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2022-03-28 at 3:52 AM UTC in 🍬🍬Candy~Land🍬🍬Announcements❤️💗❤️
Okay ...thank you yes please be seated...
There has been a change in the plans tonight.. Mariah's birthday celebration will be postponed until further notice..
Will Smith just smacked Chris Rock at the Oscars on stage because of a joke he made about Jada...
Instagram is in an uproar and I must keep an eye on this story
I apologize for any inconveniences this change of plans may have caused
Please voice all questions and concerns to my email
@ Yourdadsemail@hotmail.com
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2022-03-27 at 9:12 PM UTC in Have you ever wondered what I would look like as a female?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2022-03-27 at 6:27 PM UTC in I'm gonna make steak and eggs for breakfast.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2022-03-27 at 5:11 AM UTC in Please, just tell me, what is your favourite breakfast cereal?
Originally posted by mmQ I ate a lot of cocoa puffs at the youth correctional center because it was either that or rice crispies or plain shredded wheat thins.
The best part is the milk becomes chocolatey... I like Capn Crunch Crunchberrors but the milk ends up tasting just plain but sweet with a sickly sweet aroma.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-03-27 at 5:05 AM UTC in The TRT Thread: Its the end of the world as we know it so GET WHOLESOME edition
Originally posted by mmQ Yeah it's kind of interesting the further I live, the more I find myself sort of always weighing the idea of 'trying to better myself' and 'jesus fuck who even cares at this point, it is what it is.'
Like you said, it's not HEALTHY to have self destructive thoughts, by definition, but when you don't care about healthy than you just… Don't care.
You're def right as far as me losing my faith in god and I will be the first to admit that there is a big difference between it, mainly the fact that with faith, regardless of how shitty things are, you can hold this belief that it's 'part of a plan' or whatever, that no matter what happens, God is there and will help you get through shit. When I gave that up, I didn't necessarily realize the impact that it has when I realize that life is truly on my terms and I am completely responsible for myself and my actions.
That said, I still just can't arbitrarily start pretending I believe in god again just for the sake of hoping it will help me and my accountability. It would obviously feel disenguine as fuck. But I suppose that's why people come up with other higher powers and I guess I could pretend the fucking cosmos is my leader and it'll make everything right in the end.
For now, I am DUST IN THE WIND.
Why can't you actually be accountable to yourself, like no shit accountable?
Like people act like it is cool to not care, do whatever, move on, fly through life by the seat of your pants... and bury that part of you that kills you on the inside where you make a mistake or say something stupid.
That's considered bad. When you have that thought in the shower about that stupid argument where you looked like a fool... No! Shove it down! Bad! Cringe! You're a free independent soul who don't need no accountability! Feeling bad is for losers!
Except if you actually go along with that line of thinking your whole life, you will end up on your deathbed as a hollow and socially retarded individual who hurt everyone and never knew what was actually good for them.
I don't believe in God but I also don't believe in indeterministic free will. Whatever is happening is happening. We have less power and control than we like to imagine. So your happiness, whatever, make your best effort but understand that there's no plan but there's also nothing you can really do. Just do your best and hope everything turns out for the best and don't concern yourself with such retarded abstract shit.
I long since accepted I am a meat machine, but the only part that interests me is "ok so now what?" Very quickly such problems dissolve to irrelevance.
Can't god just he reality? Why does its "plan" have to make us happy?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-03-26 at 10:07 PM UTC in The TRT Thread: Its the end of the world as we know it so GET WHOLESOME editionThis may not be related that was all a roller coaster to read. I think self-sabotage happens because if you don’t achieve something and blame it on your mental health or whatever then you can still tell yourself you could achieve it, instead of having to face trying your best and failing.
I thrived during lockdown, spent more time outdoors than before it and think it was because there was no pressure, life was simple because everything had already gone to hell.
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2022-03-26 at 9:57 PM UTC in The TRT Thread: Its the end of the world as we know it so GET WHOLESOME edition
Originally posted by mmQ Yeah it's kind of interesting the further I live, the more I find myself sort of always weighing the idea of 'trying to better myself' and 'jesus fuck who even cares at this point, it is what it is.'
Like you said, it's not HEALTHY to have self destructive thoughts, by definition, but when you don't care about healthy than you just… Don't care.
You're def right as far as me losing my faith in god and I will be the first to admit that there is a big difference between it, mainly the fact that with faith, regardless of how shitty things are, you can hold this belief that it's 'part of a plan' or whatever, that no matter what happens, God is there and will help you get through shit. When I gave that up, I didn't necessarily realize the impact that it has when I realize that life is truly on my terms and I am completely responsible for myself and my actions.
That said, I still just can't arbitrarily start pretending I believe in god again just for the sake of hoping it will help me and my accountability. It would obviously feel disenguine as fuck. But I suppose that's why people come up with other higher powers and I guess I could pretend the fucking cosmos is my leader and it'll make everything right in the end.
For now, I am DUST IN THE WIND.
It's not about God PER SE it's about having something to be accountable to, be it family, a partner, a future you don't wanna fuck up. I can imagine some of thr forgiveness aspects of Christianity would be problematic for people trying to really change because they can always confess and be absolved.
I think it would be good to try to find something that you don't wanna disappoint or a foreseeable scenario you don't wannanfuck up. That's the attraction of self destruction and negative talk is it's a self fulfilling prophecy and you're setting yourself up for failure so you're never disappointed.
You're better than that man. Other people have shit? Fuck their shit that should be your shit. Go take it from them. Fucking rape them too, fucking undeserving bitches take what's rightfully yoursThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-03-26 at 9:15 PM UTC in The TRT Thread: Its the end of the world as we know it so GET WHOLESOME edition
Originally posted by mmQ Sometimes I think for me it's my lack of accountability. Whenever I've been in a controlled environment like incarceration or halfway house or inpatient treatment, I somehow EXCEL. I do everything right as long as I have something hanging over my head to incentivise me to, but I've been off paper and out of treatments for years now, and it's just this weird rollercoaster of poor choices and good choices.
Like obviously I'd still prefer to be free but sometimes I wish a lengthy prison sentence was hanging over my head if I didn't get my shit together, and I realize more normal people would simply say to this 'well, time to man up and be adult, hold yourself accountable, put on your big boy pants etc etc' and they're not wrong. I just haven't been good at it. I'm actually surprised I've managed to not become homeless, that's like my biggest accomplishment lol.
But! I will still try and hold on to the hope that I can figure it out.
All of my stunted feels in this post ♤
I get the same thing where I'm like "dang I could go for a nice little incarceration to reset myself" but
a) this is very dangerous and risky thinking
B) you're putting things out of your own control
C) it never works out how you hope it will
Among probly one or two other reasons why it's not a good idea. It can be good to hone your focus in a setting conducive to gaining skills but incarceration is not the answer. I find myself thinking this way every few months and have learned to "check myself before I wreck myself" when it comes to desiring destructive scenarios. Same with fantastical thinking revolving around using drugs and committing violence. So unhealthy to allow to make your choices for you
Even when you entertain fantasies involving shitty people/scenarios you're selling yourself short because unless you're a real piece of shit, chances are you deserve your freedom and you're kinda telling yourself you don't.
I think personal accountability is what you need and perhaps losing your faith in DA BIG MAN UPSTAIRS has left an accountability hole in you because that's probably something you used to revere. Not saying that's what you need but something similar to feel beholden to is probably important. Dealing with loss is a barrier of personal accountability too. I really worry what I'll be like if I lose certain people, I really need to develop some fall back coping skills in case that happensThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-03-26 at 8:13 PM UTC in The TRT Thread: Its the end of the world as we know it so GET WHOLESOME edition
Originally posted by mmQ Samesies. Although I've come to realize at this point that regardless of any strides forward I make, or Happies I obtain, just when I think I've perhaps turned the corner on the path to enlightenment, I fuck something up and slide back to where I started. Basically my life is a game of chutes (snakes for you weirdos) and ladders and there's just a lot of fucking chutes. It's hard for me not to believe that it's subconsciously hardwired into my brain to fuck things up whenever I'm doing well, as though I deserve it or something. Who knows. Whatever. Blah. Countblah.
Yea man, maladaptive coping mechanisms and self destructive tendies and shit. I just deal with shit wrong and manifest destruction by thinking negatively. Not sure if the first summer I'm off all conditions since I was 19 is good or bad for me but I'm leaning towards good because it's less stress but potentially less mindfulness of legalities. I just want things to be simple and peaceful -
2022-03-26 at 8:07 AM UTC in Some shit that happens to me when I dont take my medsThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2022-03-26 at 7:17 AM UTC in Some shit that happens to me when I dont take my medsOk so i had a job for a ball park at one time and i went to work every day i heard voices on the regular they would call out to me even while i was doing my personal buinsness if you know what i mean it was quite annoying anyways one day they are like telling me that they can give me pleasure even make me expirience a female orgasm and im male so once they made me expirience it i was like maybe it is real so then i started takeing it seriousely which i usually do but im forgetfull and i just usually forget to take it seriously anyways it starts saying that it is going to give me pleasure if i listen first it tells me to spin in a circle and make sure no one can hear me talk to myself so i do and i am given a large dose of pleasure all day it feels like im in constant orgasm i start smiling and being bubbly because of it but it is short lived because it convinces me its a scientist or evil intent that they are doing it so i quit eating like a hunger strike stay awake for like 2 days just walking trying to burn myself out i keep getting crazyier and crazyier eventually i go on auto pilot multiple personality takes over and i start screaming at people im trying to do cold fusion with no water and then after that people call the police on me becauese i scream at someone i need water and then say no i dont and then scream at them again and say nvm me and walk away fast alot of people called the police on me and so i get arrested and taken to the metal hospital in the mental hospital im demanding trying to bargain for a button that makes me feel pleaseure no one knows what im talking about i remember trying to use my hand to show my dick size to people and them laughing at my hand but probably had no idea thats what i meant by it i was pretty cray at that time thought that people wanted to know my dick size for some reason anyways my trip to the hospital my pee stops working and the voice turns against me and starts interrogating me meanwhile i cant pee and it hurts so bad i freaked out so much about it eventually it says that i was like bad or something and someone walks up to me while im in the bubble room because i scared someone with a dirty look. I yelled like a lunatic at the person screaming profanity through the door that person turned out to be the twins form my childhoods mother which was funny because i told her i knew her and she said i dont know her and she was wrong. After i got out i was medicated for a while until i got my next job i was afraid to go to the doctors because you can be fired for any reason the first month and i have to see the doctor in the day time when i work which also resulted in another hospital trip from not taking my meds. anyways recently i have become almost immune atleast to the pleasure suppresent that my med does now im feeling pleasure again which usually drives me loopy but i have called it pgad and schitzofrenia that persistant genital arrosal disorder which is rare in men but i know is not impossible. other things that have happend once they said they played a sound that attacked me and i was hit with like a frying pan but nothing hit me fucked me up which made me think maybe theres fuckingn microbots in my head or some shit i have had alot of thoughts on what could be causeing my issues but really it doesnt matter its all a game of chess to me id rather it know when i want it to know and have it know nothing when i dont want it to know.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2022-03-24 at 2:48 AM UTC in NSFW: How does this picture make you feel?Was actor the guy who invented the peeing in butts meme on zoklet? I Mandela effected him into it.
Nobody thinks Nelson Mandela died in jail either unless they're dumb as shit. It's funny because the name "Mandela effect" is a form of Mandela effect because now people believe that it's not a completely stupid and unreasonable thing to have once believed, that somehow a dead political prisoner ended apartheid and became a household name. Nobody even knows the name of the shopkeeper who set himself on fire and started the Arab spring. Stupid.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-03-24 at 1:49 AM UTC in The TRT Thread: Its the end of the world as we know it so GET WHOLESOME editionAt what point does a pizza cease to be a pizza after the removal or substitution of one of the three key ingredients (dough, tomato sauce and cheese) because there are so many variations now, cauliflower dough, vegan cheese, pesto etc. Im stoned and that's been the quandary I'm contemplating
what IS A PIZZA MAAAAAAN? fuck I'm hungry. I should have eaten some kf that haram ass pizza I just had access toThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-03-23 at 9 PM UTC in Pisses me off18 naked cowboys in the shower at ram ranchThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2022-03-23 at 8:27 PM UTC in The TRT Thread: Its the end of the world as we know it so GET WHOLESOME editionThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2022-03-23 at 5:59 PM UTC in Passed my driving test lads.Happy as shit 😊😊The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2022-03-23 at 1:58 PM UTC in THE MAGA PARTY!,,, the GOP is dead, republicans are going down with the dems,, get ready for THE MAGA PARTY lefty's
Originally posted by ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ When you see all the fake news rags and all the radical left wing nutters and all the RINO dummies virtue-signaling about something, like Ukraine, you should automatically take the opposite position.
This encapsulates your "political views" remarkably succinctly (and also that of many people).
"I don't like the people on that side so I'm taking the opposite side whether or not it is correct, genuine or well meaning" This is literally the right wing equivalent of "orange man bad" you know that right?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-03-20 at 7:10 PM UTC in Why does Wariat edit his posts?We have all the pics and copies of all the chats on here, including ones deleted. They are looking to pass these onto Polish authorities and investigate further. Should have stuck to getting your ass licked by dogs.
Ha ha, stupid Nonce cunt.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-03-20 at 6:41 PM UTC in Why does Wariat edit his posts?Mmhmm ok man sure sounds good.
Yah I wouldn't worry about it they just said they've been getting reports from something about a team of child protection people that work in poland and apparently your name has been coming up or something idk I'm just telling u what they told me.
Do you think I need a cover page for my folder I'm gonna give them with everything you've ever said on the internet? Or just a regular folder is good enough? Oh I know, a manilla envelope those look professionalThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-03-17 at 3:35 PM UTC in 🍬🍬Candy~Land🍬🍬The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
