On second bottle of vodka
She's nearly 45 mins late I get serial killer pissed if people are five mins late. I'm gonna leave in 5 mins on the dot and don't care if I see her walking this way
Sitting at the beach with vodka waiting
In a noisy cafe screaming kids and I didn't sleep feel close to meltdown meeting Jade in an hour
I got it. I need hypnosis for being neurotic.
Just no idea what it will be like on my skin tone because the colour can look different on the monitor. If it's peach I won't like it.
Idk if I'm normal when 95% of lingerie I look at seems ugly to me.
Shopping for lingerie in case I meet someone abroad. It's hard because a lot of it looks like it's what they wore 20 years ago and the models look that way too. It's tacky.
My bedroom is Polly Pocket colour themed.
If I had the means I'd have the weirdest fucking house with a torture basement, library, coffee shop garden shed, creepy 40s style living room, kitchen is already like 1930s and some mad hatter type dining room but not with any acc Alice in Wonderland merch. I already have a mourning room for my dad with creepy dark art.
Sometimes I think about abducting someone but I don't trust myself not to overstep boundaries if I don't want to be alone, and I don't want to give someone ptsd.
I like tying people up and tormenting them mentally but I don't even want to hit men I'm with because ik it would just be hate and unfair to them.
Not into pain either. I'll never let anyone hurt me.
No choking, ddlg and blindfolds are a hard limit strangely so ig I'm not fucked up in a way.
I like psychopaths, knifeplay and graveyards.
