy.
I only keep putting up with this shit because I know how severely it would affect hydro considering our situation and I know she's already depressed enough. That's it. Nothing else is keeping me here. I've lost interest in everything, including my pets and I no longer carry the guilt of worrying how it will affect my mother.
I can't stand feeling like I'm just a victim of my disorders. I'm tired of them defining me despite my best efforts to prevent that. I'm sick of not being able to concentrate, not being able to think straight, forcing myself to eat, forcing myself to sleep...it's fucking annoying and boring at this point because it's all so routine for me.
As much as I'd love to shed this mortal coil we both know I'm too much of a pussy to actually go through with it which is why I turn to an online forum full of backwards degenerates to bitch and moan about my problems. I can only hope that the final big breakdown that will send me over the edge completely and grant me the courage to finally do it happens sooner rather than later. -
2017-08-09 at 1:57 AM UTCJesus man, get diagnosed and tell them about how severe your symptoms are.
It’s amazing you were able to work two jobs when you’re way worse than I am now.
They may finally feel sorry enough for yous to prescribe Nardil.
I completely understand what a living hell autism can be. Thank god I’m overcoming or more and more, have the knowledge, tools, and skills I need, developed through constant effort, obsessive reading and analyzing for countless hours to the exclusion of all else, improving myself, my mind, in immeasurable ways.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-08-09 at 2:03 AM UTC
Originally posted by Piles of Crack Yeah, Malice, I'm falling apart again. Figured you'd be tickled pink to hear that.
I'm realizing more and more with each passing day that I really can't function in society anymore due to my depressive and autistic symptoms and even simple things like going to work or the grocery or pet store crush me with anxiety. I have to work myself up for ten to twenty minutes before I can even call hydro anymore because talking on the phone or talking in general when my anxiety is this bad gives me such bad sensory overload that I feel like smashing my head in against the nearest hard object just to get it to stop.
I've been abstaining from alcohol, taking my meds, going to therapy, exercising, meditating…none of it does jack shit to remedy the feelings of worthlessness, inadequacy, hopelessness, and fear that plague me on a daily and nearly constant basis. I'm tired of trying to work on a remedy for my problems when I know deep down that I've simply got too much damage inside my head to ever hope for any semblance of real mental normalcy.
I only keep putting up with this shit because I know how severely it would affect hydro considering our situation and I know she's already depressed enough. That's it. Nothing else is keeping me here. I've lost interest in everything, including my pets and I no longer carry the guilt of worrying how it will affect my mother.
I can't stand feeling like I'm just a victim of my disorders. I'm tired of them defining me despite my best efforts to prevent that. I'm sick of not being able to concentrate, not being able to think straight, forcing myself to eat, forcing myself to sleep…it's fucking annoying and boring at this point because it's all so routine for me.
As much as I'd love to shed this mortal coil we both know I'm too much of a pussy to actually go through with it which is why I turn to an online forum full of backwards degenerates to bitch and moan about my problems. I can only hope that the final big breakdown that will send me over the edge completely and grant me the courage to finally do it happens sooner rather than later.
I did read. Well written, 7/10. -
2017-08-09 at 2:05 AM UTCImagine hearing that from your SO. "I want to die so badly, but the only reason I don't is because you're already so incredibly miserable."
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2017-08-09 at 2:10 AM UTC
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2017-08-09 at 2:36 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-09 at 3:23 AM UTC
Originally posted by Captain Falcon They are both cretins, but at least POC isn't a sociopathic bitch.
I wish I were a sociopath. It would make life so much easier. I truly envy people like that, people who aren't bothered by others suffering, causing others to suffer, and just live to make themselves fulfilled and happy... That would be the life, ripping people off, hurt people, using people, stealing, and otherwise doing just for one's self with no remorse, guilt, or feelings, or empathy for someone else... it'd certainly ease a great deal of my pain, rather than be at the other end of the spectrum of that as I am, which is not a good thing, not at all, as I feel other's pain intimately... always hurting by everyone around me who suffers. -
2017-08-09 at 3:26 AM UTCDang. I just learned Nermal is a male. WTF
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2017-08-09 at 3:30 AM UTC
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2017-08-09 at 5:50 AM UTC
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2017-08-09 at 5:53 AM UTCWonder what they'd do to him in Abu Dhabi for looking like a girl
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2017-08-09 at 5:54 AM UTC......The cat from Garfield?
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2017-08-09 at 5:56 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice How about instead I send you and PoC some kava extract to try for severe anxiety, even reducing epilepsy?
PoC already gave me his address in the past, but you know how he is. Even though he’s changing he can easily and rapidly go right back to his old ways and be impossible to get through to.
You can test it first and then mail it to him.
It’s so cheap it will barely cost a thing to send it in an envelope.
I PMed you. I'll send you some money for the effort, with some origami animals too if you want and will let me. A long time ago §m£ÂgØL suggested Kava tea for my anxiety issues. I wasn't against it, just... never got around to giving it a try. It sounds interesting, it has reverse tolerance, correct? Definitely something I'd be willing to give a go, especially the way my insomnia and anxiety have been. I know PoC is resistant to trying shit like that, but I did get him to try the phenibut finally, and it did help and was of some positive net worth. I think he needs more... if he doesn't order some more soon, I'lll scrum some $$ together to get some for him soon (I could use some too for emergencies, since I gave what I had left of my jar to him when I visited because I know his issues are more urgent than mine... and I'll get by. I have benzos/anti-epileptics available for worse case scenarios if shit gets bad... I just fucking hate them.) I think he was definitely surprised how much it did help, but he really is in a bad spot now... he's going down fast... Well, as his post indicated. I'm not going to be enough, as I am right now, to still keep him surviving through this shit...
You have any advice for getting on SSI/SSD and going about that shit, for mental illnesses such as PoC is dealing with? I don't know how the fuck he's managed this fucking long like he has, but he definitely is a candidate for receiving SSI/SSD. How long does it take to get on SSI once the process starts? I know with SSD it can take fucking years, but getting on SSI would be the best route IMO right now and then work on the SSD. We both need to work on getting that shit. My physical shit, I've been eligible for years for it alone, not even mentioning my mental health issues. we both need to get the ball rolling for that soon.
Thank you, Malice. I know you might have a lot of problems and be mentally ill yourself and all, but you truly are a good person. I wish you didn't suffer, but I wish more people were like you in this world, it certainly would be a better place if that were the case. -
2017-08-09 at 6 AM UTC
Originally posted by Piles of Crack Yeah, Malice, I'm falling apart again. Figured you'd be tickled pink to hear that.
Malice might be a weirdo, and a mentally disturbed person, but I truly don't believe he's ever been happy to know you've been suffering and falling apart. You think he talks down to you (and well everyone), but that's just how he is... he does want the best for people like us, and does try to help from his experience, and what he's learned over the years. You just have to look past that in him... his heart is in the right place. He's a better person than most people in general society. -
2017-08-09 at 6:03 AM UTCY'all are so dramatic.
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2017-08-09 at 6:26 AM UTCtl;dr
