This guy from rehab I haven't seen in 3 and a half years keeps bugging me to take him to the library to learn excel.
Im about to cave and go get him but Im not taking him to the fucking library.
All I want to do is take a boat to the Antarctic and get stuck in sea ice for 37 months.
Forced to eat penguins and be perpetually uncomfortable and destitute.
Apparently that's why I'm here anyways.
I went to Autozone and bought transmission fluid and an over priced funnel.
Transmission fluid for the car and the funnel for myself.
Does anyone want to party?
This day is probably ruined AF but Im going to put my shoes on anyways and go outside for a bit.
I just don't want to be here right now.
Everything in my life keeps dying.
I have no support anymore.
My life is a hell I share by myself.
I just do what I can and keep going.
Just woke up and all I want to do is go to bed.
I don't want anything.
2021-10-15 at 2:55 PM UTC
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Fona 10-15-2021
Passed out before the drug testing lab opened and ended up having to wait but it wasn't long.
I felt fucking stupid because the lady didn't want to watch me piss and I thought she did so leaving the door open was dumb.
Then I went and saw my dog that is still alive and she is was happy to see me.
Now I'm back home and going to take a shower and try to fix the clogged up drain while I'm at it.
Then I got to fix some lunch.
Already fucking dislike this weekend.
2021-10-15 at 2:14 AM UTC
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Fona 10-15-2021
Made it to Friday.
Lost a lot of hours this week and my next check will be garbage but it's going to all be okay.
If I work a full 8 hours tonight I'll be surprised.
I'm just hoping enough people are there that I don't get stuck doing dumb shit all night.
Feeling groggy from melatonin.
Wish I could sleep for 8 hours straight and not any more of this broken sleep crap.
I should just get use to it.
2021-10-14 at 5:17 PM UTC
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Fona 10-14-2021
Got groceries to last me a couple days.
Sitting back at home.
2021-10-14 at 3:41 PM UTC
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Fona 10-14-2021
I called it.
Slept like crap already and it's not even noon.
Going to go out and try to get some groceries before the weekend.
Everything costs so much now that even my crappy diet costs the same as groceries for 2 did a year ago.
2021-10-14 at 10:37 AM UTC
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Fona 10-14-2021
Also, some operations manager is coming in tonight and I won't be surprised one bit if they fire/lay people off.
Kind of freaking out about that.
2021-10-14 at 10:36 AM UTC
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Fona 10-14-2021
My goal for right now is to get cleaned up and eat something because I am dirty and starving.
I'll probably take a nap and head out early afternoon to get groceries.
If I remember to stop and get some engine oil and transmission fluid I and if I still have time I will go take that piss test.
Something tells me that Ill get off work tomorrow hours before they open.
I doubt I would achieve a solid 8 hours of sleep even if I tried today so I'm just not going to but I am going to try and make the most out of this shitty sleep schedule I do have.
2021-10-14 at 2:10 AM UTC
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Fona 10-14-2021
Good morning.
Slept like crap today.
I took a melatonin this afternoon trying to get more sleep but it didn't do anything except make it hard to get out of bed.
Work was so slow yesterday we left early and tonight might be the same deal.
People keep calling off with Covid so I have no idea what tonight will look like until I'm there.
After work tonight I have got to go to the grocery as I am pretty much completely out of food.
Right now I'm still too tired to think so...
I have called the cops a few times.
Like when that Pimp overstayed his welcome and I got that sweet chain and those basketball shorts.
Also called them on my last landlord.
And I called them drunk once and told them there were a bunch of gang members outside but it was just regular black folk waiting on the bus.
Some kids show I think...
I'm not about to start wasting my life starring at a fucking screen.
