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2015-08-02 at 12:09 PM UTC in 500 Thankses

The Self Taught Man Black Hole

How should I address you? As TheDarkRodent, Darth Beaver, Psychomanthis or Sofie?

Sir will suffice.

2015-08-01 at 9:58 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

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Have you tried them in low or "non-recreational" (scare quotes because they can still be fun) doses? I think for people with a need for constant engagement, stimulants can correct a sort of anxiousness that many people feel when they're not doing anything in particular. For me sitting still or just laying down is pretty unpleasant, going on for long enough it borders on unbearable. The few times I've been in a situation I literally couldn't do anything else I'd start doing things to hurt myself just to break the lack of sensation. On an appropriate dose of stimulants (not too high) that's not a problem. I can sit quietly and the experience itself is sufficient to keep me content. It's a totally different experience from the muscles-tensed breakneck energy of a high dose (although that's fun too), it's just like the nagging sensation of boredom is removed from everything for a while. I'm not sure if everyone experiences the same thing or you need my particular personality defect to get that response but it feels a lot more like being "fixed" than anything synthetic or unnatural.

Yeah, I usually was dosing pretty low because I worried about my heart (dem heart conditions). But it still felt unnatural. I never got anxious from them save from my one episode of psychosis, though I did always feel a need to do shit. I guess that's part of why I think it feels unnatural. That mental push to just do something, anything is kind of unnerving for me.

Plus liek, I don't want my heart to explode.

2015-08-01 at 7:28 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

The Self Taught Man Black Hole

60 days sober, I'm actually doing it.

this is me

2015-08-01 at 12:11 PM UTC in 500 Thankses

The Self Taught Man Black Hole

Suuure it is, fuck-o. I believe you.

You also believe in your own BS.

2015-08-01 at 12:10 PM UTC in 500 Thankses

The Self Taught Man Black Hole

I forgot how annoying you can be, dick rodent. thanks for the reminder.

I forgot to give a fuck

2015-08-01 at 4:52 AM UTC in Alcohol is the shit

The Self Taught Man Black Hole

What kind of alcohol do you drinks, what brands do you like?

I just turned of age not long ago, I've been enjoying rum. So far admiral nelson's spice rum is the tastiest I've found. I am not too fond of white rum although it's better for mixed drinks, bacardi limon is really fucking good with any sort of juice but it's pretty faggy. I've not had too much experience with whiskeys yet that aren't absolute shit but I'm gonna give it a go next time I decide to buy a bottle probably. Not fond of beer, port wine is delicious though.

2015-08-01 at 4:48 AM UTC in 500 Thankses

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Thankses you say?

2015-08-01 at 4:43 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

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Stimulants feel artificial to me lanny, I haven't had one that felt natural. It doesn't mean that only tweakers have to use it but I just don't like the chemical feel to any that I've tried, not that I"ve got any desire to try any more.

2015-08-01 at 3:39 AM UTC in 500 Thankses

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Stick to your faggot account, tDR.

This is the only account I have. Unlike you I don't put lipstick on socks.

Nor do I play with Barbie dolls.

2015-08-01 at 3:34 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

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I also just got out of the looney bin for the second time

glad to be back

2015-08-01 at 3:33 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

The Self Taught Man Black Hole

Everybody in Canterbury Commons is dead

they got eaten by a yao guai

lulz

2015-07-31 at 8:12 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

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Fucking jennifer.

2015-07-31 at 7:19 PM UTC in 500 Thankses

The Self Taught Man Black Hole

[FONT=Verdana]No one hears a word I say[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]And my prayers are never answered[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]But you'll never see the pain inside of me[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]Stabbing me over and over and over[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]I trusted you, and I loved you[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]And you spit back in my face[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]How could you do this to me?[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]When will you stop trying to hurt me?[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]I've walked a minefield for you[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]A career in hell with you[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]I have made it through the things[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]Others would surely die just watching[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]And the oath I take on this day i[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana]s to know that you will be repaid[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]One day the the sun will die and the night will crawl[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]Until then… until I see your world implode[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]I wish you death and suffering[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]Misery to spare[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]Time to release your pain[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]Face the last enemy![/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]I am the last thing you will know[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]The last thing you will see[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]I see your death surrounding me[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]I know you Yes, I do[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]I know you[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]When no words are spoken, and pleas are ignored[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]Your tears go unnoticed, will you say enough?[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]When prayers are unanswered, and your calls are unheard[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]The pain cuts right through you, have you seen enough?[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]It all seems so deceitful, and the verdict is lies[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]A black cloud of indecision compromised your life[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]When judgement has failed you[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]When your own heart's impaled you[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]Your wandering mind has destroyed you[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]Will you ever know when?[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]When you give everything, and the feeling is gone[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]All the giving is fake, did you fake enough?[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]When you take everything, and you've stayed too long[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]When there's nothing left, did you take enough?[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]It all seems so deceitful, and the verdict is lies[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]A black cloud of indecision compromised your life[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]When judgement has failed you[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]When your own heart's impaled you[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]Your wandering mind has destroyed you[/FONT]

[FONT=Verdana]Will you ever know when?[/FONT]

You and your music belong in the Smithsonian not on the internutz.

2015-07-31 at 3:53 PM UTC in My preliminary calculations show that...

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I look at all the exact same websites. It sucks having nothing to do and nobody to talk to. Nobody on skype or kik and I don't know anyone on TC.

Playing online games is the only thing I get lost in anymore.

2015-07-31 at 11:45 AM UTC in

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Interesting point of view, I agree.

2015-07-30 at 7:55 PM UTC in Inhalants

The Self Taught Man Black Hole

Have you tried nitrous? It's definitely nice. Better with other drugs or so I hear. It's pretty damn great though imo.

2015-07-30 at 4:47 PM UTC in Inhalants

The Self Taught Man Black Hole

I like Xylene and Jenk

2015-07-30 at 4:14 PM UTC in Cooking with ZyclonB&BradleyB, Tinychat Cooking Show.

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Hot dogs in quesadillas is a complete fucking abomination. When you break tradition in making ethnic foods, you're supposed to try to make it *better* not make it taste like oscar meyer shit. I can think of a million things I'd add to a quesadilla and a hot dog is not anywhere near my list, we keep the hot dog outside on a leash

2015-07-30 at 4:13 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

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Well I'm an official secret shopper now. Do my first shop and audit today. Some little gas station out in the country. the items I have tocheck for being in stock are so redneck. HOtdogs and shit

That is cool as shit, who for?

Still not enough to support your child.

Better than nothing. I'm pretty happy about it.

2015-07-30 at 2:45 PM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition

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Going tomorrow to look at a 2006 Volkswagen Passat because my Subaru is on it's death bed. If I can scrap/sell this shitmobile for $400 I'll be happy, shouldn't be too hard to do since it still runs and the scrap value alone is almost $400.

People are telling me I should strip it down and sell it in parts but I'm too stupid and lazy for that shit.

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