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2017-07-24 at 2:40 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSfuck guys i dont want to be a parent right now, i wanna be 18 again.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-24 at 2:36 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSMy youngest just took a shit on the kitchen floor. Nothing in life has prepared me for thisThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-23 at 3:23 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSI love drugs or beer in the morning on the weekend
I hate being forced to live in the den of my moms house and have her scream at me about mundane shit every hour
I need mxe so I can just fucking leave. Too bad it's gone, blahThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-23 at 9:41 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS"It is good to be a cynic—it is better to be a contented cat — and it is best not to exist at all. Universal suicide is the most logical thing in the world—we reject it only because of our primitive cowardice and childish fear of the dark. If we were sensible we would seek death—the same blissful blank which we enjoyed before we existed."
Lovecraft was severely depressed for most of his life. Suicide is a wonderful thing. No matter how bad things become, at least you can always return to the eternal peace and safety of non-existence.
Ultimately I think universal suicide may essentially be how the end of life occurs.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-23 at 7:51 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Piles of Crack I feel like smashing my fucking head in with a brick
I often feel like I want to drive a power drill straight into my brain and let all the pain and disease out.
I've mentioned the concept of thanatos before and how it relates to my life, why my actions have been so consistently self-destructive for so long. I think I may have a perpetual urge to die, to return to non-existence, that never fully goes away, even during manic moods and happy moments.
I think I'm the kind of person that could commit suicide even at their happiest moment, having been genuinely happy for years, over a decade.
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2017-07-22 at 10:52 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-22 at 8:26 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by cerakote no she makes me want to go outside and pet my cats and do coloring books and shit
Hey, that's exactly the kind of thing I normally want to do and I've literally never seen a girl who had that effect on me. I swear I had this exact same fantasy recently.
I have referred to myself as a vision of divine purity many times in the past, in my mind, mostly. I don't recall what other related phrases I used when having those thoughts.
Fuck being a "man". For all the deluded religious freaks out there, I do believe that Jesus said something along the lines of "To enter the kingdom of heaven you must become as this child." Wait, that's totally inaccurate, the vast majority of children are fucking dicks and terrible in their own special way. They're still human after all, simply romanticized due to biological instinct.
I am the ideal child of Christ. Note that Jesus was also a virgin.
Well, as to those masturbation sessions, I genuinely didn't really want to, I just felt I should attempt it just to see if it revealed any problems caused from not ejaculating in so long, to prevent any potential health problems. Looks like it isn't even a risk for me, probably, and if it was becoming one I would probably feel it.
Give me a house full of tendies and kitties, motherfuckers, I don't want your women. They are inherently evil and the most destructive force in modern civilization.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-22 at 6:09 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSI don't care about sinking to this level of autism, I want a weighted blanket. Who doesn't like warm, snug, fluffy soft comforting blankets? The weighted aspect has pretty sound benefits. I didn't choose to be born with a fucked up brain that goes haywire so easily.
God, I wasn't nearly this bad in the past. That severe mental breakdown and the ensuing 3 years really fucked me up and did some damage.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-22 at 5:14 AM UTC in woman shocked after being asked to leave mall over outfitThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-22 at 3:40 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Captain Falcon Didn't read
You do realize that not everything posted here is meant for you to read, do you? People post things aimed specifically at individuals or those who have an interest in the topic, or what you generally write.
What a fucking dumbass. At least you admit you aren't particularly intelligent, which you repeatedly display and isn't difficult at all to ascertain. Then you also repeatedly make the assumption that simply by making posts of a certain length, on certain matters, is nothing more than an attempt to portray an unwarranted sense of intelligence. Oh, what other reason could there be than to impress strangers on a message board who have no significant impact on your life.
You're like the retarded kid in a middle school class who has the most punchable face around, perpetually wearing a smirk and thinking he's clever when he makes idiotic comments ad nauseum, constantly presuming the motives of others based on what his own stunted mentality, putting down everyone because in your childish worldview everything revolves around how others perceive you.
"Hey, guys, I'm actually rich and retired at a young age, I own all these companies and have business connections, I travel and have done so many cool things in my life, I just bought the Land Rover I always wanted to add to my collection!"
"And despite all this you spend your time on niggasin.space shitposting embarrassingly lame memes and attempting to rile others up by repeating the same phrases over and over again because annoying others pleases your childish sense of humor?"
"Pfft, LOLOLOL, I was trolling you! Look at this guy taking it so seriously and getting angry!"
Falco, if you're ever in the bay area I am 100% serious about meeting up with you and beating the shit out of you. You can treat it as a joke and laugh off the possibility, simply agree to it so you can record the event or go there for your own amusement, to have a story to tell of meeting me IRL. I can see you attempting to go up to me amicably, with a smile on your face and reaching your hand out, never expecting that I would actually be serious, and that even if I was somewhat angry I would be readily disarmed, but I would simply tell you this: "We agreed to the terms and that there would be no backing out of this. I'm giving you 10 seconds to prepare and throw the first strike during that period or I'm beginning without your consent." Then you and anyone that tries to get in my way is getting knocked the fuck out.
If you're afraid of fighting me of all people, unarmed/barehanded, nothing else needs to be said. You are absolutely worthless and pathetic.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-21 at 2:54 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSI didn't even want nudes. I don't care about women (or men, of course). I simply provided them out of a sense of courtesy.
Requesting nudes from a lady is far too distasteful.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-20 at 10:30 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSOh, cool, Little Guy (girl) is willing to eat indoors as long as I'm far enough away from her. Uh oh, the wind could definitely close the screen door I had open a bit. Not closed shut, but I'm worried she'll freak out. I guess I'll just try pushing it open with a broom, but considering how it affected her when the wind blew over the food bowl and slammed the screen door against the wall a while ago it would take her a while to get to this level of trust again, which I really don't want.
It is really nice to see progress in cats like her, strays/ferals, and the wind possibly blowing over the bowls won't be an issue (I really should just attach something heavy to the bottom or rig something to place them.).
Alright, and she's out safe after looking around a bit and finally pushing it open enough. It was just barely closed to much for her to feel she could slip through it. I'll make sure to prop it open next time.
Definitely like her eating and drinking inside. Will make her more at ease indoors and around people, less likelihood of her getting spooked or the neighbor's kids or dogs coming by. I hate being seen, or even the possibility of it. Still anthropophobic and agoraphobic to an extent.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-20 at 9:32 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSI did it...I FINALLY DID IT!!! After at least 20 days, up to a month, without even coming from a wet dream, with severe erectile dysfunction and complete inorgasmia I came! I ACTUALLY CAME!
It took 3 hours of off and on attempts, deciding to give up multiple times because it felt it clearly wasn't going to happen, then changing my mind, but I finally did it. The details don't matter.
Christ I made a mess. That was a huge fucking load. I began coming too fast and couldn't aim into a receptacle in time, shot all over the bed sheet.
Still feel jittery.
Well, I won't be doing that again. Not worth it. Sex acts (haven't tried actual sex) are incredibly boring/uninteresting and stupid. There are far better things in life. I wouldn't have minded never coming again, but felt I should drain myself just to be safe. It was not worth it, by far, a chasmic distance.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-20 at 9:28 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-19 at 6:43 AM UTC in Which poster do you hate the most?
Originally posted by cerakote malice when he's tardposting (most of the time)
Oh, you're just butt hurt because I tore you a new one, which was well deserved.
It's flattering, really, that it had such an impact on you and you're still upset over a few posts on a small message board. What a petty boy you are, it's endearing, in a way. Like a senpai bullying and dominating his kohai in good natured jest.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-19 at 6:06 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSGee, maybe I should eventually publish an amateur paper on my "Autism as a Self Perpetuating Traumatic Cycle" theory. It's so oddly synergistic it may lead to a root cause, something analogous to a "big bang" event. There's also "The Scientific Asperger's Mind" paper I have in mind, the cognitive impact of the above would clearly be incorporated.
Purely through amateur interest, one of a multitude, I already clearly surpass Discount Whore in knowledge, understanding, and skill/aptitude for application. This is despite him having formal education and training, actually working in the field, of biology.
Although, we all know biologists do tend to be rather low on the scientific ranking, now don't we?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-19 at 5:59 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSI uncovered the benefit of the amygdala abnormality in ASD, which I initially overlooked. At first the thought came to me after observing the lightning fast reflexes I repeatedly demonstrated when checking Ash's fur, when she seemed irritated and would turn to give me a warning nibble. I knew this was due to perpetually being in a mild form of the fight-or-flight state, particularly during events perceived as having potential danger, even something as relatively insignificant as this (Perception is key, of course.)
The reason I didn't note this is because it seemed to have no practical use. It does align with some evolutionary theories of the origins of autism, though. In our modern society this simply doesn't have much use or benefit, unless you live in a particularly dangerous area (Just leave, if possible. Don't enter into a lifestyle where you aren't able to. Unless you're doing a report or writing a book, something of that nature.), are a police officer, or in the military, related occupations. In those it could be highly beneficial for certain roles, but I would very strongly advise against them due to the strong predisposition for PTSD, which I forgot to mention and is related to what I wrote here: https://niggasin.space/post/221304
They're simply terrible roles for aspies, for a variety of reasons. Among the worse.
Now, MMA is a very interesting possibility, although if you have the concomitant low muscle tone concomittant with this subtype of aspergers you likely won't do well past a certain point. I wouldn't count on it becoming a profession, ever making it to the professional level. That and it doesn't have much lasting value for society.
I also had the thought that a simple variation of reaction time tests should be studied. Instead of the standard test where there's a response to stimuli requiring extension it should be contraction. For example, a loud noise requires you to release your grip and the time it takes is recorded accurately. If this hasn't already been done, a remarkable median difference would likely be found.
Now, as to the benefit, it's simply that being in a constantly primed state, a mild state of hyperarousal (Another term for fight-or-flight, also called the acute stress response), has cognitive benefits. Your mind is constantly active, awake, in "go" mode. There are well extablished benefits to performance of being mildly anxious.
Now, of course there are powerful detrimental aspects, other than the various life impacts stemming from anxiety, fear, and apprehension. The social impact, even impact on life decisions (risk aversion). Primarily I refer to the fact that this persistent state is unnatural, the human body was not designed, did not evolve, to endure it. Long term chronic stress has well established negative effects, on the body, mind/mental state/well being, and brain. Very likely a principle reason for the disparity in life expectancy, along with negative health events and conditions, particularly in late age, relative to the median life expectancy. I would recommend that regular breaks be taken. Currently Nardil is my standard recommended baseline medication for aspies, at least the ones that suffer from depression and anxiety. Other than that, due to them being the foremost treatment available, despite the disadvantages, I would simply recommend utilizing benzodiazepines for regular breaks. Once every month for 5 consecutive days, a week, or so, would likely be fine. T-PAIN as well due to preventing many of the key neurological alterations induced by long term chronic stress.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-19 at 4:49 AM UTC in Which poster do you hate the most?We should do a favorite person currently posting thread. This incredible negativity circlejerk (that I wholeheartedly endorse) is just going to age you. I actually like most of you guys. Sure many of you are just incomprehensible gibbering mongoloids, but that's kind of the appeal of this place.
But I also wish that 85% of the threads didn't just degenerate into a dick waving contest
To that point you probably know my least favorite already.
Otherwise most of you are pretty alright niggasThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-19 at 4:34 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSThis was surprisingly good.
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2017-07-19 at 4:33 AM UTC in Which poster do you hate the most?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
