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2020-01-02 at 5:11 AM UTC
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2020-01-05 at 11:32 PM UTCHave not been drunk since the 1st. I bought a single tallboy last night which was nice. I think i will stick to buying a single tallboy when i want a drink. I won't keep more than one at a time.
Did look at the liquor for a bit and debated it, then decided against it.
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2020-01-06 at 12:15 AM UTCThis lump or cyst doesn't hurt as much since taking these tablets so that's a good sign. Start back the gym this week so start getting me some gainz, this will also help me mentally.
Sat debating whether making home brew is a good idea given my circumstances. Personally I should avoid drinking alone altogether but maybe if I have guests? Fucks sake, sounds like "bargaining", as Caspar mentioned.
I don't know if it was the JD from last night but I'm feeling a certain degree of anxiety. I should avoid spirits altogether but it was a reunion with an old friend from highschool who doesn't do drugs. I think being in the company of old friends who are stable and living the normie life just hits hard, makes me feel guilty somewhat. There's an emotional void in me that needs filling, a yearning to stay on this path and find a girl and be happy.
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2020-01-06 at 12:32 AM UTCDo you have problems with drinking? I don't remember talking about it. But I find not having any whatsoever helps me a lot. I used to stupidly put the last 12oz into a glass jar and lie to myself while drunk about it being a momento. Like It'd somehow be easier if i had some on hand. But then i start sobering up and drink that shit till its gone. Just stupid.
If I had homebrew I'd probably wait a few days then drink it all in one binge. That's how I operate with drugs. Being drunk is so dysfunctional tho. I've switched to tossing down 12-18g of ground kava. I don't know that its doing any good for my binge habits but at least the process of swallowing it is so awful I tend to avoid it.
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2020-01-06 at 12:38 AM UTC
Originally posted by iam_asiam68 lol, yep!!
he is 60 years old, and we have fired his collection of rifles, pistols, semi-auto's, even his crossbow. he bought a new mustang for his need for speed. the dude is like myself, has the means to get whatever he wants. he wanted off heroine and he is now on methadone. it's interesting, cause every once in awhile, he just doses off, then wakes up like the alarm is on full blast (startled). he has (2) vodka's and red bull's and i have about 4 beers and the ole lady cooks us meals because it's what we pay him (he didn't want cash but home cooked meals) to help me around the farm.
so, i am not sure what 2 vodka's and red bulls mean to his overall sobriety.
but i do know he once asked me how i knew God was real. i told him of an incident that took place and then called my mother, who also witnessed same event, and when she told him basically word for word what i did, he said his urge to shoot up stopped. and still to this day, he does not have that urge.
the goal now, however, is to get him off methadone.
Ooo wow the healer everyone!!!, you told a story and now he has never had the urge since
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2020-01-06 at 12:42 AM UTC
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2020-01-06 at 12:44 AM UTCDont fuck up my thread. Either talk about trying to get your shit together or go cyber each other in the PMsThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-06 at 12:46 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-06 at 12:48 AM UTC
Originally posted by MexicanMasterRace Do you have problems with drinking? I don't remember talking about it. But I find not having any whatsoever helps me a lot. I used to stupidly put the last 12oz into a glass jar and lie to myself while drunk about it being a momento. Like It'd somehow be easier if i had some on hand. But then i start sobering up and drink that shit till its gone. Just stupid.
If I had homebrew I'd probably wait a few days then drink it all in one binge. That's how I operate with drugs. Being drunk is so dysfunctional tho. I've switched to tossing down 12-18g of ground kava. I don't know that its doing any good for my binge habits but at least the process of swallowing it is so awful I tend to avoid it.
Wish I wasn't so good at drinking industrial amounts of liquor.
Yeah binge drinking is what sucks. -
2020-01-06 at 12:51 AM UTC
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2020-01-06 at 1:05 AM UTC
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2020-01-06 at 1:09 AM UTCI'm gonna buy some street suboxone soon and try that route. Taking edibles helps but when I take enough to chill me out I end up writing my whole day off. At least with suboxone I can have a relatively productive day. I also feel like a loser junkie when I take box so that helps motivate me. I rack dissaprin
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2020-01-06 at 2:32 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo I'm gonna buy some street suboxone soon and try that route. Taking edibles helps but when I take enough to chill me out I end up writing my whole day off. At least with suboxone I can have a relatively productive day. I also feel like a loser junkie when I take box so that helps motivate me. I rack dissaprin
Find something better nigger.
And by better I mean worse but less addictive/inebriating
I've slowly learned to deal without nicotine or opioids by using patches/Crouton. Now I'm using kava to learn to deal without GABAdrugs. I don't know if it's working yet. It probably won't.
Anyway I'm learning music theory instead of drinking. Learning to make triads (sun on yee represent) and play piano without having to look up or memorize chords like I have been doing. I wanna learn to play what's in my head because I got some good shit in there. If you'll niggers got a piano and wanna make triads just start on any key and press the 4th and 3rd key to make a major key, which will sound happy, or 3rd and 4th to do a minor key, which will sound sad. So you can do C,E,G for a major chord, or C, Eflat/Dsharp, G for a minor chord.
It's really basic shit but this is probably what I should've been doing from the beginning with piano instead of just memorizing everything and learning to read music like a fucking retard. Also writing this is helping me remember so fuck you faggots. One day I'll be able to speak in music. -
2020-01-06 at 2:45 AM UTCOn a serious note, I hope all of you guys find happiness. Genuinely mean that. Everyone is dealing with demons. Wish every one of you all success this year.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-06 at 2:50 AM UTC
Originally posted by MexicanMasterRace Find something better nigger.
And by better I mean worse but less addictive/inebriating
shut up. You clearly don't know anything about opiate withdrawals. Eating some legal powdered leaves isn't the same as boofing hydros when you have legit pain that's exacerbated by withdrawals. -
2020-01-06 at 2:59 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo shut up. You clearly don't know anything about opiate withdrawals. Eating some legal powdered leaves isn't the same as boofing hydros when you have legit pain that's exacerbated by withdrawals.
I used Crouton to get off opiates.
But yeah, I'm not a crippled bitch. Healthy as a clam here. But pain isnt a good reason to use street opiates or get high. You have a prescription dont you? Ran out? That means youre abusing or selling em. Find some legal shit thats actually safe. -
2020-01-06 at 3:06 AM UTC
Originally posted by MexicanMasterRace I used Crouton to get off opiates.
But yeah, I'm not a crippled bitch. Healthy as a clam here. But pain isnt a good reason to use street opiates or get high. You have a prescription dont you? Ran out? That means youre abusing or selling em. Find some legal shit thats actually safe.
You're an incredibly stupid person. Stop gaying up this thread with your mediocrity and ignorance. Suboxone is literally the best and most innocuous opiate replacement. -
2020-01-06 at 3:22 AM UTC
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2020-01-06 at 3:36 AM UTC
Originally posted by MexicanMasterRace Not when you buy it off the street. You're the one justifying your addiction because of some minor pain.
What is your incredibly stupid and naive ass attempting to convey? That you shouldn't buy suboxone because you think it might be illegal in my particular locality?(it isn't) Thanks officer, insightful contribution but next time remember that you don't know what youre talking about and no one gives a shit faggot -
2020-01-06 at 3:39 AM UTCImma fuck you both in the ass if you dont start being vulnerable and demonstrating some growth
