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2017-08-08 at 7:47 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by hydromorphone My sammiches don't taste like ass because I don't make sammiches. I'm the asshole who actually was a cunt to PoC though, so… I deserve all the bullshit. I'm really sorry for hurting PoC and being the cause for his destructive behavior he ensued in… I'm a huge asshole, retarded cunt.
what kind of a woman are you that can't make a fucking sandwich. its like a bit of meat between two slices of bread, not rocket science. shit you can't even spell it right ffs. you fail at woman.
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2017-08-08 at 7:17 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by hydromorphone I should just murder/suicide. I'm too much of a pussy and a coward though. Maybe one day I'll grow a set of balls and just do it ans surprise everyone, including myself.
PoC definitely deserves a better girlfriend than me. He's a better man than I deserve. All his flaws and problems, they don't hold a candle to the truly awesome person he is.
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2017-08-03 at 5:09 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSNext will be a post on reputable Chinese replica clothing.
Before that, two random notes:
#1) The inorgasmia from Nardil seems to be subsiding. Took far shorter today, it was much easier to orgasm. Increasing pleasure as well, arousement, ability maintain an erection. Likely in part from continuing recovery from my ailments, primarily severe depression, even anxiety, the neurological and endocrine changes. NSI-189 and going out for walks/jogs also helps considerably as well, triggers a distinct boost in mood, energy, and cognition afterward. It was also likely influenced by taking a good dose of vitamin D3 powder at night with a meal (fat improves absorption by quite a lot) due to the effect on testosterone it has. As I've mentioned before, diurnal variation in T is standard among males, peaking right around morning, which is the actual reason morning wood occurs, increased arousement particularly after waking. It's actually also been found that this is the time when males most prefer/desire sex (median).
I've been finishing off, or rather, using it as the second phase as it was still taking a very large amount of time in the past, using the hand humping technique. Make a fist and then extend your fingers a small amount. Now peer through the tunnel that has been made, viewed from the inner/thumbward side. Do you have the image now? I mentioned, after someone brought it up, that largely due to being circumcised I had never preferred using lube to jack off due to it feeling less pleasurable, my penis head becoming overstimulated and desensitized from this too rapidly, and it being much harder to come, with orgams less intense. I had to switch due to needing far mor stimulation after the inorgasmia set in. I now figured that it was using too much lubricant, the wrong kind, that was the main problem. I wasn't experiencing enough friction. Switching to baby oil, not too much, worked far better.
As for the technique, I simply oil up my hand, the humped area, penis, with the outer side of the entrance the thumb and ring finger make, underside of foreskin and the area it covers, and head, receiving more lubricant. I then lay down a sheet of paper towel below my penis to prevent oil from getting on the bed sheets and to ejaculate onto. After this, I simply lay on my side, with a strong preference for the left, as this is my natural sleeping position, legs extended so as to make the length of my penis fully available, under the covers as the temperature will better emulate the vaginal cavity, which I've found to be quite important, the oil helping with heat retention as well, both from the air as well as friction and heat transference from hand, then simply adjust my left hand, the entrance I make facing the penis head, of course, and usually take my penis and move it with my right hand so that it pops in there, the entrance tightened so as to simulate initial penetration. Then, as with a woman, moving solely my left hand this time, possibly stabilizing with the left at times, I move generally repeat this motion, exiting and entrancing so as to indulge in the particularly pleasurable feeling of initial entrance repeatedly. I then gradually continue to insert further, the area beneath the head feeling particularly pleasurably, moving back and forth, even exiting at times and entrancing once again, until full penetration is achieved. Emulated vaginal tightness varies with time and visualization. After this the style depends on what sex act is being imagined, the female's response. Long strokes, even reaching the point of near exit, without need for right hand stabilization. Sometimes a pleasureable accidental popping out. Thrusting with hips. The right hand moving in tandem with long strokes and tapping the scrotum to emulate full penetration, "balls deep" as it is colloquially known, slapping against a woman's ass or clitoris (I've mentioned a theory I have, which I am quite confident, in the past, on how this feels particularly pleasurable and seems to be a strong natural orgasm trigger when done right likely due to evolutionary origins. In sex, this would signal full penetration and extension of the vagina from arousal, increased likelihood of the female being near orgasm, during which the cervix moves downward in a scooping motion, and seminal deposit being allowed to the furthest depth. Impeccable logic!). Variations based on imagined anal sex, being considerably tighter, needing time to loosen and fully work its way in. The woman on top, possibly moving onto my back for this, even moving her hips in a circular motion in tandem with with vertical movement, or simply holding the head and foreskin region in while moving in this motion, to quite exotic effect. The thought of a woman's pleasure, moans, orgasm, is by far the most arousing to me, something I noticed in my adolescent years as a novice self-pleasurer. The ideal trigger for orgasm being full penetration, long rapid strokes, a high degree of imagine pleasure along with physical indications, such as a flushed face, possibly other parts of her body, of course moans, language, maximal arousal from her body, such as focus on the perfectly proportioned derriere, grabbing, spanking, possibly even switching to a fantasy of her developing a strong desire for anal, even an addiction to it, and finally I have found that the thought of her in the doggy style position, legs spread a bit as a natural sign of the gates being opened for you, and upper body resting on something soft yet large at the top of the bed, which she rests her body on, elevating it, and from this position bending forward to rest your body against hers, have her posterior fully pressed against you, and passionately kissing her as you thrust deeply and rapidly, simultaneously enjoying every aspect, the maximal contact, feeling of intimacy, as well as her bottom and genitalia fully pressed against yours. From hence, thrusting always maintained, and the final, fullest, thrust times with the inceptive and most powerful ejaculation, one can achieve orgasm of the highest calibre!
And so concludes my masterful guide on the techniques used to achieve the most decadent and gratifying masturbatory escapade!
#2) I had a ton of 1 dollar bills, thought that was just about all I had other than maybe a few 5s, in a tray on my desk and had never bothered to check if I had more there.
No, Lanny, I was never near broke or borderline homeless, I simply thought I had less money than I feel comfortable with, prefer, as a matter of caution and responsibility, regardless of how erratic and inconsistent it may be, or simply appear (You know not my full thoughts and values.), in other aspects of my life.
Turns out I had 4 fucking 7 accumulated. Fuck this shit, goddamn 1s, I'm spending them ASAP instead of using debit to get rid of them.
Not only that, but I found numerous other bills as well, including hundreds. $457 total.
Good lord I'm uncaring about money relative to the average person. It reminds of the time I forgot an envelope in that tray for months with 2.7K in it. Oh, it was at the end of last year, I thought it had been more recent: https://niggasin.space/post/77566
Autism memory power, remembered the string of words I needed on the second google.
Well, I definitely need new shoes, the Merrell Vapor Glove 2 or 3, cheap slippers, Decibullz - Custom Molded Earplugs, 31dB, possibly a cheap laptop, or whatever the term is for the most basic kind, for school. Just need it for simple internet browsing and writing, a good battery life, dependable and durable. Although it's possible I may receive money for that. Hell, i could potentially even lie about (eventually or concurrently) pursuing a CS degree and use that as an excuse to request more money for a considerably more expensive laptop, due to what I would claim to be higher requirements. Clothes, possibly good ones from China. Definitely need new shirts and a jacket. It's going to start getting cold around November, and I can't stand the cold, especially if there's wind. Nothing I hate more than a cold wind, likely due to sensory hyper-sensitivity, which effects my skin as well.
I need some motherfucking weed. It's been some time since I ran out and last smoked. Helps with so many things, particularly the irritability I've been feeling and falling asleep on time. Well, that is really my fault due to staying up reading, sometimes until, god, even as far as 6-7AM recently. heading straight to the Green Cross for a half oz of AC/DC, then Purple Star, by far the best dispensary in terms of overall value, for the optimal indica flowers and wax they have. Stock up.
Oh, I need ketamine (Provides a strong rapid boost in mood, motivation, hedonic tone, ability to use willpower, and reduces anxiety, all of which last for 1-2 weeks after a single dose, as well as numerous other benefits, and is excellent for depressive episodes, in case I actually am mildly bipolar or experience episodes for an unknown reason.), clonazolam, and nortriptyline and reboxetine to combine with Nardil, during separate periods, to see what works best, as it prevents the tyramine reaction and allows you to eat whatever you want, may even reduce the effect of norepinephrine, which would be fantastic as I've written how it effects me due to the neurological archetype of my autism, the amygdala abnormalities, how it causes horrendous relentless anxiety, fear, and apprehension.
Hmm, so that's maybe $600 without the laptop, which I could possibly get for free. Oh, and I may/will probably receive a fair amount of other money for expenditures, even cost of living. When I registered I requested to speak about, register for, various programs i qualify for, so I may receive it from multiple sources. Excited to see what the most I can get is.
Oh, another thing that was mentioned during the orientation! Students are actually allowed to take one class at UC Berkeley, which is really close by, at the same cost per unit as what the community college charges (I believe my fee is waived.). What a sweet deal! I'll actually be able to select the most interesting class relevant to my goals I can find and experience UC Berkeley, a bit of what it's like, right away! Score!
Good lord, 1849 words this time!
I was wrong, Falco, I just don't learn. I went right back to my autistic predisposition.
Oh, actually, I took flmodafinil today, which always plays a huge part. Jesus christ it could make me productive if i channeled it to something like school, which I absolutely plan to do. No, seriously, imagine if I channeled all this power toward school. Shit, ideally I could probably get done with the entire semester in, like, 1/2 the time at least!
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2017-07-27 at 2:13 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSBad Is Stronger Than Good
https://carlsonschool.umn.edu/Assets/71516.pdf
Came across a magnificent extensive overview on the impact of negative emotional events, suffering, and how it is far stronger than positive life events. I was already aware of this, the concept and evidence/research supporting the view, which is fairly apparent even through mere reflection, but it's good to have a single item that is so thorough. Profound value for negative utilitarian ethics. Also value for the view that in a sense suffering is the baseline state of life, which Schopenhauer espoused. Did a search and found that Benatar listed it in the bibliography for his recent book The Human Predicament.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-27 at 8:09 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by antinatalism you sound like the typical WrongPlanet.net faggot who obsessively jumps from a medical website to another in search of every minute symptoms that the perfect archetype of asperger's is supposed to have and then subconsciously starts mirroring them and delude himself into thinking that those behavioral patterns were his own from the get-go so that he can jerk off fantasizing about how much of an asperger he is. chances are that if tomorrow you'll read that aspergers tend to breed more than sub-saharan niggers then you'd start looking for some succubi to impregnate so that you could still label yourself as an "aspie"
No dude, there are an absurd amount of symptoms and comorbidities. I'm fully aware of how this can cause me to appear.
I'm 100% serious. This legitimately is something that seems to be specifically related to ASD. Have you really not realized that posters that have stated they're on the spectrum tend to have a distinct writing style? It's something you can notice on any sector of the internet devoted to aspies.
Why the hell would this be difficult to believe? Going further, exactly what makes you believe you're qualified to make this statement toward someone who has researched ASD, Asperger's syndrome specifically, to an immeasurably greater extent than you have?
All I'm doing is attempting to provide an insight into why this is. Do you honestly disagree that Hydro and do not have noticeably distinct writing styles that consistently tend to be of excessive length?and then subconsciously starts mirroring them and delude himself into thinking that those behavioral patterns were his own from the get-go so that he can jerk off fantasizing about how much of an asperger he is.
*facepalm* Oh for fuck's sake, you'd better be trolling. And Aldra actually thanked such an idiotic post. You honestly believe I've been attempting to behave, to make myself, more autistic? This is one of the stupidest things I've ever read.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-27 at 7:16 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Captain Falcon Hydro I mean you no disrespect but holy shit learn to organise your thoughts you fag cunt
Hey, I agree with you, other than the insults. We absolutely do need to learn to organize our thoughts.
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2017-07-27 at 7:13 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Lanny That's everyone bro, you're not special
Are you serious? Deficit in theory of mind.
I mean, are you aware of how most people react to psychedelics, particularly prolonged or repeated use, and the absolutely absurd, flat our irrational and insane shit they consistently tend to come up with? The idea that most people respond like this is ludicrous.
I have absolutely no problem believing that you respond in this manner as well, in fact, I would have expected it. Although, I do recall you writing a while back that psychedelics had changed your views. It was vague, but you mentioned that afterward you developed the belief, or at least seriously considered, that there were things that were inexplicable by science. I'm not entirely sure what you meant due to the indeterminate nature of it or whether your views have changed, but it seemed somewhat concerning and embarrassing. I have no idea what you experienced or what you meant by that.
If you have not strayed from the light, you may be one of the chosen adherents of pure reason.
Unrelated, I swear I just got through a relatively shorter hydro posts in under 10 seconds. Even at 10, that would be around 3600 wpm. I must learn to hone and fully harness this power.
I mean, I've read descriptions of some people who could seemingly go through pages like normal people go through headlines and I feel like I completely understand at this point. The style is completely different from normal reading, I don't even have to fully focus my eyes or move them and I can take in multiple lines at ones. It's normal for people to be able to take in multiple words at once and be able to process them into a coherent whole, this is simply a far more extreme version of that.
Of course the subject matter influences this immensely, it could never be done with writing at a far more advanced level that's conveying something substantial. Still, it's immensely valuable for being able to gloss over everything you already know or can grasp/predict, the general "flow" or pattern of it, and be able to locate exactly the information that's of value to you. Need to discipline myself consistently of course.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-27 at 6:46 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Captain Falcon Holy didn't fucking read
I've mentioned this before, but there's a certain speaking or writing style that seems to be far more common, if not specific, to Asperger's. It's specifically described as a profound difficulty or innate lack of understanding in being concise, in understanding what's truly important to convey. I won't get into the underlying factors.
Absolutely something I need to work on myself, a skill I need to develop, especially if in school and if I ever want to produce serious writings. I'm completely aware that rants like the ones I produce will cause immense problems.
That aside, there's a certain speed reading/skimming style I've found that works fantastically for Hydro's posts. I swear I can get through them ridiculously fast and still grasp the meaning, the most important points, or anything of particular importance.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-27 at 6:05 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-27 at 5:05 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSAnyweay, hyrdo my bae, my hard bae, I read every goddamn word you write, like sometimes I get high and I just read every letter you write out, and sound em out, and bask in what Io know is many many words to come and seriously thanks cuz when I'm high and staring at walls and focused but not I like to find a thing a task a focus and it becomes your posts and they just make me feel alive, healthy, understandable, excitable, and READY, quite frankly. I FEEL READY.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-27 at 4:56 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
SDF have actually come out and made an official statement that there is in fact no 'faggot battalion' and that there are just a few foreign fags fishing for attention.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
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2017-07-27 at 4:20 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
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2017-07-26 at 6:59 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDShttps://www.reddit.com/r/DrugNerds/comments/6pnej2/psilocybin_as_treatment_for_autism5ht2a/?st=j5ld49gb&sh=6fbe2ed1
Psilocybin as treatment for autism(5ht2a agonism/mglu2 inhibition), relationship between autism and schizophrenia?
You know, it's interesting to think about deviations related to the 5-HT2A receptor as it relates to autism/Asperger's. In a way, I may actually be naturally far saner and more rational than neurotypicals, resistant to insanity. This is very different than the variety of (severe) mental illnesses I currently posses, that I've displayed and episodes I've experienced in the past, I assure you.
I distinctly noticed that even under fairly high doses of psychedelics I would remain surprisingly rational. As in, of course there were various profound modulations in the conscious experience, but my coherence, grasp of reasoning, always remained, I always felt like myself.
It's kind of like a superpower. Super-rationality and resistance to mental/cognitive incoherence, what I would define as "insanity".
Oh, I've got it! As to the aforementioned at the end of paragraph one, it should not be difficult to believe and accept that a normal person would have been far more damaged given everything I've experienced in life,in conjunction with my neurological abnormalities, the process of the development of my mind, my worldview/thoughts on all the various aspects of life etc. I've stated before that damn near anyone would have become hopelessly insane or committed suicide quite some time ago. So, as you see (Lanny), it actually supports my hypothesis after all and doesn't seem as ridiculous as it initially may have seemed. I was actually going for irony at first toward the end, but then came to this thought.
In fact, I'm so devoted and naturally inclined toward pure reason that I can even accept positions such as anti-natalism, ascribing a negative value to the creation of life and being opposed to it, and even the desirability of the end of all life in existence, despite them going in stark contrast to the strongest evolutionary forces that molded man and led to the strongest cognitive biases and being profoundly counterintuitive, arguably the most counterintuitive and difficult positions to fully grasp, without hesitation, any emotional interference, or cognitive biases interfering. If it were determined that consciousness/identity were "illusory" or that it the optimal/most reasonable choice was non-existence I would commit suicide without hesitation simply due to how remarkably reasonable I am. If anything it could prove I was potentially the most reasonable being in known existence, possibly ever to have existed, as far as we know.
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2017-07-26 at 9:34 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSAddressed to Hydro only, absolutely no need to read for those of you who are other mental fucktards with no self-control and who bitch about everything that doesn't go your way like the children you are (falco). Actually being courteous by using spoilers to make the thread appear less cluttered (As if the vast majority of posts aren't absolutely nothing but mere shitposts that provide nothing of value, even so much as mild amusement), enough with the TL;DR or I won't bother doing this (You're going to do it anyway, aren't you?).
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2017-07-26 at 7:53 AM UTC in Impliment some moderation
Originally posted by -SpectraL I think they're all antagonistic, because they're frustrated. They feel you that since you didn't lay out any real ground rules or mission statement in the first place, they didn't have to follow any, and then you pivoted.
There are two rules. There's some ambiguity in them but no ruleset for posting on an internet forum is ever going to be without ambiguity. I think they're as clear as they're going to get. If you want a mission statement then I'm sorry but you're going to continue to be frustrated. I don't want a mission statement, I'm not on a mission, I'm not going to take up whatever you think this site's mission should be. I realize you might think we'd be better off with one but we're just going to have to disagree on that topic.It's really you who has to decide whether this is going to be a playground, or a discussion platform.
See, you say things like this. Like "either it's a playground or a discussion platform" like those words mean something objective. I know you think they do but your idea of the line between discussion and playground isn't the same as mine. Clearly. This place is what it is, there are two rules, if the only thing that's conducive to is something you'd call a playground then that's what this place is.You keep saying, "I don't give a shit", "I don't give a shit", "I don't give a shit", again and again, but yet YOU are the one who put up this BBS. So, yes, you apparently DO give a shit.
I give a shit about having a BBS to post on with people I've known for almost a decade now, sure. If you'd like me to be more specific then what I meant was I don't give a shit about how you think that BBS should be run. No two people here can agree on what the ideal forum looks like, as far as I know you don't have special access to the truth, so it isn't with particular malice that I tell you I don't care what you think, I simply don't believe you when you tell me our lives would be better with more internet forum mission statements in them.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-26 at 7:24 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSOh no, they affect neurotransmitters, the monoamines, in the brain as well. Incredibly dangerous misconception. You would literally need to rush to a hospital ASAP to avoid as much permanent neurological damage as possible. Even under the best circumstances there would likely be considerable apoptosis, even vascular rupturing. At the very least it would be an excruciating and horrifying experience that would land you in the ICU for days, or at least the general hospital under monitoring and treatment.
Really terrifying what would happen if someone were to make such an idiotic mistake, or were drugged.
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2017-07-26 at 6:23 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS(scenery and character descriptions skipped for brevity)
*smooth voice* "Hey baby girl, you lookin' for a little somethin' somethin'?"
"Uh-uh, I seen too many baby daddies get they girl pregnant then run out."
"Is a'ight, I can't get no bitches pregnant."
*turns phone screen to camera and flashes a smile and wink*
Yes, yes! I can see my eugenic vision coming to fruition! Even if it failed, it would be a spectacular, hilarious, failure that would go down in history for until it was largely forgotten. It deserves to be attempted. I could even see a very feasible way for a professor/researcher to fleece a university and various donors out of grant money to conduct relevant research for the initiation of this project.
I have no idea how these people actually speak nowadays, so of course the above isn't an accurate reflection of what the actual media campaign would be like.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-26 at 6:15 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSHey, I just thought of a great, and laughably stupid, way to potentially incentivize low quality men to receive vasectomies, or at least the vasalgel once/if it comes to market. It would require an organization and campaign by someone wealthy and somewhat well known, or at least respected, a figure in academia.
I'll skip straight to the point, it should be simple enough to surmise. Create a viral campaign, fueled by controversy that stems from an outright avowed support of (voluntary) eugenics, an education campaign dealing with the myths and misconceptions and explaining why it is in fact a very good thing that is not unethical/immoral at all.
Finally leading to various forms of highly secure user specific identification verifying them as members who have enrolled in the campaign to receive such status at no cost.
Essentially, convince ghetto men to do so because they would receive an identifier that could simply state, and would be heavily marketed as such, "I can't get no bitches pregnant."
The immense benefit would be, as we would claim, that "bitches" would be far more willing to fuck with them if they knew there was no rirsk of pregnancy, leading to sex being attained at a far lower "cost" as well as a considerably higher quantity being attained.
Low quality people would be absolutely unconcerned and largely oblivious to the atomic bitchfest caused by various facets of white leftist culture.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
