I'm only getting into Twitch now and can't believe how cringe these girls are.
Lately I've been showing obvious symptoms of depression which is unusual for me. I lose track of all the pink things I buy when I'm unhappy so now I'm creeped out, as if I'm in someone's kawaii nightmare, this isn't my bedroom. Ig I'm just stressed about a lot. I don't think I did anything productive today, I wrote down my problems in a diary then listened to hypnosis for two hours. I bought an extra large Miffy plush so the kawaii nightmare will continue. Ig the plan today is to take a bath, wait around for groceries to be delivered then go to the abandoned house just to see if I still know the way. I'm not giving myself other tasks because I'll feel worse if I don't finish them. I might watch a horror movie.
I'm trying to undo my mum's damage and that entails listening to hypnosis to develop optimism. It makes me uncomfortable to change who I am, it will be like dying, but I think I'm okay with that if it means I don't turn out like my mum.
Does this mean it can also age you? If you feel like a lot of time has passed?
That's interesting. I have hypnosis to distort my perception of time. It speeds up bad experiences and slows down good ones. I wonder if I can modify it.
I've never written a song in my life but am coming up with lyrics when I sing to Akira and this is the first time it's happened. Most recently "the sun will shine forever, down in the fields of grass my cat lays in the nether"
Being nocturnal again is having a negative effect on my productivity. I should have met my targets but won't now. It's the cat as well, trapping me when I sit down so I stay with her because I won't have her forever and every moment is precious.
2024-01-04 at 4:29 AM UTC
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I keep meaning to watch the rest of deadman wonderland and don't think I watched season 2 of Tokyo Ghoul. Will try to list my favourites but will forget some: erased, death note, madoka magica, inuyasha, ajin.
2024-01-04 at 4:21 AM UTC
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I just watched Spy x Family and rent a girlfriend. Found both of them sickly sweet because of the propaganda. In rent a gf I kept having to pause to make sure I wasn't adopting the toxic suggestions like they really guilt-tripped her into being his gf.
2024-01-04 at 2:51 AM UTC
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Sophie's Bag o' Lulz.
Tweedle dum and tweedle dee.