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2018-05-01 at 9:17 PM UTChow come you and fox paws can't understand that i shitpost for comic effect? and on this of all sites, that's pretty fucking dumb, lol.
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2018-05-01 at 10:42 PM UTC
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2018-05-01 at 11:01 PM UTC
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2018-05-01 at 11:01 PM UTC
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2018-05-01 at 11:04 PM UTCcurrently getting baked to this, it's 4:06 PM pacific time
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2018-05-02 at 1:22 AM UTCfucking deer niggers ate my sweet potato plants i wish there was a way i could eat these fuckers alas i live in the city
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2018-05-02 at 1:43 AM UTC
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2018-05-02 at 3:32 AM UTC
Originally posted by Juicebox I've slept a total of about 3 hours out of the last 84, no drugs involved besides Crouton and low dose phenibut. I'm scared to take any strong sedatives because I feel like I'll oversleep and miss work if I do.
This fucking sucks. I just lay down and never fall asleep. My mind isn't really racing, and if I lay still long enough I can start to feel sleep paralysis, but I don't ever truly go out. And when I do FINALLY sleep, it's only for ten minutes or so and/or right before I have to get up for work. I haven't made any diet or medicine changes. Can't be mania, I've had no energy. Doesn't feel like I'm withdrawing from anything. Seriously, wtf?
Strangely though, my mental state is…different. The voices have been mostly quiet, the depression is nowhere near as bad as it usually is, and I've went the whole day without considering suicide for the first time in years.
Visual and auditory hallucinations are MUCH worse though. I keep seeing things on fire and things that look like bugs in the corner of my eyes,and hearing music and people talking to me when they're not there. It kinda makes me miss the meth days lol
And whenever I start talking to someone I would go on and on and on about random ass unrelated shit. Combination of the effects of severe sleep deprivation + flmodafinil I guess.
Also, the size and color of objects around me seems not quite right.
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2018-05-02 at 3:36 AM UTC
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2018-05-02 at 7:27 AM UTCahh one more day till fucking payday then its party time again hah
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2018-05-02 at 9:02 AM UTC
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2018-05-02 at 9:03 AM UTC
Originally posted by Juicebox I feel like it could be changing into mania though, I've been dead ass tired for the last two days but today I felt better even though I got less than an hour of sleep, and I've noticed my energy slowly rising throughout the day
That would be crazy as fuck if all these years the solution to my mental health issues has been "sleep less"
At the same time I'm kinda paranoid too, because all my life I've felt that something was going to happen that will change me and make me able to enjoy life again, and that's when something will kill me.
This is actually a known phenomenon. Sleep deprivation has been linked to aiding depression. -
2018-05-02 at 9:11 AM UTCmy bipolar ex always got worse when she couldn't sleep. and of course that spiraled coz the more she got ill the more she couldn't sleep.
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2018-05-02 at 10:10 AM UTC
Originally posted by RestStop Shit. At least cop some meth so it's fun being awake or 80 hours.
Dude that fucking sucked, and is still going on somewhat
First three days of last week I couldn't sleep at all, zero hours.
Thursday and Friday I got 4-6 hours so I felt better but didn't catch up.
Saturday I used stimulant drugs ( ) and so I couldn't sleep that night or Sunday night, and had to work on Monday.
I had assumed that it was due to severe family problems, but while on break at work I discovered that phenibut will sometimes cause people to have insomnia, and their symptoms matched mine, but my doses were much much lower. So I skipped the phenibut Monday night and was able to sleep 10 hours or so and I felt better Tuesday.
Except I was on edge all day, and nearly had a freakout randomly, so took 750mg phenibut. I know not to take phenibut every day but I kept thinking "I just need to get some sleep, then I'll stop" and it just kept getting worse. So now I have to taper off the phenibut after only a week and a half.
Oh well, at least I figured out what was causing it (hopefully)
But yeah, my mental health has been much better in spite of severe sleep deprivation. Depression is there but nowhere near as bad. Voices are mostly gone. Hallucinations are worse though.
I'll have to try sleeping less from now on to see if that's really what's been causing my problems all these years. That would be absolutely insane. -
2018-05-02 at 2:19 PM UTCyour a pussy I stayed up 14 days and I was chill the whole time
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2018-05-02 at 3:22 PM UTCPretty sure i got food poisoning from Crouton. Have been shitting liquid and puking for past 30 hours. The guy sent me test results saying his Crouton was free of salmonella but im not convinced.
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2018-05-02 at 3:24 PM UTC
Originally posted by Juicebox Dude that fucking sucked, and is still going on somewhat
First three days of last week I couldn't sleep at all, zero hours.
Thursday and Friday I got 4-6 hours so I felt better but didn't catch up.
Saturday I used stimulant drugs ( ) and so I couldn't sleep that night or Sunday night, and had to work on Monday.
I had assumed that it was due to severe family problems, but while on break at work I discovered that phenibut will sometimes cause people to have insomnia, and their symptoms matched mine, but my doses were much much lower. So I skipped the phenibut Monday night and was able to sleep 10 hours or so and I felt better Tuesday.
Except I was on edge all day, and nearly had a freakout randomly, so took 750mg phenibut. I know not to take phenibut every day but I kept thinking "I just need to get some sleep, then I'll stop" and it just kept getting worse. So now I have to taper off the phenibut after only a week and a half.
Oh well, at least I figured out what was causing it (hopefully)
But yeah, my mental health has been much better in spite of severe sleep deprivation. Depression is there but nowhere near as bad. Voices are mostly gone. Hallucinations are worse though.
I'll have to try sleeping less from now on to see if that's really what's been causing my problems all these years. That would be absolutely insane.
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2018-05-02 at 3:26 PM UTC
Originally posted by SpatianHaigency Pretty sure i got food poisoning from Crouton. Have been shitting liquid and puking for past 30 hours. The guy sent me test results saying his Crouton was free of salmonella but im not convinced.
i've gotten really sick from bad Crouton before from a headshop. i do it everyday now but get it from a different source and haven't had a problem. but it fucked my stomach up for like a week. it was weird, it wasn't the classic food poisoning type symptoms, it started with just my stomach feeling like it wasn't digesting food as quickly, then it felt like it stopped, so i got really hungry and thirsty but whenever i would eat or drink anything my stomach would feel uncomfortably full for a long time. after like 5 days of this it felt like whatever food was inside me probably just rotted because it was just sitting there, and then my stomach kicked in and started working again and i was throwing up and all the other flu like symptoms for like a day and then it was finally gone. that was a fucking relief. -
2018-05-02 at 4:12 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice I had my first proper edible yesterday. It was a lot nicer, especially the body high, but I ended up falling asleep. Definitely more psychedelic, but I think it was centered around death and the nature of reality/life.
I feel different today, as if it normalized my brain activity to a large extent and I just feel more normal.
And the world is still my idea of hell.
Picked to my pure d-meth and will begin trialing low doses starting tomorrow. I don’t expect it to work, though.
It feels odd to know you’re probably going, yet to have fully resigned to yourself. No desire for salvation, nothing left you want to do, no fear.
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2018-05-02 at 4:18 PM UTC