2023-12-12 at 9:34 PM UTC
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Sophie suspect
Starting to wonder if I even like my signature perfume or if it's just intense enough for me to smell after long covid and the daisy bottle appeals to me. I go crazy for pure vanilla but I never found that perfume again that I was gifted as a child. I sprayed a page in a diary with it and it was intoxicated but sadly I had to burn that diary.
2023-12-12 at 9:26 PM UTC
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Sophie suspect
Just realised I didn't take a breath for some time why do I always do that
2023-12-12 at 9:24 PM UTC
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Sophie suspect
I can't see my face rn but I can tell it's red and I need Vichy thermal water spray
2023-12-12 at 9:23 PM UTC
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Sophie suspect
It's just sad I have to do this to people when there's way more demonic peeps out there, but because of whatever nativity I project I bring out their worst. Like that girl, smartest person I've ever known, than any of you, med student and I respected and cared about her, but she had to be scummy to me and I have to destroy them because I love myself. I wish low EQ didn't bring out the worst in people.
I've had short fine hair my whole life and hated it and it's sad, hating my hair my while life even when I was a child. Sometimes it gets past my shoulders and it looks bad. Just for once I want to have long unkempt beanshee hair because it suits my state of mind. That's what I'm going to try now, I'll grow it out and get glue in extensions. I've tried wigs but thick hair doesn't suit me. It has to be fine but not as thin as it is currently.
2023-12-12 at 9:16 PM UTC
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Sophie suspect
Another sign I'm not me, having to edit messages because of errors.
2023-12-12 at 9:07 PM UTC
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Sophie suspect
Makes me sad having to use the left-hand of self-preservation when there's more demonic types around. But all Libra make the same mistackive and think they can mistreat me because of what I project, so I have to feel the same way about them. It would have been better to stay on friend terms because I'm an extremely loyal friend and an extremist, and I would like someone knowledgeable around in this age of internet freedom crackdowns and looming 1984, but that's fate and somehow I'm this drunk after one glass because I'm not me I'm an alter.
Edited for the word I invented mistackive meaning massive mistake.
2023-12-12 at 8:38 PM UTC
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Christmas alone ideas
I wonder if it would be a good time to loot stores.
Emotionally: Overwhelmed because suppressed memories surfaced, anxious because being sick means I have a lot to catch up on, like I'm not me right now.
Physically: Sleep-deprived, no appetite for days, keep throwing up because the mucous is hitting my gag reflex, shoulder ache.
2023-12-12 at 5:38 PM UTC
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Christmas alone ideas
I think I'm gonna watch Christmas horror movies, go for a walk somewhere since it'll be vacant, visit my dad's grave and get a Christmas dinner delivered.
2023-12-12 at 5:11 PM UTC
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Suppressed memories
I think I should get a private brain scan but am not sure because of the long covid effects on the brain, I won't be able to compare it to my brain before that so it may not tell me anything.
Alcohol is converted to energy in seasoned drinkers.
I think that's the quickest I've gotten over a cold. Runny nose nose for one day, stage 3 cough the next day, I still smoked and drank, now I feel great.
2023-12-12 at 11:13 AM UTC
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I got my DNA tested
I checked what unassigned means and it's that a gene is so common they can't assign it to one region. The ashkenazi jedis were genetically European but there had to have been a real jedi from Israel and I think that's what that is and it's showing as unassigned because they've infected so many people.
2023-12-12 at 10:22 AM UTC
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Introduction
I've never had a guy friend that wanted to do fun stuff, they just want someone to mope with.
