2020-12-27 at 10:45 PM UTC
in
I got my puppy today :D
livingelegy
motherfucker
[my polyoicous forward graciousness]
Put him in the pet sementary
livingelegy
motherfucker
[my polyoicous forward graciousness]
Then when the bomb squad, detectives, and police officers are all concentrated in one area searching for #3 I unleash the sarin gas.
2020-12-27 at 10:29 PM UTC
in
Do any of you play chess?
livingelegy
motherfucker
[my polyoicous forward graciousness]
I'm not intelligent enough to win a game of chess
livingelegy
motherfucker
[my polyoicous forward graciousness]
My trick is to plant three bombs and label them #1, #2, and #4 so the first responders waste extra time looking for bomb #3 that really isn't there. I make sure to call the police department seconds before the detonation and give them a false tip about 4 bombs about to detonate at the target area.
livingelegy
motherfucker
[my polyoicous forward graciousness]
Fuck deer and fuck pigs, those fuckers have had it too good for too long, eating up all the good grass and vandalizing all the tree bark with their antlers and shitting everywhere, oh and don't even get me started on pigs. Did you know that they roll in their own shit? Literally coat themselves in their own excrement just to be a dick.
2020-12-27 at 7:55 PM UTC
in
Niggas.in/space
livingelegy
motherfucker
[my polyoicous forward graciousness]
Embed Saltybet and put in a chat window so we can bet virtual monies on MUGEN fights and shit talk each other's picks
2020-12-27 at 7:53 PM UTC
in
I Guess This Is It
livingelegy
motherfucker
[my polyoicous forward graciousness]
I'll be around here posting frequently just to kill the time as I wait for my next opportunity to bring my medical records over to the salvation army. Then they're gonna let me know what I need to do next. They said that no matter what it's going to take a while.
2020-12-27 at 7:51 PM UTC
in
I Guess This Is It
livingelegy
motherfucker
[my polyoicous forward graciousness]
I'm not gonna die yet folks. Not yet. I'm working on this ID thing with the salvation army. I'm just mad that this thing is going to take weeks or months and I'll be basically helpless in the meantime unless I find some kind of labor gig or gigs on Craigslist.
Sorry for the dramatic bullshit, I just needed to vent I guess. Things have been rough lately. I kicked the windshield out of my truck the other night when I was drinking and I verbally abused mother again. I also ripped some parts out of the engine bay. I don't have a radiator cap or spark plugs wires anymore. I was able to move the truck a little ways down an access road where I can sleep semi-legally. My mom's had it and she's gonna leave me like this, I know it. She hardly visits anymore. I don't need her but the prospect of going through this totally alone isn't comforting.
But nonetheless I'll be okay. I know when the food bank shows up in my town every week. I know what I need to do right now to continue working towards getting an ID and other new documents. The waiting is what kills me.
I'm lucky enough not to be doing meth right now. I use occasionally but I'm quitting, last time I got these gross sores on my face.
My mother's clients come by sometimes offering me work but who would ever work for the people plowing their dear mother for drug money? I refuse on sheer principle.
livingelegy
motherfucker
[my polyoicous forward graciousness]
Push the envelope and make a zanick # 3 to post even more inflammatory shit with
livingelegy
motherfucker
[my polyoicous forward graciousness]
the "every part of the animal" thing is a wives tale
livingelegy
motherfucker
[my polyoicous forward graciousness]
There was no RV, anyone who claimed to witness an RV is simply suffering from mass hysteria and shared psychosis. Any photograph or video allegedly showing an RV is actually just a photograph with an aberration caused by faulty recording equipment, sunspots in the lense, or an image of a rogue weather balloon that appears to be an rv to the naked eye. The explosion was an act of God and the warnings allegedly coming from the non-existent RV were really the voice of God.
2020-12-27 at 11:23 AM UTC
in
I Guess This Is It
livingelegy
motherfucker
[my polyoicous forward graciousness]
I'm tired of waiting for something to happen. And it seems like that's all I can do. The Craigslist job mill has closed up shop. This ID process bullshit takes too long. I'm hated by virtually everyone in my life. I don't have the energy or the willpower to meet people, and why would I want to meet anyone? So I can tell them I'm a disgusting homeless incestuous pedo who basically pimps his mom?
Guys like me don't get happy endings. I'm going nowhere fast, sinking, sinking. Fuck covid. Fuck hawaii. Fuck tweakers. I can't stand it anymore. I tried to cut my wrists the other day and my bitch mom stole the knife and threw it away. She hates me too much to let me die, I guess. She wants me to live on and suffer. She wants revenge. She's a nasty cunt.
My life is fucked and there's no way out. This salvation army ID bullshit will take weeks or months and even then I'm still fucked. It's live homeless for the rest of my life or just die now. Death is looking better every day. This is far from my last will and testament, but I am this close to just ending it.
The internet, ebooks, my cell phone is all I really have left. I know, pathetic, right? As soon as I run out of data on this line I'm planning to end my life. It's not like I can find a job to get money to refill it. I hate this. My mother told me things were fine over here. Then I get on a plane and it turns out she's selling herself for cash, and theres no God damn work. And then I get robbed at the beach and they take all of my forms of ID. That means no food stamps, no shelter, no military, no job corps. I'm fucked now. I don't have the patience to deal with the fucking salvation army anymore. Im supposed to wait for weeks or months and then only maybe will they be able to help me. This is bullshit. I'm ready to die.
