2024-01-03 at 7:24 PM UTC
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Hey
They all want a Prada bag.
I need to pick someone off the internet to help me occupy it because I don't want to explore the attic by myself when no one knows where I am or have to do repairs. The acquaintances I have irl are too obsessed with me, Jade was really creepy about trying to find out where I live.
If this was pre-vaccine fatigue I'd probably bike to my dad's village rn. I did that in the middle of the night.
I found a Georgian one I want that I know to be abandoned but it isn't boarded up. No broken windows either. Ig the vandals have had troubled getting over the fence spikes. Idk how to go about this because it's on the main street and people will see me, but I want it. I want to live in my dad's village.
I think I owe it to the history to squat in one of those houses because if someone doesn't they'll be demolished.
Omg I know just the abandoned lodge I want. And ik it isn't occupied because it's all boarded up. It's in the woods so there's cover. Abandoned since the early 2000s.
Idk why I didn't think of it before. There's a lot of abandoned Georgian houses in my dad's village and I've often wished to live in one. What's stopping me? Why don't I start squatting in one?
It's fading now. I was with some gansters in their lair and our mission was to protect Akira. The other gang wanted to kill her. I saw them coming up the fire escape and tried to warn the guard but it was too late, he couldn't hear me. Then I got on the bar table to take a gun from the wall. We lost and were taken as hostage to their lair but I was still protecting Akira and they couldn't find her. It looked like a nightclub but just with the gangsters there and everyone was wearing black, everthing was black but there was a green light. I didn't have the gun anymore so poked someone's eyes out with a cue stick. We decided to keep fighting even though we were disarmed so there was chaos and I went looking for some girl. How to describe her dwelling... It was on a green river, the crumbling walls were like those you'd see in a monk's ruin. The rotten wood floorboards didn't cover the room so you could see the river and there was moss growing on them. I said something like please don't tell me you live here. I looked at the sky and realised we were in the underworld. The sky was still daytime but there were green shapes in the clouds like stairs. I ended up killing her. Still in the room two assistants came to give me dermal fillers. This was a new type where they used something from koi fish. It made Akira want to eat my face so it was time to go. Then I woke up and Akira was on my chest again staring.
I'm scared to sleep because I keep waking up with Akira on my chest and yday she clawed at my eye when she was stretching. She didn't see what she was doing but I just felt her claws down my eyebrow and onto my eyelid. Thankfully there was no force behind it and my eyes were closed but still.
It's crazy how much I've changed.
I wish teenager me could have known what I'd turn out to be like now. I probably couldn't imagine it then but I love who I am now.
2024-01-02 at 4:10 AM UTC
in
To Sophie
Hans Asperger stated that malice is also a trait of the condition.
My postman often calls me a good girl whenever I sign for things. He's pretty old, must be in his 60s or 70s so idk if he's being creepy or if he thinks it's normal. It should be noted that some people think I am a teenager, I don't look like an adult to them. It really depends on the day. Do older men know it's belittling?
2024-01-01 at 5:10 PM UTC
in
Happy New Gayer. Resolutions?
Mine are to listen to whatever hypnosis I need to listen to to make sure I don't turn out like my mum, that means I'll be an optimistic person which is foreign to me. To stay estranged from my family. Go on a vacation every month and start working for myself.
I cr the cat I had as a child or if I was mesmerised by it. With Akira the love hasn't died down, I often think that it's so great having a cat. I think I'd remember if I'd felt love like this before. Is it really this great normally or is it that I'm part of her cat family so our relationship is better?
2024-01-01 at 4:02 AM UTC
in
Hey
She's had it so bad, two of her ex boyfriends died from overdoses, her baby was taken off her, her manipulative ex gave her paracetamol saying it was coke and wouldn't let her outside when she moved in with him, then he kicked her out so she has to live with her mum now, her mum's boyfriend raped her for a decade and she knew but did nothing for her daughter, and now she has to live with her.
2024-01-01 at 3:58 AM UTC
in
Hey
I saw him a few years ago he was helping my friend move stuff into her flat so ig he is decent.
2024-01-01 at 3:54 AM UTC
in
Hey
I'm having flashbacks of my sister's boyfriend giving me pirated DVDs and selling my dad stuff at discounts. Idk it stuck out in my head that he spoiled her and I still think of him as decent for that.
