My heart is going wild, gonna try and rest tonight.
The past few days part of my scalp has started tingling. Just above my forehead on my right side.
There are probably many parallel worlds where I've killed her.
My mum used to tell me I couldn't study in the city because of my autism, can you imagine if that shit had started when I was five?
I think I'm lucky to have been born when I was, a decade sooner and it'd be a mental hospital, if I was born now I'd be diagnosed with autism too early because of new tests/awareness and that would cripple me because my family would have never treated me as normal. I didn't get diagnosed until I was 17, and I'm glad it was aspergers and not just autism because I had self doubts at the time but then read about famous people with it.
I'm usually fine if I read everything a few days prior but if there's too much material to learn and I don't have time that's the issue I'm facing and some of this stuff I'm only looking at for the first time.
If it does go badly I could probably get my GP to write a note about my current situation.
I probably could, it's just that cheating takes planning. I've had my phone in the place before.
Idk if I should should try to cheat.
Trying not to lose my shit bcus of the exams. I feel ready to jump out a window and want vodka.
I wanna game now but really have to cram
Wondering who I'll be next if anyone. I feel like I stopped evolving at 26 and have devolved since I got here. I haven't really been looking for new friends.
I stopped breathing for like 2 mins during the orgasm, chest just wouldn't raise and my hearing is off now
I've realised I like being self-absorbed because men dislike it.
I didn't have the internet when I was 13 and my interests are narrowed but obsessive. I went to sleep at 7pm then again around 4am.
I've been a zombie all day just because I got 7 hours of sleep instead of 8 hours
At 14 I was more interested in books on Nazi Germany because that was real horror.
I must have been so disturbed. I remember reading five books a week when I was 13, mostly horror and adult horror. Then at 15 I'd be up at 1am and watch horror movies all night.
