Sometimes I wonder if I've seen more horrible things than my dad, whom was a British soldier here during the troubles. Ik everyone from that period is traumatised but I wonder if I could be more traumatised from the internet.
i think scron got some conspiracy in his head then started leaking my private messages so we're done.
Idk if I'm having palpitations because of what I just saw or if it was what I snorted.
I've watched snuff before and that didn't bother me. Watched people fuck corpses.
I'm tryna tell my brain it was just A.I now. I don't get why I'm so disturbed when I usually handle horrible things well, the no empathy think, didn't care when a bomb went off near me, didn't cry when my dad died. Why am I so disturbed...
How am I meant to carry on my day after seeing that?
This world is such a disgusting place. I always knew you couldn't trust anyone but now it seems like everyone is a bad person.
I'm trying to find a new forum to leave nis behind and that's the first thing I fucking see
I'm not gonna get that image out of my mind they were usign a Hitachi on her and it looked like she was crying.
Omg it's a link to a movie of it. I didn't know this board had illegal stuff
Honestly feel like I'm going to have a heart attack I just stumbled on CP but it's BDSM as well I can't
I wonder why I dreamt of some guy giving me Diazepam. I gave some girl in a nightclub bathroom some of mine then she asked me to come into the toilet cubicle but I said no. That was years ago though.
This is freaking me out because I googled it this morning and there were Asian Games held in Korea in 1986. Idk how I could have known that.
Dreamt some guy was looking for me at a party, gave me diazepam. Think he was a werewolf for I was. Place was about to go up in flames but I was in an elevator and watched them burn as I went up only the people in the elevator survived. Came out i was carrying a skateboard and shopping bag, people looki g for me. Tried to get to the house I qa staying, that guy was still looking for me. There was a river I couldn't cross qnd the sign to the lane was so creepy. I was staying with an old woman in a witch cottage. I think the guy liked me and found me there.
Then at my dad's house in the countryside moon coming out someone accuse me of anorexia I go outside to get away bht the moon isn't high enough for me to see. I think a iur elena and how it seemed we were 16 just yesterday, wonder if passing time is real. Some goth gave me a hug.
Next we at 1986 korean Olympics. Those faces, the blonde family one had cancer. Media interested in him. People were wearing those windbreaker jackets. Next I go for walk everyone dressed creepy goth cobbled streets underground motorway very victorian scary too many cars. I stand in alleyway could fall down into motorway, lots of ghouls with me I get a girl to take a photo. Haunting all have black circles round eyes some faces are blurred. I was a male.
The conditions I gave Sophie were that he either become my hostage or bring me Bradley's head. That won't make me forgive him but it will stop it from getting ugly. While he's in the shadows or dead my revenge has been minor.
I remember emailing Sil the conditions for me to let her go free, I cr what they were, probably for her to cease what she was doing. Anyway she refused and then it got ugly, and when I give conditions that's the last time I try to avoid that.
