the extent of my knowledge of economics is drugs= money
Im debating blowing off NA. The meetings are cancelled anyway so everyone would forget about me and not hound me for a bit. I do t have any plans to start doing heroin or oxy or fent or coke again.........................but if i DID............ a global pandemic keeping me from the meetings that were MY LAST LIFELINE TO SOBRIETY would be a pretty solid reason. Ive been in the shit a year and a half i think. and im on step 3. I mean having all 12 under the best seems like another cool junkie milestone but fuck if im going to be alive long enough to do that shit and go write gay hallmark cards to everyone i fucked over. I mean parts of the program are great, esp at the beginning. But i think i can distill it down a bit further. 1) Check your impulses. Run your decisions by people less crazy than you, 2) Be mindful. 3) Be of service. Helping people gives you peace. 4) Dont stress over things you cant control, and dont be too cowardly to engage the things that youre passionate about. 5) You can decide to be a different person every day. It doesnt absolve you of responsibility, but you can work towards alleviating guilt by putting more good into the world than you took frim it,
Shit like that. If i want ti smoke a bowl and a have 3 or 4 vodka sodas at a live blues bar once a month, i shouldnt lose all my stickers and self respect. It wasnt being a weak willed individual that got me addicted. It was a combination of being socially awkward without a way to relate to people...and mostly the indcredibly physically addictive shit i was putting into my body 6 or 7 times a day bc everything else id ever been told about drugs was a lie.
Thats my update. lol.
couple million for a netflix doc is a small price to pay for political capital
1) I like ur curtains
2) that pineapple aint ripe
number three) is there any meat on the bottom ribeye/strip. Looks like a lot of fat
talking to a tweaker chikkin, doing my yoga, eating all my pills and eating a lemon poppyseed scone
2020-04-11 at 1:10 PM UTC
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What a View
Ill take a picture when the sun comes up in a few min
Well he did do the wuhan coronavirus so chances are he was infected inadvertently in the lab due to not being able to smoke crack normally through his PPE
Guns. And 6 raw chikkins
Was actually super pleased that i passed a federal background check. Now i feel like a Real American.
Thankfully our benevolent overlords know that although im a grimy scumbag, im also their best hope to push back the Red Menace when they sense we’re sufficiently weakened and land their ships at El Porto.
Dude what is wrong with you? Like have you seen a doctor or mental health professional lately?
