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2017-12-18 at 11:27 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice …
Has your family asked where you have been and why you left? What did you tell them?
Did you recover your stuff the landlord threw out? Why did he throw out your stuff?
Why did those people want to attack you?
I still don't really understand how you went from living in your own place with government assistance to having to leave your place, lose all your stuff and moving back in with family. What happened? Can you write up a summary? -
2017-12-18 at 11:27 PM UTCMy god, forcing me to take a career I wouldn't choose if it weren't for the necessity of my survival, molding and permeating my life to such an extent. What power capital holds over me.
I'm a slave to the all ighty ollar. -
2017-12-18 at 11:29 PM UTC
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2017-12-18 at 11:49 PM UTC
Originally posted by Open Your Mind Has your family asked where you have been and why you left? What did you tell them?
Did you recover your stuff the landlord threw out? Why did he throw out your stuff?
Why did those people want to attack you?
I still don't really understand how you went from living in your own place with government assistance to having to leave your place, lose all your stuff and moving back in with family. What happened? Can you write up a summary?
Not really, he asked surprisingly few questions. It really affected them more than I expected, they really did try looking for me and had me on their minds, or at least pops did. I didn't say much because I'm autistic and have great difficulty conversing after a lifetime of silence and isolating myself. I did tell him I was diagnosed as autistic, along with having psychological problems, and he seems to have accepted that as an excuse for...a great of things that are wrong with me and my life.
Nope, lost everything except my laptop and the clothes I was wearing, along with some cards (debit, ID). Trying to get her to compensate me, I lost about 4K worth of stuff, because I'm pretty sure what she did was illegal, especially if she just threw my firearms in the trash (Lost a nice AR-15 and a CZ something). I did tell her I'd report what she did to the police and pushed the illegality of the firearms issue, so we'll see how it goes. I don't really need the money and nearly everything is replaceable, I really didn't use most things I lost, but I still deserve it (legally) because she had no good reason to do so, she could have at least stacked the most valuable things in the garage in bags or boxes, it would have taken no more effort than throwing them out.
I don't know why they attacked me, it would have been dangerous to ask. I did try to talk about what happened, but they may not have been home and I didn't try again after little effort. He may have just been a violent psychopath.
I'm not sure if I mentioned it, but I did go the psych ward and the way they treated me felt incredibly abusive. It was a fucked up experience. I was afraid of getting killed or seriously injured after I called 911 on them 2 days later because I caught the guy that called someone over the first time on the phone again telling someone to tell me not to run this time. I didn't know what they were planning and didn't want to take that chance. Anyway, I had nowhere to go and didn't have a working smartphone, knew no one I could ask for help, so I checked myself into the hospital and told them I was having thoughts of suicide. The abusive experience at the psych ward along with what happened completely freaked me out so when I managed to talk my way into being released and given a taxi ride to the BART (train) I didn't go through with what I had planned with the mental health workers I had spoken to, going to LA to search for my family, which would have been a terrible idea anyway. The police spoke to me at the station and I was taken back under a diagnosis of psychosis, stayed there for around 9-11 days, which was boring as hell, only made things worse, and the dose of risperidone they gave me made me delirious, which is the exact opposite of what it's generally prescribed for, those incompetent fucks.
Oh, after that I was sent to a mental health crisis housing place, which was pretty laidback and alright, but we weren't allowed to leave without staff, later learned landlord was sending messages to the wrong number, didn't get a ride in time, so that's how she ended up throwing everything away. My lease had already ended because she had recently gotten divorced and was planning to move back in. She did message me on my google voice number, which I still had access to and told me let her know when I'd pick up my things, but after that she must have been sending messages to my cell phone number, which I didn't have access to.
The details of everything really aren't that interesting. It was an unfortunate series of events.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-12-18 at 11:55 PM UTC
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2017-12-18 at 11:55 PM UTChttps://www.reddit.com/r/DrugNerds/comments/7knatu/oxytocin_receptor_gene_variation_predicts/?st=jbcutez4&sh=85c8bafd
Oxytocin receptor gene variation predicts subjective responses to MDMA - anyone else postive for rs53576?
Interesting, I'm A;G, although some other A;Gs in that thread are reporting that MDMA works well for them. I never tried a high enough dose or in the proper setting to really know. -
2017-12-19 at 12:03 AM UTCProlonged α1 and α5-GABAA Receptors Activation Is The Mechanism Of Benzodiazepine Tolerance.
https://www.reddit.com/r/DrugNerds/comments/7kk58h/prolonged_%CE%B11_and_%CE%B15gabaa_receptors_activation_is/?st=jbcv5rnh&sh=ed7a7087
I had a theory about this some time ago after finding a valuable paper that demonstrated that tolerance to the anxiolytic effects didn't occur, mediated largely by the A2 receptor. This led the obvious idea that a highly selective benzo could be safely used long term, which led to my interest in pyrazolam. Couldn't find a good powder source, unfortunately. -
2017-12-19 at 12:17 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice I'm still on government assistance.
I've accepted that I'm autistic and severely mentally ill, along with having asymmetrical (stunted or delayed, in some ways) development, along with personality variables, that led to this outcome.
I think I may genuinely be mildly psychopathic because it's possible my mother may not have that long to live and what naturally comes to mind is that this may be a positive outcome due to being a burden as well as seeing an early death as preferable for most human beings. More of daddy's money for me if there's one less person around to compete for it.
Southern California sucks. I want to go back to the bay area and live on my own. Well, if you live in or near a downtown area it might be alright. At least I found a dispensary with great deals nearby to act as a replacement for Purple Star and help alleviate my sleep problems.
I am planning on studying computer science/programming and aiming for a high paying job like Lanny did because I've accepted that I need to be able to support myself and receive more money. The Lanny route via the financial industry does have its appeal; my previous thoughts on what to do with my life were completely unrealistic given the state I was in. I wonder if Lanny considers himself a parasite, given what he enables, and if therefore I would still be viewed as one as well.
Career goal: High ROI parasitism.
So I'll probably remain on SSI for 4 years and receive a tuition waiver along with a higher acceptance rate status while going to school full time.
Hey, at least I'm planning to get off it and finally do something with my life. I also don't view the financial industry as unequivocally parasitic.
Post last edited by Malice at 2017-12-18T23:25:03.090957+00:00
Originally posted by Malice Not really, he asked surprisingly few questions. It really affected them more than I expected, they really did try looking for me and had me on their minds, or at least pops did. I didn't say much because I'm autistic and have great difficulty conversing after a lifetime of silence and isolating myself. I did tell him I was diagnosed as autistic, along with having psychological problems, and he seems to have accepted that as an excuse for…a great of things that are wrong with me and my life.
Nope, lost everything except my laptop and the clothes I was wearing, along with some cards (debit, ID). Trying to get her to compensate me, I lost about 4K worth of stuff, because I'm pretty sure what she did was illegal, especially if she just threw my firearms in the trash (Lost a nice AR-15 and a CZ something). I did tell her I'd report what she did to the police and pushed the illegality of the firearms issue, so we'll see how it goes. I don't really need the money and nearly everything is replaceable, I really didn't use most things I lost, but I still deserve it (legally) because she had no good reason to do so, she could have at least stacked the most valuable things in the garage in bags or boxes, it would have taken no more effort than throwing them out.
I don't know why they attacked me, it would have been dangerous to ask. I did try to talk about what happened, but they may not have been home and I didn't try again after little effort. He may have just been a violent psychopath.
I'm not sure if I mentioned it, but I did go the psych ward and the way they treated me felt incredibly abusive. It was a fucked up experience. I was afraid of getting killed or seriously injured after I called 911 on them 2 days later because I caught the guy that called someone over the first time on the phone again telling someone to tell me not to run this time. I didn't know what they were planning and didn't want to take that chance. Anyway, I had nowhere to go and didn't have a working smartphone, knew no one I could ask for help, so I checked myself into the hospital and told them I was having thoughts of suicide. The abusive experience at the psych ward along with what happened completely freaked me out so when I managed to talk my way into being released and given a taxi ride to the BART (train) I didn't go through with what I had planned with the mental health workers I had spoken to, going to LA to search for my family, which would have been a terrible idea anyway. The police spoke to me at the station and I was taken back under a diagnosis of psychosis, stayed there for around 9-11 days, which was boring as hell, only made things worse, and the dose of risperidone they gave me made me delirious, which is the exact opposite of what it's generally prescribed for, those incompetent fucks.
Oh, after that I was sent to a mental health crisis housing place, which was pretty laidback and alright, but we weren't allowed to leave without staff, later learned landlord was sending messages to the wrong number, didn't get a ride in time, so that's how she ended up throwing everything away. My lease had already ended because she had recently gotten divorced and was planning to move back in. She did message me on my google voice number, which I still had access to and told me let her know when I'd pick up my things, but after that she must have been sending messages to my cell phone number, which I didn't have access to.
The details of everything really aren't that interesting. It was an unfortunate series of events.
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You should work as a remote support tech for apple or something, then you can be a hermit, watch animu in the background and still be productive. -
2017-12-19 at 1:14 AM UTC
Originally posted by aldra tapentadol (nucynta) is fucking weird
guy told me it was virtually the same as tramadol but twice as potent per mg
I just ate 200mg and now I can't type properly (had to go through this post a bunch of times) and I feel like my arms and legs are filled with lead
I've always wanted to try nucynta. Supposedly it was developed to mimic the active metabolite of tramadol -
2017-12-19 at 1:18 AM UTCI....I can't read this. I love your posts, malice, but I can't read that
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2017-12-19 at 1:19 AM UTC
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2017-12-19 at 1:32 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice https://www.reddit.com/r/DrugNerds/comments/7knatu/oxytocin_receptor_gene_variation_predicts/?st=jbcutez4&sh=85c8bafd
Oxytocin receptor gene variation predicts subjective responses to MDMA - anyone else postive for rs53576?
Interesting, I'm A;G, although some other A;Gs in that thread are reporting that MDMA works well for them. I never tried a high enough dose or in the proper setting to really know.
G;G
for being a shitty online psuedoscientist im not surprised you dont understand that correlation does not equal causation -
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2017-12-19 at 1:57 AM UTCYes shit.
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2017-12-19 at 2:10 AM UTCWe Can't Shit
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2017-12-19 at 2:13 AM UTCI dunno man you made some leaps of logic. Those new trapics really made your brain fizzle hard, nigga.
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2017-12-19 at 2:15 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-12-19 at 2:21 AM UTCYou really are fam.
