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The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
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2018-04-24 at 2:03 AM UTC
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2018-04-24 at 2:03 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice So what if you can’t enjoy anything when you’re dead? You can’t suffer either. Your body will continue to decline, life will increasingly lose its novelty, until the worst of all will occur.
What’s so bad about going to sleep and never waking up again? That sounds great to me. I think people run away from it because they cling to the illusions of identity and consciousness. If you lose the fear of accepting the truth you lose the fear of what death is.
Life is a business that does not cover the costs.
That's the drugs talking. -
2018-04-24 at 2:19 AM UTC*holds envelope in the air while twirling around*
YESSS! Sweet sweet drugs!
Does anyone else engage in little celebratory acts when they receive their drugs in the mail?
It's been so long, my old friend. Goddamn this is gonna feel good when it kicks in. Proper relief for the first time since I was traumatized late last year. -
2018-04-24 at 3:27 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice *holds envelope in the air while twirling around*
YESSS! Sweet sweet drugs!
Does anyone else engage in little celebratory acts when they receive their drugs in the mail?
It's been so long, my old friend. Goddamn this is gonna feel good when it kicks in. Proper relief for the first time since I was traumatized late last year.
benzos? -
2018-04-24 at 3:27 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice What’s so bad about going to sleep and never waking up again? That sounds great to me.
You know you've made a good point, really convinced me with your compelling arguments. I'm so inspired I'm also going to post continuously for two months about the suicide I'm not going to commit. That's waaaaay better than all this gay life stuff like having fun or pursuing my interests. -
2018-04-24 at 3:40 AM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny You know you've made a good point, really convinced me with your compelling arguments. I'm so inspired I'm also going to post continuously for two months about the suicide I'm not going to commit. That's waaaaay better than all this gay life stuff like having fun or pursuing my interests.
You need to read Schopenhauer or at least "Better Never to Have Been". -
2018-04-24 at 3:43 AM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny You know you've made a good point, really convinced me with your compelling arguments. I'm so inspired I'm also going to post continuously for two months about the suicide I'm not going to commit. That's waaaaay better than all this gay life stuff like having fun or pursuing my interests.
In japan its admirable. -
2018-04-24 at 3:48 AM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny That's waaaaay better than all this gay life stuff like having fun or pursuing my interests.
And what about the gay life stuff such as having your soul mangled by the capitalist system, working an unfulfilling job in an industry you abhor, attempting to get through a difficult master's degree program at the same time, the endless repetitiveness of life, having little time to pursue your genuine passions and what you enjoy most, being so stressed and overworked that you can't enjoy it, often not even being able to sleep properly, dealing with chronic mild depression, having unfulfilling romantic relationships, seeing the people you love die, the countless possibilities and pitfalls, the rumination on whether this is really what you want, what mistakes you may be making, whether you'll end up regretting this at a point where it's too late, the countless misfortunes that will befall you throughout life etc.
Keep that dopamine drip going, lab rat 1. Keep telling yourself, "My life has meaning because the body I did not choose responds to certain stimuli in a manner that causes me to experience pleasure. This endless cycle of seeking it, despite the costs and inability to find genuine meaning in the world, has to be worth it. -
2018-04-24 at 3:56 AM UTCI really want some meth or 2-FMA to balance this out, see what it’s like.
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2018-04-24 at 4:01 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice And what about the gay life stuff such as having your soul mangled by the capitalist system, working an unfulfilling job in an industry you abhor, attempting to get through a difficult master's degree program at the same time, the endless repetitiveness of life, having little time to pursue your genuine passions and what you enjoy most, being so stressed and overworked that you can't enjoy it, often not even being able to sleep properly, dealing with chronic mild depression, having unfulfilling romantic relationships, seeing the people you love die, the countless possibilities and pitfalls, the rumination on whether this is really what you want, what mistakes you may be making, whether you'll end up regretting this at a point where it's too late, the countless misfortunes that will befall you throughout life etc.
Keep that dopamine drip going, lab rat 1. Keep telling yourself, "My life has meaning because the body I did not choose responds to certain stimuli in a manner that causes me to experience pleasure. This endless cycle of seeking it, despite the costs and inability to find genuine meaning in the world, has to be worth it.
Can't you just treat life as a joke and do everything for kicks? Like Seinfeld.
Live the Seinfeld life philosophy.
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2018-04-24 at 4:07 AM UTC
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2018-04-24 at 4:43 AM UTC
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2018-04-24 at 4:59 AM UTC*sigh* I definitely calmer, I’m not in a constant state of suffering, and feel less a.utistic/more normal, but I still feel so empty. The euphoria just doesn’t last, especially if you’ve consumed as much as I have. Definitely want to try 5mg of high quality meth with this.
I’d like to see how this improves in time as my brain and the rest of my body recover.
If it doesn’t, then I’ll know I made the right choice. -
2018-04-24 at 5:01 AM UTC
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2018-04-24 at 5:09 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice And what about the gay life stuff such as having your soul mangled by the capitalist system, working an unfulfilling job in an industry you abhor, attempting to get through a difficult master's degree program at the same time, the endless repetitiveness of life, having little time to pursue your genuine passions and what you enjoy most, being so stressed and overworked that you can't enjoy it, often not even being able to sleep properly, dealing with chronic mild depression, having unfulfilling romantic relationships, seeing the people you love die, the countless possibilities and pitfalls, the rumination on whether this is really what you want, what mistakes you may be making, whether you'll end up regretting this at a point where it's too late, the countless misfortunes that will befall you throughout life etc.
The point was that you still have to put up with all the problems of being alive while piling this cringeworthy complaining on top of it. If you're going to kill yourself just do it without all this date-setting philosophical bulshitting drama in preface. If you're not then find something better to do with your time than complain about the inadequacies of life. What you're doing right now is behaving like a child. -
2018-04-24 at 5:18 AM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny The point was that you still have to put up with all the problems of being alive while piling this cringeworthy complaining on top of it. If you're going to kill yourself just do it without all this date-setting philosophical bulshitting drama in preface. If you're not then find something better to do with your time than complain about the inadequacies of life. What you're doing right now is behaving like a child.
Oh come on...I’d say it’s more like pre-teen level -
2018-04-24 at 5:20 AM UTCBeing at a neutral baseline is it's own special kind of hell. It truly allows you to experience the emptiness of existence.
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2018-04-24 at 6:21 AM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny The point was that you still have to put up with all the problems of being alive while piling this cringeworthy complaining on top of it. If you're going to kill yourself just do it without all this date-setting philosophical bulshitting drama in preface. If you're not then find something better to do with your time than complain about the inadequacies of life. What you're doing right now is behaving like a child.
Mmm, maybe. I'm simply stating that, unfortunately, I don't consider my life to be worth living. -
2018-04-24 at 8:18 AM UTCStupid mortals all you do is waste your puny existence with your armchair philosophy, cuck drugs and caring about things that don't matter.
You are stuck in broken patterns of thinking and are missing out on a golden age. -
2018-04-24 at 8:46 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice And what about the gay life stuff such as having your soul mangled by the capitalist system, working an unfulfilling job in an industry you abhor, attempting to get through a difficult master's degree program at the same time, the endless repetitiveness of life, having little time to pursue your genuine passions and what you enjoy most, being so stressed and overworked that you can't enjoy it, often not even being able to sleep properly, dealing with chronic mild depression, having unfulfilling romantic relationships, seeing the people you love die, the countless possibilities and pitfalls, the rumination on whether this is really what you want, what mistakes you may be making, whether you'll end up regretting this at a point where it's too late, the countless misfortunes that will befall you throughout life etc.
Keep that dopamine drip going, lab rat 1. Keep telling yourself, "My life has meaning because the body I did not choose responds to certain stimuli in a manner that causes me to experience pleasure. This endless cycle of seeking it, despite the costs and inability to find genuine meaning in the world, has to be worth it.
so you're killing yourself because you live a normal unblessed life? you're looking at that shit all wrong. they're not difficult, meaningless or unfulfilling things, you're just looking at them wrong, they're experiences, life experiences. you should savor every single one of them.
i mean look at me, i just spent 2 years in prison. now it wasn't where i wanted to be by a long shot, and it certainly wasn't the best or most awesome experience ever, but it was certainly an experience. a lot of people watch prison movies, i got to star in one. and as a result when i got out i went to a place i would never have gone to otherwise, and met an amazing girl that i never would have met if i hadn't spent that two years in prison. still i would never choose to spend two whole years in prison but i'm sure as shit glad i spent that two years in there now.
what i'm trying to say is that all the shitty parts of life have a funny habit of working out in the end and in experiencing them we learn and develop, we become better people and have something to tell the grandkids.
i mean its like most people would never want to go to war and certainly wouldn't choose to. but they'll watch war movies and revel in the idea of going to war. but in a way they're missing out on a very exciting experience. because they get too used to creature comforts and that whole 'american dream' ideal which is just fantasy land really.
i couldn't think of anything worse than to be born with a silver spoon in my mouth and live my whole life in a big safe mansion and only going to fine restaurants and being all nice and safe and never having got into the nitty gritty of real life. that's where the real shit happens. it might not always be comfortable but it certainly gets interesting and makes you a much better and interesting human being for having been through it.
never regret having a hard life.
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