This is a problem that can be solved with sleeping. If I sleep all day tomorrow I don't have to worry about going out with them.
Two men I don't know could overpower me and I don't feel like I can say no to going out with them because it's impolite. I'm thinking maybe I can scare them off by being too Irish. It sort of came out tonight, the no sleep black mood and the vodka made me more loud and culchie than usual.
This is why I don't go outside life is too eventful then I need to recover from information overload.
I'm tucked into bed now and still shaking, hope I can just pass out soon.
Like in Athens I went on days out with a Mexican man whom told me not to take photos of him because he was famous, and he was on drugs.
I wanna go out w them tomorrow but am unsure how high the risk is of me being trafficked. I don't think that's their business.
Nd one of the men matched my dead eye stare.
You just know from someone's eyes they aren't innocent and the exporting vegetables sounded like a lie, they were looking at each other.
I think I'm gonna let go of my dream of napping a drug lord bcus I doubt they have good looks. I suspect that's what they are but there's zero attraction.
Maybe they are just exporting vegetables but I'm taking into account that I'm a magnet for shady types.
I just met two men, they asked me to have a beer with them but I said no because I've been awake since 4am, so I had a smoke with them instead. One is from Columbia and the other is from Peru. They said they're here to deal, to do business. When I asked what their business was they said exporting vegetables but I suspect it could be shadier. Anyway we have plans to do something in the city tomorrow.
Idk why I'm shaking rn I'm sitting indoors and haven't been chainsmoking
Today on the plane I wondered if other people dissociate on the plane, it seems to me like everyone does. You can't hear shit because of the pressure, there's time gaps, in and out of sleep.
I feel like some part of me is missing or I'm braindead all of a sudden.
I jus need to drink this vodka for my anxiety and so I can hopefully sleep
I feel like I'm suppressing information overload and maybe feelings idk. No sleep plus travel means throwing up information overload for me so why haven't I yet?
Some man sitting opposite me on the train forgot his wallet. I didn't lift it bcus I knew I'd be too lazy to turn it in somewhere in the morning. So I left it there for hoodlums to steal. Idk if it was the right thing.
