Surprised that I'm most excited about oxygen arriving.
Everyone was looking at me like I was crazy for refusing to go. I wasn't religious at the time and liked to sleep on a Sunday morning not be indoctrinated.
Thinking about my dad saying the IRA used the gaeltacht to indoctrinate children and that when my sister returned from it she hated my dad all of a sudden. When I went it was after the troubles but I'd refuse to go to the Sunday mass so I wonder if I missed something.
Cat vs blanket hogger the past two hours. I think I won because she's clawing at the door to leave now.
Trying to rest but Akira won't stop molesting me.
I only got the first dose of moderna and felt it in my heart right after. My body turned cold and I sat down somewhere thinking I was going to die, didn't dare go to the diner in case I collapsed. I was crippled for months. It isn't as bad now but I still have chronic fatigue. I can't say if it's affected my heart because I drink a lot of Monster.
I have so much to do but feel drowsy. Worrying about Akira sapped my energy.
I have an image of what she looked like but it could be a false memory.
My sister's friend from highschool just died in a hotel room from an overdose in London. I remember her name and feel like I have memories of her I can't recall right now. I just feel weird because I've been planning the same fate. I think she did it because she was single at 35 and her parents disowned her.
I've already started disturbing the neighbours like sitting in the front garden for the first time, just standing at the door staring at their houses.
She should have come back for food by now. It's been almost 8 hours. She usually comes running when she smells me, she didn't even come when I was cooking salmon.
If it gets to 10pm I'll knock on a few doors, open others.
If she's gone I'll kill my neighbours even if I don't have proof.
It's raining and Akira's sibling showed up here looking for her so I'm worried.
