2021-09-06 at 10:04 PM UTC
in
Fona 9-6-2021
Just got out of bed.
I've spent most of the last 18 hours in bed.
The entire weekend was horrible.
Fuck Labor Day.
I want to call off work.
My stomach hurts because I haven't ate anything in almost a day.
I feel exhausted from lack of energy and I have to work 10's all week.
There is a chance I will just be fired for mouthing off to the general manager last week and I wouldn't be surprised.
Right now I feel like a failure and it sucks.
Nothing I have worked for in the last few months has panned out due to faults of my own.
Everything feels super fucked in my life and there is no putting any pieces together.
It's not going to matter what I do at this point.
I don't think much is going to happen except things will continue to go down hill because I have no plan to get any of my life right.
I don't even know where to begin.
Everything is so new and I hate it.
2021-09-06 at 11:28 AM UTC
in
Fona 9-6-2021
My stomach hurts and my back hurts.
Laying in bed is all I feel up to doing.
This whole weekend has sucked ass.
2021-09-06 at 2:01 AM UTC
in
Fona 9-5-2021
Cleaned up my apartment a little bit more.
I'm happy with any amount of progress right now.
It is 10 at night and there is nothing for me outside so Im just going to play PUBG mobile with Luigi until I can't anymore.
Fucking biscuits.
2021-09-06 at 1:54 AM UTC
in
Fona 9-5-2021
A slutty hot dog and some onions.
You think that is impressive?
For real looks better than anything I have ate the last few days.
2021-09-06 at 1:35 AM UTC
in
Fona 9-5-2021
Boredom is harassing my soul.
I understand why bachelors like Komo end up doing crazy projects like light up cubes that take 2,000 hours to make.
Probably why Luigi lives in a van and can't ever stay in one spot.
Might also be why Red always talks about driving his motorcycle really fast without a helmet.
2021-09-06 at 12:38 AM UTC
in
Fona 9-5-2021
Bonus post: I chose to eat pizza tonight because there was an entire one laying our in the parking lot when I went out earlier and it looked good.
I made a different pizza though, I'm not eating the one from the parking lot.
2021-09-06 at 12:36 AM UTC
in
Fona 9-5-2021
I'm paying $853 a month for cushy solitary confinement.
Long gone are the days of me running all day and night constantly partying with people I don't know.
I've settled down into this introverted pussy lifestyle where my hands are always at 10 and 2.
Time to eat pizza and clean up my nice shitty apartment.
2021-09-06 at 12:12 AM UTC
in
Fona 9-5-2021
Im about to settle into a long night of being away and by myself.
Trying to keep me occupied and busy enough that I don't feel like a lazy ass.
2021-09-06 at 12:09 AM UTC
in
I bought a microwave.
Update:
this microwave works well but some of it really sucks.
If I use the kitchen timer it goes back to showing the clock until I press the kitchen timer button again.
I can't just look over and see how much longer, instead I have to go hit the damn button to check.
Also, the feet of it do not grip my countertop very well and I keep pulling it out from the wall when I open the door.
Other than that everything seems good about it.
Oh except for doing "Timed Defrost" during which it stops halfway through whatever amount of time you set it for until you go and flip over your food and press start again.
Im use to just setting stuff to defrost for so long and flipping it after whatever time I set it for.
My guts hurt from all the processed food anyways.
2021-09-06 at 12:01 AM UTC
in
Fona 9-5-2021
Today sort of sucked too.
I ended up at home for pretty much all of it.
Fell asleep looking at my phone waiting on someone to call who never did.
It feels like I should be out doing something but having isolated in my house for so long of course no one is going to call me because I don't do anything.
Im going to try and get ahold of one of my friends and see if they want to play some games tonight Lan Party style.
I rode up to Goodwill to see if I could find any treasures to post about but they were closed and the longer I was out the more cops I kept running into.
My trip turned into music therapy and driving around which was okay.
I really don't need to be out shopping for dumb shit anyways.
Fixing a pizza now and doing my best not to burn it to a crisp.
This shit is lame as fuck really and not how I want to be living my life.
2021-09-05 at 2:58 PM UTC
in
Fona 9-5-2021
Downloaded the iso for Windows 10.
My burgers are about thawed.
2021-09-05 at 2:30 PM UTC
in
Fona 9-5-2021
Might go get a laptop hard drive and install Windows on it.
About to fix some lunch.
Today isn't looking like much so far.
2021-09-05 at 12:17 PM UTC
in
Fona 9-5-2021
I got my groceries and made good time.
Such good time in fact that nothing else is open to go do yet.
There is plenty at home I can do but I am feeling pretty depressed about how terrible I executed yesterday.
It would be very easy for me to just fuck off the rest of today and accomplish little/nothing more.
A long weekend alone is not what I had hoped for.
My options are dwindling and my hopes are fading.
The only possibilities left running through my mind are shopping for shit I don't need or going and working on stuff I don't want to work on.
What I really want to be doing I can't until I get ahold of someone and right now that isn't looking likely..
I have no idea what I will be posting about come the end of the day but I really do hope it is positive.
2021-09-05 at 9:34 AM UTC
in
Fona 9-5-2021
up at the crack of dawn about to make something out of today.
The grocery opens in an hour or 2 and I am going to go get that out of the way.
Then if I can't find anything better to do I'll clean my apartment up.
Hopefully I can find something better to do today.
2021-09-05 at 6:04 AM UTC
in
Im struggling to have a life.
My hours are fucked.
I have no routine lately.
Everything always relies on me staying up long enough to get stuff done or waking up early enough to.
And on the weekends I can either completely flip from night person to day person but in order to flip back again for the work week I'm left with about 1 full day and some change to get stuff done.
I enjoy staying up late but the only thing there is to do is play video games and watch Youtube.
Being alive during the day is really nice because that is when stuff is open and things are going on.
My house is a wreck and if I wasn't sitting in a corner desk with my back to it I would be annoyed.
Over the course of the last few months my life has gone way off track of how I had for seen it to go.
It isn't that it is going a wrong way but I'm struggling to adjust to an entire new lifestyle.
The question is not "what do I want to do?", it is "how do I do it?" and the only method I know of to reliably function is to get on a good routine.
Lately I find myself running on my own free-will and perhaps that isn't working.
In order to improve my life I am setting out to focus on being more of an adult by responsibly adjusting my life to fit more of an appropriate schedule so that I am able to get all the things done that I wish to.
I think i will go to bed and try to wake up early enough to satisfy my urge to feel a fulfilled day.
2021-09-03 at 2:42 PM UTC
in
only retards remain
Do you want to play Runescape 3?
