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2020-01-10 at 4:26 AM UTConly did 3mg of dilly-o today. Should have some boxes tomorrow which will make coming off a breeze. I went until 1pm today without taking any. I shit so much when I don't use, it would be awesome if my skin didn't feel like a monitor liserds are crawling over me
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2020-01-10 at 3:16 PM UTC
Originally posted by MexicanMasterRace Why involuntary, and how long has this break been?
I disobeyed the sobriety owl today but I'm drinking way less than usual so there's that.
My card expired and the new electronic ones took some time to get in. It's been almost two weeks, it feels like some kind of a depersonalization thought loop I can't truley get out of. I actually smoked last night but it didn't help -
2020-01-10 at 5:40 PM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo only did 3mg of dilly-o today. Should have some boxes tomorrow which will make coming off a breeze. I went until 1pm today without taking any. I shit so much when I don't use, it would be awesome if my skin didn't feel like a monitor liserds are crawling over me
this nigga still junking lol -
2020-01-10 at 6:29 PM UTCI haven't smoked t3h w33d since the 23rd of December because I thought I was going to get a drug screening at the start of the new year for muh new job contract. Turns out I won't have to do one for the next six months.
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2020-01-13 at 4:36 AM UTCcleaning out shit from my room. i used to not want to throw away any needles or paraphernalia bc i felt like id still need it at some point, but ive been bale to throw away a bunch of shit today.
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2020-01-13 at 4:41 AM UTC
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2020-01-13 at 4:41 AM UTCI think im done with krek
It's too toxic is the only thing. Everything else I still like about it -
2020-01-13 at 4:44 AM UTCYou dont look like a krekken head.
Are you really addicted to it ? Like you and bling might be the only two literal crack cocaine addicts I know from my history here, for the most part. -
2020-01-13 at 4:47 AM UTCThat sobriety owl has made me take suboxone yesterday which turns me into a "weird zombie" but it's not gonna take tomorrow and will probably be good to go without after that, inshallah
this beat is all my soul needs for sustenance
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2020-01-13 at 5:01 AM UTCim not addicted to it i just like to do it sometimes but then i end up binging for days until its gone
its such a time waster -
2020-01-13 at 5:09 AM UTCI've never tried it. Do you think I would get addicted to it if I tried it just once ?
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2020-01-13 at 5:26 AM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ You dont look like a krekken head.
Are you really addicted to it ? Like you and bling might be the only two literal crack cocaine addicts I know from my history here, for the most part.
I used to be a crackhead. On Christmas morning (4am) of 09 I recall trying to hit deer with my car that were surreally walking through an apartment filled low income area while I was smoking crack. I would cycle between too paranoid to leave the room and being wildly reckless.
I thought I typed this response about an hour ago but nerp -
2020-01-13 at 5:33 AM UTC
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2020-01-13 at 5:49 AM UTC
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2020-01-13 at 12:27 PM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ I've never tried it. Do you think I would get addicted to it if I tried it just once ?
fer me and JUST FER MEEEEE NOOOWWwww cocaine is like a 4/10 with the wind behind it, and crack is a 9/10, would be a 10/10 if I could smoke as much as I want without dying.
That said, it's more like a thing where you do it all until you run out no matter what, but once it's gone you're fine the next morning and don't really care about getting more. -
2020-01-14 at 3:05 AM UTC
Originally posted by theshroomguy Ever since I've been on an invoulantary break from weed it seems impossible to live in the moment anymore. Any joy I get out of anything is sucked out by the idea it will eventually get old and is not permanently entertaining. And this is pretty much an invoulantary thought loop I keep having. Fuck I can't wait to pick up again…
I feel ya, that's the last monkey I'm really trying to shake off. Weed isn't that bad but I kinda used it as a personality substitute for too long, I don't like the grogginess, laziness, social anxiety etc, and I'm kinda ready to be 'serious' with my life & keep learning, ready to piss in a cup for the next opportunity if it pops up rather than worrying about fake piss etc.
I've been semi seriously trying to quit for the past 5 months. In that time the longest consecutive time I put together was 3 weeks which I fucked up just after Thanksgiving. In that time I remember that I.. wasn't that much more bored or anything I was just aware more of my loneliness and really had to fight to fill the weekends sometimes. Which I realize is bullshit cause I was obviously just doing nothing anyway. But now there's this annoying guilt when I smoke weed and waste time which makes it less enjoyable.
Pros were that my anxiety was getting better, I felt more 'accomplished' like I had nothing to hide.. but somewhere along the way I got sad.
I was going to the gym and even boinking this nasty stoner mom chick who was really sweet. But I met this other corporate girl who smokes and she kinda convinced me I was worrying too much for nothing.
Then I bought an adderall script to 'buckle down' and study but ended up just jacking off and listening to Frank Ocean. I have like a pt of meth from my coworker and I feel the addiction howling but I'll.. probably just smoke weed. And wake up tired. And do it all again. -
2020-01-14 at 5:26 AM UTCi bought a car. Aint particularly fly, but i didnt trade someone heroin for it, or have them sign their title over to me as collateral.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-14 at 5:35 AM UTC
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2020-01-14 at 5:34 PM UTCUrgh, fucked up. 5 days, no sleep. Pains from my left arm to my heart.
I fucked up. -
2020-01-14 at 5:44 PM UTC
Originally posted by Octavian Urgh, fucked up. 5 days, no sleep. Pains from my left arm to my heart.
I fucked up.
In the same damn boat mang
Im done with it now
The reason i kept buying it is cuz i never really got my bell rung high enough but got scared to do so. This time I did it and got exactly what I wanted. So now I have no need to do it anymore
