2023-01-09 at 4:07 PM UTC
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I don’t know what to do about it, if I started going to another shop it would be like he’s stealing time from my life by having to go to one that isn’t as close, it would also make me think of him and resent him, it’s the fear option, being a victim.
Idk if I can report him to police because I can’t hand over my phone. They might want to see our texts if I try to get a restraining order.
2023-01-09 at 2:33 PM UTC
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I only gave him my number because he approached in the street and wanted to talk, I wanted to get away from him so I said he could text me instead. It seemed the most polite way.
2023-01-09 at 1:43 PM UTC
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I wanna sleep now and forget about it
2023-01-09 at 1:38 PM UTC
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People can still be obsessed with you as well as scared.
2023-01-09 at 1:34 PM UTC
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Ik I'm gonna punch him next time he touches me. I think I didn't this time because I didn't actually see him before he grabbed my arm, I didn't know who it was. It probably won't get him to fuck off though.
2023-01-09 at 1:26 PM UTC
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I don't want to change my life because of him. I might cause a scene in the shop or at least threaten him with a knife, he doesn't know my surname and there'd be no witnesses.
2023-01-09 at 1:15 PM UTC
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I'm surprised I still have that response shouting wtf at anyone it started at the gaeltacht when someone opened the curtains in the morning.
2023-01-09 at 1:12 PM UTC
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You know the incel at the shop I texted to fuck off in November or something and said I blocked him? Then he still asked me how I am at the checkout even though I don't reply. Today unfortunately I was leaving the shop the same time he got off his shift. He started walking slow in front of me like he wanted me to catch up to him, then he just stood there on his phone, who does that in the rain? So I crossed the road. Next thing I hear quickening footsteps and he fucking grabs my arm then I was like WTF and can't remember what else I said honestly he was asking me why I thought he was being inappropriate and send he wanted to talk and he touched my arm three times because I kept trying to get away from him. I shouted at him don't touch me. I cr if he did it again after that.
The worst part is I don't even think he's doing it to be malicious like a normal toxic male would I think he's really this deranged and think it will work. I wouldn't put it past him to try to find out where I live now.
I'm not okay rn because I have sensory issues and when someone I don't like touches me I'd hit them. I'm not sure why I didn't today I just wanted to get away but he's asking to be stabbed, Idk what I'll do next time but I'll be prepared.
There’s someplace I want to go today so I’m trying not to fade out
I just got off a call with Cam, showed him the AI art and it came out that he went looking in my Victorian trunk when he was here and saw my dolls. I never showed him them.
It feels weird, I don’t have to fight for survival or make something of myself, like life just got a lot boring and I won’t experience the rewarding feeling of building my own life. I can still accomplish things but feel less motivated now.
It’s not that, I didn’t know she cared about me is all.
I found out I have a trust fund and now I feel gross for not being nicer to my mum.
Idk it’s just simple things that could have changed everything if I’d known sooner, like I was paranoid about my sister for years then she made a comment, was talking about me to her boyfriend and I realised she is on my side. I’d always assumed she thought I was crazy.
