I wonder if I should get hash. It's not as nice as the stuff at home.
I have zero energy rn and feel like a feather. I need McDonald's
Ig it's just the looming threat of rain the rest of the week
Idek what I really want I can go into the woods or to the beach at home.
Feel guilty for staying in bed on holiday. I'm eating the truffles and doing my skincare. The plan today is to get McDonalds, go to the woods, a library and maybe the beach. It's supposed to rain the rest of the week. Rn I feel like resting. I'm a bit worried about my lack of appetite because losing weight rn would be bad for my heart. I'm also worried about not finding the woods or not finding my way out of them with no internet.
Last night when I went to this site on the same device I'm using now, I was logged into a different account that I never logged into. When I refreshed the page I was back on my Dirtbag account without having logged in.
Just the end, LiLi was stealing people's personas. I decided to sell mine to some guy, his eyes were the same colour as mine. I had these silver and black gems stuck to my hands for some reason like constellations. New Year's Eve and the sea was rising. A girl with blonde hair and a a neon green and black outfit, she had a scythe and went to stop someone from entering, it was LiLi.
Too bad I don't care how you people feel. If you had more braincells maybe I wouldn't find myself more interesting to talk with.
I need 10 hours sleep and to go somewhere quiet tomorrow. Not sure where the anxiety is coming from. Today I tried to find woods but didn't get that far.
In Belfast I'd be self-conscious about my appearance but am not here because so few people look attractive to me. It's weird getting used to the stares and not assuming they're for a bad reason for once.
Some of the anxiety has subsided, I suspect it was the truffles.
If I wanted a vacation I'd go on another silent retreat. City breaks are just a nice getaway and I need to check in online because online is always the same and my autism craves familiarity.
I've noticed I have been walking like I'm on a catwalk so I think hypnosis must have changed something that people notice.
I'm not wearing anything eccentric so I think it's my charisma or something which could be heightened due to hypnosis.
I've caught men checking me out in reflections like turning back round to look at me and idk if it's my personality that's different or if they're just not used to seeing someone dressed nice.
I've had no appetite today.
Information overload and sleep deprivation is catching up to me. I want to to to bed but just ordered food and a beer so I'm trying to choke this down and not throw up, can't just leave it or it'll be rude.
It sucks not being able to smoke in bed.
Nvm I thought Mekai made this post. I have mild dyslexia sometimes when nvm
