Can't even rely on 13 units to pass out anymore
Mang it has been colourful
My nose feels rly small y does that hppn sometimes
She told me once that she had a dream I showed up at her house so it wouldn't be too creepy if I actually do that.
Now that I think about it, I'm an adult now and know where she lives, there's nothing stopping me from showing up at her door. America gives me nightmares but it would be sad if I never met her.
She ended up with a guy who looked like he could have been her brother. We had a nice contrast tho. Fs now I'm bitter.
It was so cute tho, a tsundere and an autist. She lived in Virginia and voted for Trump in 2016, had blonde hair and blue eyes so ig she's been sucked into that BS but we would have been perfect together.
I replied that I wrote her name in my death note book like from the anime, and I did, sent her a pic of it. Teenage love </3
Just remember second girl found my FB messaged "i dnt fkn like u hi its me tay" I'm not exaggerating about the tsundere.
First girl I liked tried to get me expelled bcus the guy she liked was into me and not her. Second girl was tsundere. Third girl paid homeless people to kill kittens. Fourth girl threw her dog out the upstairs window and hit a baby's head off a wall repeatedly. So you can see why I'm traumatised about being with a girl again.
I have no fucking idea what they see in me bcus I am demisexual, no sexual attraction toward them and am a cold robot
It's just a tesco bread baton with American frites sauce
I have been called a womaniser so maybe I should try to find a gf. Last one traumatised me, put me off them for good, but it could be a nice distraction.
When I try to imagine a mother figure all I can come up with is a tigress.
I'm a robot inside and really don't understand why so many people have been interested in me. But the girls I've liked, they had this warmth I didn't have. You're supposed to be attracted to people who have the traits you wish you had. My mum was a narcissist that neglected me so I suspect I've been looking for a mother, idk. My thoughts never turned sexual but maybe that was because I fell asleep too fast. I did think of them before I fell asleep.
There were a lot of sinny trips but the only outfit I remember wearing was black pumps, black skinny jeans and a purple checked shirt which I still have bcus it's la redoute ~ timeless fashion brand. It seems like another life
