I loved my pale skin but I'd have to be anaemic again to achieve it.
I miss how my fingers used to look. Even though they were crooked, I remember how pale and perfect.
I still have a video recording them when I was a creep
I recall once upon a time a teacher saying they were always talking about our class in the teachers lounge and that's when I knew the universe did me a favour.
Even though I love old-fashioned style, esp the 1930s, I'm glad MY fashion era was from 2013, that's better than now.
All I can do is be split.
My mum would comment about how old-fashioned my dad was. Like he should have acted gen x bcus he was only 8 years older than her but he was a boomer.
There's always been this conflict between the old-fashioned and the modern world, like I don't know what my time is. I spent my childhood in my great uncle's cottage which was all 1940s decor. I have a Victorian nightgown ffs. All I know is the time I was born is what's best for me but it's hard to combine the eras I belong to.
There's just this conflict I always feel, being old-fashioned but still this time is the best for me.
It's clear I wasn't meant to be in any other time, but if the patriarchy returns it will be clear that I was meant for this time, to fight it. I'm just old-fashioned because of my ancestry and my dad being the youngest sibling of 14, starting in 1917.
I still feel like I belong to another era, when people were more polite, but it's good I was born when I was.
I means Aspergers isn't in the DSM anymore but was when I was diagnosed. If I was born earlier it would be a mental hospital for me. If later I wouldn't know who I am. I'm glad I went to the highschool I went to bcus I was treated as normal. If I'd had early intervention, diagnosed at 5yrs old or some shit I would be crippled rn.
I'm so lucky I grew up in my era and with the people surrounding me.
But why does no one talk about the unknown long-term effects of mobile phones anymore?
Ig I anchored my English teacher bcus she had faith in me, she read my creative writing stories nd said I could get an A* if I cared. But lately I've been wondering if she ever reported me bcus my stories were always about murder, one involving my mum. Still, those comments about mobile phones stay with me, the world has gone mad.
