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2018-04-17 at 10:25 PM UTCWhy do you ignore me Malice?
I just want to understand your reasoning.
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2018-04-17 at 10:32 PM UTC
Originally posted by Obbe I see. So Malice, what do you mean by this?
Happiness is an evil and must be renounced.
A simple illustration is when you choose to do something in an attempt to maximize your own personal pleasure as opposed to an action from compassion, which would alleviate the suffering of others. Play a video game/watch something/eat out/read for pleasure/whatever. Helping others would likely still give you some pleasure, albeit possibly lower, yet you choose not to devote your time to that due to your biological predispositions.
We're also 3 dimensional beings that are trapped in the present in a state or eternal becoming. Memories are nothing but shadows of past experience. If one day you enter a state, such as while under the effects of cancer, where you are chronically experiencing disutility, what good does the past provide you? It doesn't genuinely exist to you. We are perpetually trapped at one point and then it is over for all eternity.
Don't you see the problem with this? What difference is there between 80 years and seconds compared to the infinite. You're always now and then you aren't. There isn't some universal store of how many utility points you've accumulated/experienced over a lifetime, what you've experienced in the past does you no good in the most direct regard, unless it develops you as a person or you derive enough utility from mere memories in times of deprivation, which could be no different from mere fantasies.
It's nothing but being caught in an endless cycle without inherent meaning and then it is over, no different than it had ever occurred.
We lose nothing in death, because there is nothing of us to experience loss. Death is simply escaping the cycle of samsara, of surpassing fear and illusion. Life simply creates a need where there was no need to be met and due to the nature of reality you always run the risk of reaching a point where you will lament having been foolish and weak enough to continue in this cycle when there would have been no loss from accepting the end. Happiness/pleasure is like an addiction.
I'm escaping the cycle and will be free from whatever horrors the future may hold. It is liberation. The only valid reason I see to remain alive is out of compassion, if you believe you can alleviate more suffering than your life produces to others and are able to endure your own personal suffering. I'm stepping beyond that. No more desires, even the path toward a "better" world filled with less suffering, simply the path toward cessation.
I want to stop wanting anything. -
2018-04-17 at 10:54 PM UTC*streaks through thread*The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-04-17 at 11:18 PM UTCNearly forgot. Just to round everything off I would miracle fruit/miracle berry to counteract the bitterness of the pentobarbital. Mixed into a nice margarita or other drink (I know almost nothing of mixed drinks) there would not even be the momentary discomfort of a foul taste.
The best death possible, by your own hands. -
2018-04-17 at 11:30 PM UTCWhat a boring death
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2018-04-17 at 11:31 PM UTCAt the very least you won a willy wonka ticket to to Experience World. Its this super-realistic RPG where you can just do and experience shit. I mean you can delete your account, but I hurd theres some sweet DLC coming down the pipeline.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-04-17 at 11:34 PM UTCWhy not at least be fucking original and start shoplifting high end foodstuffs from pricey grocery stores, and then eat yourself into literal death? Huh? Like gorge on cheeses, marinated beef loin and goose liver pate until your intestines perforate and you die. You can do better than Cuervo and gay chinese internet drugs. lol.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-04-18 at 12:03 AM UTCYou don't understand and I don't care if anyone else understands. I no longer want to say anything to anyone. I want to go out in as close to a karma free manner as possible. No effect on the world outside of myself, simply moving on in peace.
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2018-04-18 at 12:04 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Nearly forgot. Just to round everything off I would miracle fruit/miracle berry to counteract the bitterness of the pentobarbital. Mixed into a nice margarita or other drink (I know almost nothing of mixed drinks) there would not even be the momentary discomfort of a foul taste.
The best death possible, by your own hands.
You should just blast a fucking stupid amount of testosterone and tren, get shredded and go from there. You dont need a personality if you have the body of a God. Do you think being worshipped would make you less suicidal? And if it doesnt help, then you can commit to suicide and have a nice funeral and look nice during it. -
2018-04-18 at 12:12 AM UTCso you gonna die a virgin malice?
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2018-04-18 at 12:15 AM UTCWaitaminute they have pentobarbital?
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2018-04-18 at 12:21 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Happiness is an evil and must be renounced.
A simple illustration is when you choose to do something in an attempt to maximize your own personal pleasure as opposed to an action from compassion, which would alleviate the suffering of others. Play a video game/watch something/eat out/read for pleasure/whatever. Helping others would likely still give you some pleasure, albeit possibly lower, yet you choose not to devote your time to that due to your biological predispositions.
We're also 3 dimensional beings that are trapped in the present in a state or eternal becoming. Memories are nothing but shadows of past experience. If one day you enter a state, such as while under the effects of cancer, where you are chronically experiencing disutility, what good does the past provide you? It doesn't genuinely exist to you. We are perpetually trapped at one point and then it is over for all eternity.
Don't you see the problem with this? What difference is there between 80 years and seconds compared to the infinite. You're always now and then you aren't. There isn't some universal store of how many utility points you've accumulated/experienced over a lifetime, what you've experienced in the past does you no good in the most direct regard, unless it develops you as a person or you derive enough utility from mere memories in times of deprivation, which could be no different from mere fantasies.
It's nothing but being caught in an endless cycle without inherent meaning and then it is over, no different than it had ever occurred.
We lose nothing in death, because there is nothing of us to experience loss. Death is simply escaping the cycle of samsara, of surpassing fear and illusion. Life simply creates a need where there was no need to be met and due to the nature of reality you always run the risk of reaching a point where you will lament having been foolish and weak enough to continue in this cycle when there would have been no loss from accepting the end. Happiness/pleasure is like an addiction.
I'm escaping the cycle and will be free from whatever horrors the future may hold. It is liberation. The only valid reason I see to remain alive is out of compassion, if you believe you can alleviate more suffering than your life produces to others and are able to endure your own personal suffering. I'm stepping beyond that. No more desires, even the path toward a "better" world filled with less suffering, simply the path toward cessation.
I want to stop wanting anything.
I see.
But why do you want that? Why not enjoy the cycle of samsara? If it's just as meaningless as if it had never occured, that what is the difference between ending it or allowing it to happen?
How do you know that if you were to kill yourself now that would actually end the cycle of samsara? What if there is no escape? -
2018-04-18 at 12:22 AM UTCI dont know how to delete this post.
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2018-04-18 at 12:59 AM UTC
Originally posted by Obbe I see.
But why do you want that? Why not enjoy the cycle of samsara? If it's just as meaningless as if it had never occured, that what is the difference between ending it or allowing it to happen?
How do you know that if you were to kill yourself now that would actually end the cycle of samsara? What if there is no escape?
Bad questions. Completely uninteresting. I don't respond to posts like this, except to vaguely tell you why. -
2018-04-18 at 1:02 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-04-18 at 1:03 AM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER Why not at least be fucking original and start shoplifting high end foodstuffs from pricey grocery stores, and then eat yourself into literal death? Huh? Like gorge on cheeses, marinated beef loin and goose liver pate until your intestines perforate and you die. You can do better than Cuervo and gay chinese internet drugs. lol.
This would be fly. Likely to backfire though. -
2018-04-18 at 1:04 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-04-18 at 1:04 AM UTC
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2018-04-18 at 1:06 AM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny Yo fox paws, there's a setting on your profile where you can autosubscribe to threads whenever you open them. Just thought you might want to know.
i did try telling him that. it will be interesting to see if he responds to you with the vigor and hate that he put into my response.
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2018-04-18 at 1:06 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Fucking MoneyGram locked my account and stated I had to do it in person when I tried to transfer money online. What exactly is so suspicious about a Hispanic individual in his late 20s transferring money from California to an account associated with a Bulgarian online pharmacy?
Well, it's done. I feel proud of myself, actually taking the steps to ensure a peaceful death. It's one of the most extreme acts a human being can commit.
The Stater Bros, which is about a 12 minute walk from college, has shopping carts filled with "Manager's Special" discount alcohol. I got a handle of Jose Cuervo margarita for $8 and a 24oz can of pineapple Steel Reserve for $1. The former is oishii, the latter I had never tried before this. I would have expected SR to be pretty bad, but it's not bad, especially for the price. It just tastes like mildly alcoholic soda, and 8% is nothing to scoff at for a full 24oz. You can catch a pretty good buzz off of it. Probably would have been better to only drink half. Not like you have to care about health when you're planning on checking out early. It's liberating.
Discount liquor is a dream for the burgeoning suicidal-alcoholic college student. I wonder if Lanny ever had a place like this when he actually had to be concerned about monetary matters as us peasants have to. It's the jedi within me resonating with the optimal utility ratios found.
Nigga we've all drank a shit ton of discount liquor lol
