I'm getting a nose job. (Not rn but I've set up an initial appointment).
Making a list of my assets. It's made me realise there's a lot of things I don't care about and should sell like antiques. I'm attached to some things but know I'll never use them like my dad's tool shed.
I think you need to practice mindfulness and maybe start reframing your thoughts about women when you catch them to see if it's bias or not.
I've noticed I can't be vulnerable and that won't change. I feel like guys always try to make me emotional and it's never for a good reason. I feel like their aim is always to hurt me because they can't stand it when they can't affect me emotionally.
I don't think you have to be vulnerable with someone to have a non-toxic relationship though.
Mik listened to classical music and I thought it was unsettling. I like it sometimes but don't get people who listen to it a lot like he did.
I'm never getting a breast reduction. I used to like hiding them and sometimes still do because I'd rather people focus on my face and it just seemed unnecessary to wear push up bras. But the bar in my arm made them bigger so they're perfect now and you shouldn't just discard perfection. The point is I'm not going to change myself to fit a pedo's ideal when I already am the ideal for a majority.
- I've been homeless for months.
- I'm stressed about upcoming exams. I've been doing extra certifications on top of my normal studies.
- I'm seeing a counsellor and have ulterior motives.
- I've been making preparations to move to a different country and don't know if I want to do that or OD.
- I'm still waiting on my DNA test results, my sample hasn't reached the lab yet.
- I think I'm feeling real grief because of the pigeon.
- There's three guys harassing me because they like me.
I didn't go to my counselling today. I don't feel okay because of the pigeon. It doesn't make sense it was sleeping then when I checked again it was dead. I feel like I contributed to its death. I can hear another pigeon outside and don't know if it's distressed or not but it's haunting me.
In the 20s a lady offed herself by jumping from the Eiffel tower. She landed on the glass ceiling of a cafe and the diners continued eating.
It's weird I think it was two days ago I was wondering what happened to birds that died naturally, why I never saw their bodies.
There's some pigeons outside I think they're looking for it
When I took it into the garage I set it on a counter and petted it once, it started moving away from me but wasn't looking where it was going, it fell off the counter and hurt its wing. That probably caused it more shock and I killed it.
Upset about the pigeon because it wasn't it's time. It just died of shock so someone murdered it. It could have had a family waiting for it and it's in the trash now. It could have been close to recovering from the shock. It was just alive then I checked on it an hour later and it was dead.
