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2018-04-25 at 11:15 PM UTCmmq didnt send me anything he's a lying asshole with a dad dead and i proved it with my paypal history
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2018-04-25 at 11:16 PM UTCsploo do u want money
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2018-04-25 at 11:18 PM UTC
Originally posted by Daily sploo do u want money
i need it to smoke zimbabwe foliage
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2018-04-26 at 4 AM UTC
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2018-04-26 at 7:09 AM UTCFuck yeah, an internet aniki just helped me out by guiding me towards a really good vendor that sells high quality batches of pure dextro-methamphetamine.
Fuck psychiatrists, there's almost no chance you'd get Desoxyn and I'd have to pay $160 out of pocket for only 60 5mg pills.
I'm not taking my chances with what's likely racemic cartel garbage cut with n-iso and MSM. Only the best for daddy.
I can't wait. It'll probably be here by Monday.
Still planning on buying the pentobarbital, though. This isn't guaranteed to lead to a life worth living. -
2018-04-26 at 7:10 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Fuck yeah, an internet aniki just helped me out by guiding me towards a really good vendor that sells high quality batches of pure dextro-methamphetamine.
Fuck psychiatrists, there's almost no chance you'd get Desoxyn and I'd have to pay $160 out of pocket for only 60 5mg pills.
I'm not taking my chances with what's likely racemic cartel garbage cut with n-iso and MSM. Only the best for daddy.
I can't wait. It'll probably be here by Monday.
Still planning on buying the pentobarbital, though. This isn't guaranteed to lead to a life worth living.
At least you're seeking alternatives to suicide. I'd really hate to see you go, man. -
2018-04-26 at 7:36 AM UTCWhy? Even I don't like myself.
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2018-04-26 at 7:40 AM UTCYou should read about people's experiences with Desoxyn if you haven't before, they're pretty fascinating.
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2018-04-26 at 7:43 AM UTC
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2018-04-26 at 7:44 AM UTCActually street meth might be HCL; I'm not sure.
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2018-04-26 at 8:23 AM UTC
Originally posted by LegalizeSpiritualDiscovery Actually street meth might be HCL; I'm not sure.
It is. Freebase meth is an oily liquid at room temperature
Originally posted by Malice Fuck yeah, an internet aniki just helped me out by guiding me towards a really good vendor that sells high quality batches of pure dextro-methamphetamine.
Fuck psychiatrists, there's almost no chance you'd get Desoxyn and I'd have to pay $160 out of pocket for only 60 5mg pills.
I'm not taking my chances with what's likely racemic cartel garbage cut with n-iso and MSM. Only the best for daddy.
I can't wait. It'll probably be here by Monday.
Still planning on buying the pentobarbital, though. This isn't guaranteed to lead to a life worth living.
I much preferred Vyvanse to methamphetamine, but I don't use more than occasionally anymore, and from what I've heard people who take Vyvanse everyday end up with some crazy ass side effects
I don't see how it would be any different from dexedrine though, all it is is dexedrine bound to lysine -
2018-04-26 at 9:31 AM UTCAnybody got change for a penny?
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2018-04-26 at 9:33 AM UTCis an aniki a faggotThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-04-26 at 9:47 AM UTCI've slept a total of about 3 hours out of the last 84, no drugs involved besides Crouton and low dose phenibut. I'm scared to take any strong sedatives because I feel like I'll oversleep and miss work if I do.
This fucking sucks. I just lay down and never fall asleep. My mind isn't really racing, and if I lay still long enough I can start to feel sleep paralysis, but I don't ever truly go out. And when I do FINALLY sleep, it's only for ten minutes or so and/or right before I have to get up for work. I haven't made any diet or medicine changes. Can't be mania, I've had no energy. Doesn't feel like I'm withdrawing from anything. Seriously, wtf?
Strangely though, my mental state is...different. The voices have been mostly quiet, the depression is nowhere near as bad as it usually is, and I've went the whole day without considering suicide for the first time in years.
Visual and auditory hallucinations are MUCH worse though. I keep seeing things on fire and things that look like bugs in the corner of my eyes,and hearing music and people talking to me when they're not there. It kinda makes me miss the meth days lol
And whenever I start talking to someone I would go on and on and on about random ass unrelated shit. Combination of the effects of severe sleep deprivation + flmodafinil I guess.
Also, the size and color of objects around me seems not quite right. -
2018-04-26 at 10:05 AM UTCI feel like it could be changing into mania though, I've been dead ass tired for the last two days but today I felt better even though I got less than an hour of sleep, and I've noticed my energy slowly rising throughout the day
That would be crazy as fuck if all these years the solution to my mental health issues has been "sleep less"
At the same time I'm kinda paranoid too, because all my life I've felt that something was going to happen that will change me and make me able to enjoy life again, and that's when something will kill me. -
2018-04-26 at 10:40 AM UTC
Originally posted by Juicebox I've slept a total of about 3 hours out of the last 84, no drugs involved besides Crouton and low dose phenibut. I'm scared to take any strong sedatives because I feel like I'll oversleep and miss work if I do.
This fucking sucks. I just lay down and never fall asleep. My mind isn't really racing, and if I lay still long enough I can start to feel sleep paralysis, but I don't ever truly go out. And when I do FINALLY sleep, it's only for ten minutes or so and/or right before I have to get up for work. I haven't made any diet or medicine changes. Can't be mania, I've had no energy. Doesn't feel like I'm withdrawing from anything. Seriously, wtf?
Strangely though, my mental state is…different. The voices have been mostly quiet, the depression is nowhere near as bad as it usually is, and I've went the whole day without considering suicide for the first time in years.
Visual and auditory hallucinations are MUCH worse though. I keep seeing things on fire and things that look like bugs in the corner of my eyes,and hearing music and people talking to me when they're not there. It kinda makes me miss the meth days lol
And whenever I start talking to someone I would go on and on and on about random ass unrelated shit. Combination of the effects of severe sleep deprivation + flmodafinil I guess.
Also, the size and color of objects around me seems not quite right.
If i were you id be calling into to work and going to the hospital or just sleeping the entire day. -
2018-04-26 at 10:44 AM UTC
Originally posted by SpatianHaigency If i were you id be calling into to work and going to the hospital or just sleeping the entire day.
That's the thing though, I lay in bed and can't sleep despite being exhausted
And what would the hospital do besides give me antipsychotics? I could do that at home without the need for more medical bills. If this continues through the rest of the week I'll probably take a geodon on the way home from work and then sleep the entire weekend. I still have a bottle of them from the old days.
I think it might be turning into mania now though, I don't really feel tired anymore but I'm going to try to sleep anyway
I don't have a history of mania but I did have a single three day long episode after quitting antidepressants two years ago. It was great, felt better than meth and it was totally natural
That damn crash though, fuck. Felt like the damn world was ending.
Manic depression doesn't sound like a whole hell of a lot of fun but at least I would get a break from the crushing despair once in a while -
2018-04-26 at 11:24 AM UTC
Originally posted by Juicebox I feel like it could be changing into mania though, I've been dead ass tired for the last two days but today I felt better even though I got less than an hour of sleep, and I've noticed my energy slowly rising throughout the day
That would be crazy as fuck if all these years the solution to my mental health issues has been "sleep less"
At the same time I'm kinda paranoid too, because all my life I've felt that something was going to happen that will change me and make me able to enjoy life again, and that's when something will kill me.
have you ever tried that 4-7-8 breathing thing to help you get to sleep. it could help, or might not but gotta be worth a try. a lot of people swear by it.
https://www.drweil.com/videos-features/videos/the-4-7-8-breath-health-benefits-demonstration/
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2018-04-26 at 12:19 PM UTC
Originally posted by NARCassist have you ever tried that 4-7-8 breathing thing to help you get to sleep. it could help, or might not but gotta be worth a try. a lot of people swear by it.
https://www.drweil.com/videos-features/videos/the-4-7-8-breath-health-benefits-demonstration/
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I tried something like this, and after what feels like ages, I eventually started to feel like I was in sleep paralysis, but never actually fell asleep
Also, the "hold" section of those breathing things always seems to mess me up. I don't know why, but it always seems to ruin the relaxation part of it. So I usually end up just inhaling slowly, then exhaling very slowly. -
2018-04-26 at 12:33 PM UTC
Originally posted by Juicebox I tried something like this, and after what feels like ages, I eventually started to feel like I was in sleep paralysis, but never actually fell asleep
Also, the "hold" section of those breathing things always seems to mess me up. I don't know why, but it always seems to ruin the relaxation part of it. So I usually end up just inhaling slowly, then exhaling very slowly.
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