I've had no motive to do anything all summer and am dreading more weeks of this. I'm bored and depressed.
How can I say I'll let him know on the day or to check in with me the day before?
"Planning social engagements
The Dutch often schedule their social activities well in advance. It’s not unusual to book appointments or social gatherings weeks ahead, so don’t be taken aback by the structured social planning. This approach helps in managing the well-balanced Dutch lifestyle between work, personal time, and social engagements."
He wants a date to meet up and I've said I won't be there until the start of September. Idk if I should give him a date because I could change my mind and don't want to string him along for the next few weeks.
I was trying to figure out why I find it attractive and think it's the honesty and that I don't view them as being repressed. I love when people drop their masks.
I keep forgetting to shower bcus of the sudden eczema preventing greasy hair and my laser hair removal. I never noticed before that I need physical appearance cues to shower.
Numb. It will be a long night because I took a smart drug.
I never really thought of it before, just noticed I find it hot when men seek out prostitutes, I have no clue why.
It's like that saying, never marry a man you met in a pub. Everyone goes to the pub.
Idk if I should meet that man in the NL. He's seen my unenhancemented face and still wants to meet up so I feel like I'd be comfortable, but I don't want to go to another country to be a prostitute and that's what he'll think I am.
The itinerary now is to go to the aircraft museum to connect with my dad, hire a male escort to give me a massage, maybe call him back the next day for something more, meet my dealer, maybe meet someone else who wants to die off the internet, then die.
I'm gonna go with the massage.
I kind of expect most men to seek out a prostitute at some point in their life.
I'm fine with men initially seeking prostitution because it's one way for them to stand out and they haven't met me yet and can decide they want something more when they have. Ig it takes pressure off as well, it's all simple and you don't have to do small-talk. I think the language barrier will be an advantage, I only got to B1 Dutch.
If he asks for free nudes then I'll know he's a fake. I feel like doing something reckless rn.
