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2018-05-17 at 6:32 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Low doses of meth may actually be healing me.
Fucking vendor cancelled my order for racemic ketamine. Well, I'm getting back into the maddo scientisto self-experimentation mood.
My mind is awakening, becoming active, emotions are reviving, ideas are returning.
Also, yeah, once I started getting closer to the end of the month I started chickening out/having second thoughts.
To be fair, it could be a shame to never really give life a full force shot. Due to the philosophical system I had developed I was actually consistently attempting to refute arguments for living. Also, I started playing Dark Souls, the experience augmented by meth, and deriving some joy from life. It's a lot harder to commit suicide when you aren't in a suicidal state.
Well, I had an unrealistic expectation of being able to wrap everything up and come to terms with it in such a short time. Honestly, it was likely mostly various profound forms of suffering. I can't know for certain what may have caused the sudden shift back toward attempting life.
Would it be inappropriate to say "called it" right now? -
2018-05-17 at 7:22 AM UTCi'm back friends
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2018-05-17 at 8:18 AM UTCWelcome back, where have you been?
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2018-05-17 at 8:35 AM UTCdoing productive shit with my life.
dropped my drug habits (still do them occasionally when money allows) and just been working. i start my 2nd year of my apprenticeship when school starts back up in august -
2018-05-17 at 8:52 AM UTCWhat are you apprenticing as?
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2018-05-17 at 9:33 AM UTCa magician
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2018-05-17 at 9:33 AM UTCplumber.
my union does mostly commercial and a bit of service plumbing so i work in high rises, hospitals, schools, etc.
working on the remodel of a hospital on galveston island right now, its a pretty big job -
2018-05-17 at 9:41 AM UTCI could have a comfortable gap between the end of the spring semester and the beginning of summer intersession. Round trip tickets to SF with MegaBus are very cheap, around $25 often. They have an optional rooftop view from the double decker design, if you enjoy a higher view, wifi (cellular, spotty), outlets, laptop/work tables, and comfortable seats, although I'm not sure if there are any places you can recline without affecting anyone. Oh, fuck the autis.m, I'm not going to count and calculate the percentage. There are a fair number, and there's also this possibility combined with hyptnotics: https://www.amazon.com/Travelrest-Ultimate-Ergonomic-Adjustable-Wheelchairs/dp/B0787DH99J/ref=pd_sim_201_4?_encoding=UTF8&pd_rd_i=B0787DH99J&pd_rd_r=G6ZYDS431VKVT9JCJN67&pd_rd_w=mDqVX&pd_rd_wg=pvrev&psc=1&refRID=G6ZYDS431VKVT9JCJN67
I would just induce sleep. Then, after I arrive, take my revenge on Lanny. -
2018-05-17 at 9:47 AM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny Would it be inappropriate to say "called it" right now?
Do you know anyone in SoCal that would be willing to administer MDMA psychotherapy? I can get my own MDMA and adjuncts, eve pay, but I like the idea of a grad student or even academic doing it simply to record the experience, to gain data, or simply out of curiosity, personal interest in the project. Of course this would be anonymous. -
2018-05-17 at 11:35 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Do you know anyone in SoCal that would be willing to administer MDMA psychotherapy? I can get my own MDMA and adjuncts, eve pay, but I like the idea of a grad student or even academic doing it simply to record the experience, to gain data, or simply out of curiosity, personal interest in the project. Of course this would be anonymous.
I'll do it, I've even got my own car battery and jumper cables -
2018-05-17 at 1:26 PM UTC
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2018-05-17 at 2:02 PM UTCceratoke can plumb cracks like no ones busniss
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2018-05-17 at 3:28 PM UTCI'm sick of your shit, Malice.
Every other week you come up with a new chemical infatuation that you believe would solve a bunch of your problems. Then you get upset and depressed because the drug quits working after a couple weeks or is too impractical for daily life.
Because God forbid you put any actual effort into doing something uncomfortable or difficult, say, working through your issues instead of taking drugs and hoping they disappear.
You wanna skip life? Wanna be comfortable? Get some H, go to the methadone clinic and piss dirty. Then you can be literally be high forever and miss out on your entire life. The one you apparently don't even want.
Have you ever done opiods long term, darling?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-05-17 at 4:14 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Low doses of meth may actually be healing me.
Fucking vendor cancelled my order for racemic ketamine. Well, I'm getting back into the maddo scientisto self-experimentation mood.
My mind is awakening, becoming active, emotions are reviving, ideas are returning.
Also, yeah, once I started getting closer to the end of the month I started chickening out/having second thoughts.
To be fair, it could be a shame to never really give life a full force shot. Due to the philosophical system I had developed I was actually consistently attempting to refute arguments for living. Also, I started playing Dark Souls, the experience augmented by meth, and deriving some joy from life. It's a lot harder to commit suicide when you aren't in a suicidal state.
Well, I had an unrealistic expectation of being able to wrap everything up and come to terms with it in such a short time. Honestly, it was likely mostly various profound forms of suffering. I can't know for certain what may have caused the sudden shift back toward attempting life.
Look up KingOfClubs for K. Cant remember if its racemic or isomer but it was fucking great and arrived quickly. -
2018-05-17 at 6:12 PM UTCMalice, you know I lovers u <3
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2018-05-18 at 12:58 AM UTC
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2018-05-18 at 1:07 AM UTC
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2018-05-18 at 1:32 AM UTC
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2018-05-18 at 2:58 AM UTCleaving detox in the morning, gonna smoke down on some weed and then its my first day of work at 4.
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2018-05-18 at 3:17 AM UTC
