I’m starving and nowhere is doing deliveries at this time, don’t want to get up, ran out of cigs, craving them and cuddles, head is fuzzy from hangover, reluctant to go to the shop in case he’s working today, regret at letting another day go by without going on an adventure and getting exercise, boredom, I don’t know what I want to do today, self conscious because of my fake tan, not ready for tomorrow, need a Thai massage but have to wait til Tuesday, tempted to drink vodka. I don’t really know what I’m doing it’s like life is making itself up, the next thing is making a computer game.
He’s texting me now about what I’m doing today, idk if I should invite him with me I feel like there’s pressure to do that.
2022-06-12 at 1:54 AM UTC
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I used to surprise people with vampire fangs but sadly had to grow up :/
Watching Senior Year on Netflix, and remembering I didn't go to my prom. A guy asked me and I said no because I knew fuck all about makeup and thought I couldn't look pretty with it. Still I think of this Tinkerbell green dress I saw once and wanted to wear, even though green doesn't suit my skintone. Maybe in a parallel world. I don't regret saying no because I still don't like that guy.
2022-06-11 at 11:05 PM UTC
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I was p young when I wrote it and they have American names because I read a lot of Christopher Pike.
2022-06-11 at 11:04 PM UTC
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Mack is in hs and has one friend called Seymour who is drunk all the time. The principal announces that a girl in their year called Shelly has gone missing. Just a week earlier, Shelly’s mum was taken to hospital because she had fallen down her stairs and had been paralysed. Mack stays in the school library after classes. When he goes to his car someone jumps out and grabs him, and it is just Seymour scaring him, but then Seymour pulls out a knife. The knife turns out to be plastic. That night, Mack has nightmares, about the principal kidnapping Shelly and murdering her and burying her in his back garden. He wakes up and his window is open and he looks out and there is a truck driving away in the distance. He believes that the principal has killed Shelly so he decides to investigate and prove him guilty. The next day he goes to the hospital to question Shelly’s mum, but she is insane and she doesn’t tell him anything. The principal is also at the hospital. Mack then goes home and falls asleep. He has another nightmare about the principal killing Shelly. Seymour wakes him up because he was there. They talk about going to the café the next morning for breakfast, and then Seymour kisses Mack and runs away. Mack then decides to search the principal’s house for clues. He buys a knife, torch and binoculars from a store then drives to the house and parks. He uses his binoculars to see if anyone is home, and there are no lights on. He goes around the back of the house and picks up a brick and throws it at the window, then crawls into the house through it. In the dark he finds Shelly’s diary in the principal’s bedroom, and there are entries in it that say that Shelly is scared of the principal and that he pushed her mum down the stairs. Mack has his proof that the principal did it. Then, the front door opens, and Mack is scared, the principal hears him in his bedroom so Mack runs to the window. He is half-way out of the window when the principal grabs him back in. Mack stabs him, and the principal bleeds to death. Then the room lights up like a flash. Shelly is in the room and she has just taken a photo of Mack holding a knife and the dead principal. Then she turns on the light and explains how she set him up. (Shelly’s mum was dating the principal so Shelly pushed her down the stairs. Shelly has a crush on Mack so she decided to use the picture of Mack killing the principal, to blackmail him into marrying her. She snuck into Mack’s room when he was sleeping and whispered in his ear that the principal had killed her, so that Mack would have nightmares and come to the principal’s house. Shelly planted her diary in the principal’s room and wrote fake entries into it.). Mack told Shelly that he would marry her. They both buried the principal’s body in the back garden then they drove up to Shelly’s house. While there, Mack hit her over the head and strangled her to death then went home. The next morning, Mack and Seymour went to the café.
I’m just talking to myself
Ig if I tell him some things now, he’ll feel pressured to accept me because at this point he doesn’t know me but wants to, so then later he can’t act like he has some issue with it.
Also dunno how it’s gonna work. Being friends with Cam was fine because we both had that monster in common and the craziness because of it. I’m gonna have to hide a lot from this guy, don’t know anything about him at all.
