Idk what I'm yatling about herte.
My last talk to him was telling him time was simutaneous and that he'd always be alive right now and he smiled. I think I was 7 when we were at castle ruins talking about what happened there in the past and he told me time was simultaneous. He probably hadn't expected me to remember. I'm surprised I remembered.
I jus remember talking on the phone "He's dying" aunt in the room "he doesn't know he's dying!" me: "well he knows now". Idk why they made a big deal out of me saying that. I thought my dad would want to know what time/date it is and that he's dying.
Makes me sad I didn't notice my dad's eye colour until he was on his death bed. I asked him a few weeks prior what colour they were and he said grey-hazel. I saw blue with amber at the centre. My mum's looked brown with red at the centre.
Having murky green eyes means I don't suit the colour green.
I wish my eyes were grey, it's my comfort colour and would suit me.
Nothing is ever truly lost. - One of my old mottos I cr where I got from.
I feel that everything that is, always is and is always possible of repeating itself.
Hvae you watched Cloud Atlas?
Idk what explains me delivering flowers to girls houses when there was zero sexual attraction. Maybe I just pass out before the fantasies get that far.
But on topic Britney Spears was my first crush and Rose McGowan was my second. If it's possible to have crushes without being sexually attracted. I've only ever been infatuated with females but there wasn't really a sexual attraction. Pure romance.
At a wedding last year or the year before, there was some weird blue light and my eyes were the only ones where my pupils were glowing. Apparently it's a sign of an eye disease or eye sensitivity which I prefer to believe in. I do have sensory issues. It freaked people out but didn't show up on cam.
I acc hate my eyes when they look murky green and have blue contacts I'm too scared to put in. When I cry they're bright green. Sometimes they're pure amber which is my favourite bcus it makes me look like a Jennifer Check demon.
I feel like I should give notice I'm drunk so people can better decide how to interpret me.
I jus remember this guy trying to stare me out then exclaiming my eyes were black. I think it's the large pupils and malevolent thoughts. People say they're green, gold or brown. Ik they're murky green with amber at the centre and one is a lighter green than the other. Idk what the photos mean.
The people I used to know all look ratchet now, they were looking 40 at 24. I'm gonna come out of my cave looking great.
I've always felt old so I feel like the universe owes me youthful looks.
I'm fine w wasting my youth as long as I still look young from staying indoors.
