2021-08-27 at 2:05 AM UTC
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Fona 8-26-2021
Tonight is probably the last night Michelle and I live together.
She said that tomorrow she was thinking about just staying at her new place.
I have no idea what kind of routine or patterns I will soon find myself in.
The other day I tried to think of the last time I lived alone and I realized that I never have.
Hopefully we both find ourselves fully capable to handling things on our own and we both find success.
Tonight is my Friday and the thought on just handling the weekend on my own gives me anxiety.
I have been practicing going to the store and buying my own groceries.
Turns out I made up most of the grocery bill after all.
With Michelle's stuff gone from the apartment it feels big and empty.
There was no reason I needed to keep a 2 bedroom other than the fact I couldn't find anywhere to live except where I was already staying.
The last couple weeks at work have been pretty good but I have a fear that my hours will dwindle or that something will come up that puts me in a bind.
I do feel like I am in the best spot to possibly pull this off compared to anytime previously in my life.
Michelle and I were together just over 2 1/2 years.
A lot has changed since then and for the good too.
I feel as though we both grew a lot as people and did share a lot of happy times.
It is sad that it is coming to an end but I do believe it is for the best.
I wish her a wonderful future.
I'm very thankful to how far we came and for all the good things that we helped each other through.
Now it will be time to part ways and experience new things.
My goal is to stay positive and upbeat while I continue to clean up my past and build a brighter future.
There will be tough times but I believe I will overcome them as I have so much else.
One thing is apparent and that is there is no amount of preparation to completely feel totally at ease with such a life changing event.
I know she too is feeling a lot of anxiety over the whole situation too.
Today I collapsed from exhaustion and almost burnt down the apartment cooking a pizza for 7 hours.
Tonight I go to work and end my week only to begin a new day.
If I find myself falling thousands of feet I will be trying die.
I fell 23 feet in the dark and landed flat only breaking my hip and shoulder blade.
My guess is 60 feet just to be safe.
I feel like anything less and you might not die right away and end up suffering.
Now, if you were to fall on a bomb I suppose only a few inches.
2021-08-24 at 11:17 PM UTC
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Fona 8-24-2021
BOB EVANS MICROWAVABLE MASHED POTATOES.
but they didn't have the loaded ones....
2021-08-24 at 11:09 PM UTC
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Fona 8-24-2021
Today wasn't too bad but nothing special.
Nice long nap really got me feeling rested.
So rested that I ran to the store.
I started my Walmart trip looking for some finger nail clippers but there was this black guy in the isle so I just stood there acting like I was looking at deodorant and he immidiatly asked "Are you waiting on me to move?"
I was taken off guard and proclaimed "No, Im just buying deodorant"
So I got my deodorant I didn't need and started to scurry away when he asked this broad who was behind me.
Later in the grocery isle I miraculously found my chicken wings that have been mysteriously absent for the last 6+ weeks.
Then I looked at the price and my heart sank as I saw they went from $10 to $12.
Then in the checkout line they rang up $15 dollars.
I was confused and upset but I paid in anyways because I just wanted to go home.
Once home I went to make chicken wings and I started counting how many there even were and Im pretty sure I paid damn near $1 per uncooked chicken wing.
I feel so ripped off now.
My cell phone got no service at work last night and still didn't earlier today when I was out and about.
Im hoping it has something to do with resetting it without having any signal or wifi.
Im trying to reset it now at home and hopefully it will connect to my carrier.
Cooking my chicken wings now. Got to decide on what to have with them.
2021-08-24 at 8:59 PM UTC
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Fona's Apartment Search
My currently Landlady sent me a text asking me to bring back my lease renewal form.
Looks like my time to find a new place and save money has slipped through my fingers.
Now I am stranded here and since Michelle emptied the place out it is much bigger and more open.
Everything seems extra loud in here now.
2021-08-24 at 8:54 PM UTC
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I just had a good sleep.
sipping on coffee.
Going to go to the store and probably to Chipotle too.
2021-08-24 at 8:45 PM UTC
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I just had a good sleep.
Im talkin almost a fully 8 hours.
Only woke up 1 time to go pee.
Looking fresh as a daisy now.
2021-08-24 at 12:35 AM UTC
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I got the couch moved today :)
Im running off 3 hours of sleep and a little coffee.
Gotta work late tonight too.
Won't be back home for a dozen more hours.
2021-08-24 at 12:33 AM UTC
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I got the couch moved today :)
Chell has 1 load of stuff left to move.
Feels a lot bigger with that couch gone.
Anyways, I gotta get up off this floor and head to work.
WINNING!
I did way too many drugs but thankfully made it out happy an stupid.
Annoyed all day.
Tired all day
Tired of being annoyed all day.
Tired of being tired all day.
Starting to think the saying "put your nose to the grindstone" might mean to literally put your nose against a grindstone and get to go home from work early for losing your nose.
I work a job where even on the best of days when everyone is working their hardest, you can't tell a difference from when you started.
Everything looks exactly the same day after day after day.
It makes for some long hours where just about any little thing can enrage you for countless hours as there just isn't anything else to focus on or think about.
I have had a whole lot going on lately and it feels overwhelming.
Anyways, think I'll get back to you guys when I have more to show than just fridge magnet bullshit!
You should 3D print a bunch of 2D stuff just for the lolz.
Everything is okay guys.
I just got a boat anchor the other day and it is tied to my hitch so slowing down isn't so bad anymore.
