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2019-09-19 at 5:53 AM UTC in this whole shitheap of a site is full of MKULTRA zombiesSkulltag I'm pissed off at you because you're belittling the struggle I went through because it doesn't meet your personal criteria of what "true isolation" is.
You're a bullshitter.
I have been through hell and back and I'm not about to have what I went through dismissed just because I didn't have it meet your own definition of what it means to be isolated.
I have lived in isolation my entire life, I have never had a single person in my life there for me, I have always been alone.
You said something about me taking about something everywhere, well guess what I post on a shit ton of forums because I am online 24/7 and it is the only way I ever get to interact with people.
So you are bound to run into one of my posts.
You aren't deep, you aren't making any impression on me, you're just a nuisance.
You think you're leaving some impression on me, slapping me into reality and telling me that I'm just a sucker who needs to get on his own two feet and change things.
Sucker, you don't even fucking know what I have been through, who I am or how I got here.
You have no fucking clue what it means to grow up as an isolated person and you never will, you can't compare prison isolation or living alone as an adult to being somebody who grew up to adulthood sheltered and isolated.
You are a goddamn IDIOT and have no fucking clue what you're talking about and to someone in my situation it is a damn insult.
You have no business talking about something like this. -
2019-09-19 at 5:44 AM UTC in I want to die and wake up in Besaid IslandI have no love, no connection, no care for this plane of existence.
I hate every single aspect of this piece of dogshit reality and would like nothing more than to escape it for good.
It is disgusting, boring, painful ....
All I want is to wake up in some bushes with sand in my feet and the besaid island theme song hover above my head, look up and see Yuna smiling at me, to my left Vaan standing and then he slaps me across the face and says "wake up silly you were asleep, for a long time, but you're awake now, finally!" "What a terrible dream that was!".
This is just a terrible dream and someday I'm going to wake up. -
2019-09-19 at 5:36 AM UTC in What are you listening to right now, space nigga?
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2019-09-19 at 5:30 AM UTC in this whole shitheap of a site is full of MKULTRA zombies
Originally posted by Skulltag Do as you see fit. The offer still stands, should you take me upon it. If you want to continue pretending, I'm not going to force you. If you want to solve your problems by facing them head on, I'm here. Take care. Peace.
Yep, I have been pretending since I was 6 years old in grade school ... ehhmhh I'm just a pretender ... a prima donna ... some wigger on a random forum knows more about my personal experience than me ... uh huh the past 20 years doesn't mean anything because some degenerate loser who was put into jail thinks he had it harder. -
2019-09-19 at 5:23 AM UTC in this whole shitheap of a site is full of MKULTRA zombies
Originally posted by cob You've never attended school? Or you've only attended home school?
Or did your parents never talk to you?
Those formative years are where you're (supposed) to develop core, basic, socialization functions. If that wasn't the case for you, you have my genuine sympathy.
I went to public school through kindergarten to the 5th grade.
The entire time I was there was extremely miserable and my mom (god bless her) took me out at 5th grade.
I had to repeat the second and third grade twice, Idk if I have legit mental illness or if it was a lack of interest of both but it did not work out for me.
And before that one idiot in this thread tries to chime in and voice his dumbass opinion, I wasn't able to socialize when I was in school either.
I have legit been isolated and alone my entire life, I have never once had an actual real friend aside for a few kids I would talk to during lunch time or at passively at my apartment complex when I was a young kid.
My mom was an alcoholic and my dad already had a family before he knocked her up so I had a pretty dysfunctional upbringing.
Before 2002 I didn't have the net so all I had was playstation 1 and television, the tv was the only way I could interact with the outside world.
Skip to 2003 and I finally convinced my mom to take me out of school since I was so goddamn miserable and never went anywhere with it in the fist place.
During that time I discovered 4chan and TOTSE and those would be my only forms of socializing and have been ever since, but I know very damn well that isn't actual human interaction.
When I was 17 I tried going to a charter high school and I was there for three or four days before I left, though I didn't meet this autistic girl who understood what I was going through and tried to befriend me but I was deep into alcohol and too autistic to be her friend so that never went anywhere.
Basically I have lived a very isolated and miserable life and if it weren't for that do you really think I would be on such a stupid goddamn website at 1:23am in the year 2019?
I am so lonely I have died inside.
I daydream everyday about having a social life. -
2019-09-19 at 5:10 AM UTC in this whole shitheap of a site is full of MKULTRA zombies
Originally posted by aldra do you have flacs?
if I listen to it I'll probably make a review thread that you might not like, ie. https://niggasin.space/thread/7144
I'll send you the flacs after I recover from this inevitable hangover -
2019-09-19 at 5:06 AM UTC in this whole shitheap of a site is full of MKULTRA zombies
Originally posted by Skulltag That was exactly my point. And since it has troubled you so much, I seem to have hit the nail on the head. My job here is done. Thanks for having taken a moment of introspection. I believe you've just made the first step towards recovery.
The only thing you achieved was pissing me off by your stupidity
You claim I have spent my entire life socializing yet the only human interaction I have had is through an abstraction, the computer monitor and font on my screen.
Meanwhile you get to go outside and breathe in the pheromones and read the body language of the people you interact with on a daily basis.
I have never had that experience.
You don't know anything about loneliness or isolation, so to see an idiot like you yap their mouth after everything I have gone through is an INSULT.
You assume that I am a poser because I come to places like this to socialize, that just goes to show your absolute ignorance on what it means to be lonely in the first place.
Not everyone in my situation wants to be away from people, we are just put in certain situations where it isn't possible for us.
Fuck you.
I want nothing more than to have friends and a social life, but I don't know how and I never have since goddamn 1st grade.
You are an ignorant douchebag and you have no business talking about something like this. -
2019-09-19 at 4:59 AM UTC in this whole shitheap of a site is full of MKULTRA zombies
Originally posted by Skulltag That was exactly my point. And since it has troubled you so much, I seem to have hit the nail on the head. My job here is done. Thanks for having taken a moment of introspection. I believe you've just made the first step towards recovery.
No you're some dumbass normie that thinks isolation exclusively means absolute zero interaction with another living being and you're wrong.
I'm not trying to wave my dick around like you, I am extremely lonely and sheltered and miserable because of it.
I long for human interaction, it kills me inside that I grew up the way I did.
You will never understand what I went through, the fact that you had to go through some extreme example that you yourself never even experienced says it all.
You know absolutely NOTHING about what it is like to live your entire life isolated and without human interaction.
All I can do is take your beating and listen to idiots like you put me down and say "well you at least talked to people over the internet so what do you have to complain for?"
FUCK YOU YOU STUPID FUCK
You have lived your whole life with contact with other humans, I have spent my entire goddamn life where the only physical human interaction I have had is with my mom and other than that it's text on screen with idiots like yourself.
I'm not bragging, I am CRYING, I am FUCKING MISERABLE and this life FUCKING SUCKS and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone but somehow through circumstance this is what I ended up in.
If I could turn things around and go back to 2002 and have real human relationships I would, but I didn't.
What you're saying is no different from saying somebody had a social life through reading books, it's bullshit.
Fuck you and your ignorant privileged life, you stupid scumbag.
I hate every single one of you and the only reason I am even here is because I am profoundly lonely. -
2019-09-19 at 4:50 AM UTC in this whole shitheap of a site is full of MKULTRA zombies
Originally posted by Skulltag You're lieing. I'm too lazy to search up your shitposting, but you basically admitted it yourself. Since 2002, you have been on the computer every single day, of every single month, of every single year. You've always been in contact with the human race. Reading, shitposting and pretending to stand alone while following the rest of us lost sheep.
You're trying to play the solitary edgelord, but you can't live a single day without the internet. You can't live a single day facing nothing but yourself. I know more about pain and solitude than you'll ever want to know. But that's not a story you need to know.
You have never been left to rot in a 2x2 hole for months on end. Without anyone to talk to. Without any sort of tech to keep you company. Without even a bed or anything to scrawl and draw on. Without your mail ordered food, forced to get scraps of whatever your torturer gives you. Knowing that nobody will come for you, ever.
You try to call people out on being posers because you yourself have no experience with the real world, and so, you play pretend and don't want to be called out on it. Call others what you are so that it looks less incriminating when you get called out on it.
Again. I'm not here to judge you. But how do you expect to get a friend if you lie to everybody, including yourself? You can't solve your problems if you don't want to admit them.
I didn't even read your shitpost and I just want you to know that you cannot compare staring at text on a screen to actual physical human interaction.
Fuck you. -
2019-09-19 at 4:49 AM UTC in this whole shitheap of a site is full of MKULTRA zombies
Originally posted by aldra whichever one you feel most interested in
I'm actually in the process of working on a post-Indstrial/electro-Industrial album inspired by Skinny Puppy and TG mixed with elemetns of pedosexuality and 20th century nihilism
if you have the time please do listen to my EP (it's only 30 minutes so fuck you) for an idea of what I'm going with
The album I'm working on next with be more electro oriented and might feature more vocals. -
2019-09-19 at 4:40 AM UTC in What are you listening to right now, space nigga?HTDA is great
I own both of their physcial releases and have fapped to mariqueen numerous times
I've heard rumours they're going to release a new album, Ican't wait to sew what they come up with.
What is your favorite NIN release? -
2019-09-19 at 4:37 AM UTC in this whole shitheap of a site is full of MKULTRA zombies
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2019-09-19 at 4:37 AM UTC in this whole shitheap of a site is full of MKULTRA zombies
Originally posted by Skulltag I saw some. Lurking was entertaining. He's not ready for true solitude. Not by a long shot.
Oh?
I doubt you even know what solitude is.
I've been living through it since I was 11 years old, basically my entire human life.
It's not bad, I just wish I had a single close friend who understand me and would play video games with me. -
2019-09-19 at 4:34 AM UTC in Virtual reality is the next frontier
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2019-09-19 at 4:34 AM UTC in Virtual reality is the next frontiertbh I would kill myself right now if it meant my consciousness would teleport to a place like Balmb Garden
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2019-09-19 at 4:31 AM UTC in Virtual reality is the next frontier
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2019-09-19 at 4:31 AM UTC in this whole shitheap of a site is full of MKULTRA zombiesface it
you people would be nothing without me
just imagine how dull and boring this place would be without my presence -
2019-09-19 at 4:21 AM UTC in Virtual reality is the next frontierlol you don't actually PREFER "3d" reality do you?
LMAO how pathetic!
Leave that world and open the next!
A world of unlimited imagination awaits!!
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2019-09-19 at 4:16 AM UTC in Virtual reality is the next frontier>COME HOME CONSCIOUS BEING
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2019-09-19 at 4:06 AM UTC in Virtual reality is the next frontierImagine this
it is entirely possible with the right technology and conditions that we can abandon this:
BORING, trialing, DULL, tasteless reality with no flavor like the mush they ate in the Matrix once they "woke up"
or
COLORFUL, DELICIOUS, INTRICATE, UNLIMITED reality and consciousness through inner space:
the wannabe philosophers and psychologists (sudo I'm looking at you) will probably come up with reasons to prefer the former but you fail to realize BOTH exist within the same hallucination, the same virtual plane.
At the end of the day (that's an expression) there is no ulterior motive or meaning to reality, so make of it what you will.