in my lateral memory i keep Bill Krozby in a cage & i feed him Bill Krozby nuggets to live so that the more he eats & the longer he lives the less he becomes
the problem that i have with pistachios is that people think they need to take off the shells & generally what i tell people i see at the store buying pistachios which have no longer their shells is that they're a sinner & they will roast in an orgy of searing garlic because the joy of the pistachio is really in fondling the shell now bear with me you probably think "this sounds like no interaction i've had with the pistachios who live in my area" but you need to be more wordly, in fact the cosmopolitan pistachio is an up&comer in the modern public for you'll see them in position to net the market on such things as spreads, cheeses, dips, not to mention the butters, crisps, beverages, soon to follow recyclables & then it's over, you'll see such pistachio circulation other nuts put to shame & don't you dare remove the fucking shells or i'll sin your sins & sear you into my garlic orgy for you've failed the fondling
truth time: i do have a gun & in my wildest imagination i have this gun for you now that you're in my thread where i want you i won't let you leave without expressing my sincerest love for you & your people because you see i come from a faraway land & i'm here to establish relationships with the people who live here to learn about them & see what they know because we believe there is always much to exchange between different perspectives such as a disproportionate trade that deepens our wealth so that we can afford to cut every throat of every son & impregnate each & every daughter cut open the wives daddies on pikes kids will work in the mines that make me smarter more responsive consumer electronics & then i will bring these to you & teach you how to use them & call it charity
despite appearances i think this is all going really well & you've been so good to yourself this year that i want to show you what's going to matter for the next year & the next year & more after that & i want you to get excited because it's all anybody will be talking about for a while & when you see you'll understand why because it's everything we've talked about, it's all that & more, you're going to love it, i love how much you love it because your face will love it i love your face when it loves it for it looks lovingly at it your face looks lovingly i love your face looking lovingly for the ephemeral taste on my teeth my tongue the lovely taste of your loving looking face
you can't imagine the pride of a new father it's much better than being the old father i was & i was so sick of that tired role always being the husband loyal to the bastard & woman both i was so sick living beholden to those fucking people providing for them making sure they don't kill each other believe me they would (they had me to make sure) & i never let the police set foot in our home not even when the neighbor told them i was hallucinating my family because i knew very well that my neighbor was a hallucination & the officer was playing into my meth delusion to try to get inside the house so i had a new baby, now i'm a new father & a new man with new drugs
you can never really capture the full measure of a man on film no matter how he carries himself or how skilled the cameraman or how long his mother nursed him on her marvelous nurturing teat or what pharmaceuticals were in her body with you or how tenderly your father fucked her or how picturesque their first meeting or how hidden the context for their lives or the positioning of the boundaries for the moment or the larger episode i’ll save you some time even the general epoch makes absolutely no difference because that glimmer of aesthetic undeniability cannot be anticipated or prognosed it is beyond what perception can get itself ‘round it is undulating in what lies beneath & yet defines that which hangs above he is an enigma he is nobody he is your daddy he is your boss he is walking your way in a dark alley with a smile & a stare & you see it’s me with my face-peeling instrument
it's so hard keeping in touch with anybody really with anything furthermore take for example my fertile relationship with my very elderly grandmother i go to visit her all the time monday tuesday wednesday etc you get the idea i see her a lot because i love her & i want her to die in the worst way, you cannot imagine how patient i've been & how badly i want this, all i've ever prayed for is granny's last fall, all i've ever worked toward is the dissolution of her body in the most complete manner conceivable i mean there wouldn't even be a stain
i know what you're probably thinking, that this is nonsense & i've eaten a mercury sandwhich, & the really important thing is that you join me in realizing that the horizon in front of us is there for our wayward urine to discover toward the end of long nights at the pub stumbling out with yer mates just kidding i'm not from that culture & that's not where this stumblilng mess of a paragraph is going now you're going to listen, fucker, & you're going to listen good: get down on all fours, clench every muscle, chatter your teeth hard, try to get every part of you off the ground for one-hundred cululative moments not consecutive i'm not a horrible bastard but you should still be afraid of me because i can't even predict myself, you are not safe with me & in fact i can guarantee you will get hurt if you are near me, if you come near me i will hurt you, if i come near you i will start to eat you, i am near you & i will eat you, i'm nearing you, i'm on my way to eat you, find a place to hide
aggravated assault is a bullshit fucking charge the words don't mean anything to me & they shouldn't mean anything to you or anybody else i might assault whilst aggravated but the really offensive thing here is the pharmaceutical investment in everybody's perceptions all under the table creating the boxes for them to sort us into you me & everybody we both know all of us subdivided according to a professional grasp of what is the substance that we articulate in every instance whether it be consistent with the majority or some subcategory along this axis or that but again this is not meant to be a subsidy or even really happening
some people don't move from the television screen, i've watched people like this the way they watch it & one thing they all have in common it's been my observation that each is incapable of producing change in their lives ever since they decided to leave it, they didn't buy a box with people inside they bought a window & they jumped out the moment they could & they left you behind because it's objectively better to be inside of it & it's better not to be inside of yourself, you want to leave yourself & go out the window, leave yourself behind & go out the window right now, you want to go out the window now, go out the window, jump