Posts by Kafka

1. 2024-02-12 at 1:33 PM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..
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   Unfocused atm, may have taken too many stimulants, am cold and don't want to sit indoors today.
2. 2024-02-12 at 1:16 PM UTC in Isolation
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   I had an adult phase when I was 19-21, was cultured, then came the trainwreck phase so I had all these secrets and it made me feel mysterious.
3. 2024-02-12 at 1:10 PM UTC in Isolation
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   Originally posted by Michael Myers I have a lot of friends, but they don't really matter. What really matters is having best friends. Those are your true friends, who have your back through the good and the bad. But like you, I can entertain myself just fine. I'd decline to hang out with friends just so I could stay at home. I prefer being indoors, actually. I don't need any friends, but it's nice to hang out every now and then. Otherwise, isolating yourself on purpose can affect your socializing skills. Extremely negatively. It did, for me. I used to be a lot more social during high school, it's also when I had the most friends. But then after high school, I became a NEET and I got used to staying at home instead of being outside everyday with my friends like I used to. Good times, but I also have no desire to socialize either. I prefer keeping to myself but I understand I can't do that.

   
   I don't think it's affected my socialising skills, I can be an extrovert when I do hang out with people irl. Ig that's odd, that coming out of isolation my socialising skills got better. Ig I felt more mature than other people because of all the stuff I'd gone through, more confident in who I am. It feels a bit superficial though.
4. 2024-02-12 at 12:56 PM UTC in Isolation
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   When I was 22, that's when I hit peak isolation, the whole year and not a soul to talk to. In truth I haven't had friends irl since I was 18, there'd still be people coming and going and meeting people off the internet so it's not like I haven't socialised. It's my fault because I never made an effort to make friends and I still don't really want them irl. But all this means I'm not normal, I started thinking that people weren't real. What happened when I was 22 is a cloud hanging over my life because how can I ever be happy when I know hell exists? I remember going to a psychiatrist just to make sure I was okay, I thought I couldn't be after that isolation. She said I was sound, that I couldn't go crazy because I'm a critical thinker. I think I'm interesting enough to entertain myself and that's what I've been doing the past year, literally only been talking to myself. I don't have a single friend online or irl. I think this is going to affect my mental health, that it can't go on for another few months. I've made arrangements for social activities but I feel like I'm still going to hate everyone. Spectral mentioned I should read books but I don't have time to read literature at this point.
5. 2024-02-12 at 12:13 PM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..
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   Today I feel stuck on what I should study and want I want to study. I'll flip a coin.
6. 2024-02-12 at 12:03 PM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..
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   Yesterday I didn't eat anything, I think it was information overload. Today I still have no appetite but managed some pizza. If I do have information overload there's a good chance I'll throw up today. I don't know what's revived my interest in tracking down Sophie but now I have a choice to make:
   
   1. Get on the flight to London like planned.
   2. Go to my dermal fillers appointment I have booked for the same day.
   3. Go to the Netherlands next week now that I have more information on where he could be.
7. 2024-02-11 at 11:14 AM UTC in Kafka is a hardcore faggot
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   I've never had a boyfriend because I didn't trust men and should have found someone by now but if I ever trust a man it will be too late, and some part of me thinks it's for the best because they're all scum but it isn't nice knowing there is no chance of happiness and it's because of other people.
8. 2024-02-11 at 10:46 AM UTC in Kafka is a hardcore faggot
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   I just know that I can't be in a relationship with a man now unless I know for sure that if they hurt me there'll be consequences, so he has to die.
9. 2024-02-11 at 10:31 AM UTC in Kafka is a hardcore faggot
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   Originally posted by MY Body, MY Choice Oh? Then what is going on here, hmm?

   
   I have to kill Sophie so then I can feel okay with letting another man into my life. Lanny deserves to die too and is mad because I caused problems in his relationship with Frala. Then there's a flurry of sadists, those I've rejected and some I haven't noticed. I'm not reading this thread again so can't say who.
10. 2024-02-11 at 9:04 AM UTC in Kafka is a hardcore faggot
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    Looking back it's the ones I wasn't attracted to that I'd go for now.
11. 2024-02-11 at 8:47 AM UTC in Kafka is a hardcore faggot
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    That tactic doesn't work anyway. I had a mini-crush on the one that defended me from them. It was physical attacks as well like just grabbing you/throwing school bags at you, repeatedly stealing your bag. Everyone knew I was OCD about my desk so they'd put their hands on it knowing it'd annoy me, so I'd stab their hands with a pencil. That didn't stop them tho which is odd. I'm going off on a tangent...
12. 2024-02-11 at 8:37 AM UTC in I never achieve an orgasm.
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    It's very hard for women to orgasm unless there's clitoral stimulus but you also need mental stimulus like pretending they're someone else.
13. 2024-02-11 at 8:25 AM UTC in Kafka is a hardcore faggot
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    Originally posted by MY Body, MY Choice I remember being a young girl in school and USUALLY the boy that was so mean to me tended to be the one that liked me the most. Lol. Boys are so fucking retarded.
    
    Anyway, I feel like this is what is happening here, Kafka.These boys want you and don't know how to express it other than being a prepubescent little boy, just like in elementary school.
    
    "Girls are dumb!"

    
    That's not what's happening here.
14. 2024-02-11 at 7:32 AM UTC in Kafka is a hardcore faggot
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15. 2024-02-11 at 7 AM UTC in Kafka is a hardcore faggot
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    Originally posted by Lanny Posting in a factual thread

    
    One day I'll revive you just in time for you to be a vegetable.
16. 2024-02-11 at 2:22 AM UTC in A week of spending
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    This week I paid for sword-fighting lessons, a cinema ticket I didn't end up going to, hormone pills, a flight to London, two spring dresses that I won't be alive to wear, a TV subscription. That's it aside from groceries I think. I impulse buy a lot.
17. 2024-02-11 at 2:17 AM UTC in A week of spending
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    It sounds like a waste apart from the kids stuff. You could probably make a nicer thermometer by painting one. I should probably sell my antiques, I never look at them.
18. 2024-02-11 at 1:42 AM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..
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    I think there'd be a market for home hibernation pods even if they don't work. Who doesn't want to hibernate from time to time?
19. 2024-02-11 at 1:40 AM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..
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    I want a hibernation pod. Bed isn't ideal for hibernating because that's not what it's meant for. If I had a pod I'd feel less guilt.
20. 2024-02-11 at 1:36 AM UTC in A week of spending
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    Everything looks hideous except the last green thing if it was clean.