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[keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]
Ok, I tend to take these extended breaks from NiS, but when I've got a few drinks in me, I might briefly lurk-browse the first page SG and maybe HB and B&M...
I wasn't planning on signing in and posting tonight, but this thread kinda put me in a situation where I can't refuse.
Hey, Item 9 / Actor, the kind of stuff you're talking about I know ALL. TOO. WELL.
A lot of people bring up suicide here and there, but I know the REAL signs when I see them. I've had to consider the EXACT SAME conundrum before. I remember literally thinking of leaving a "confession" where I fess up to all kinds of reprehensible shit, as though it would make what I was about to do that much more acceptable.
I am not one of those people that believes that people should feel guilty about having suicidal tendencies, or that they should be completely prevented from doing it, completely guilt-free, if they have tried EVERYTHING else, and are in a situation that is simply irresolvable.
I've seen you make threads that hint at (if not outright mention) suicide before.
The fact that you have had more than one, and that you posted this exact OP here, leads me to believe that you're well past the curious phase, and into the planning phase.
I'm not going to tell you that there are any easy answers, or give you any tired, cliche'd platitudes.
What I will tell you is that there is one thing worth living another day for - and no, I'm not going to say "zOMG think of your loved ones" or some guilt-tripping crap like that - I mean you, in virtually all likelihood, have something out there that you haven't thought of yet, or haven't tried, or haven't carried out with the right execution, that can take you from where you are now, to where you need to be.
And if nothing else, just know that you're not alone in having such thoughts. I have for many years, and still occasionally do.
I've taken a proactive approach to life though, where I take it as my irrevocable human right/responsibility to try new solutions before I throw in the towel.
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If you don't have an anxiety disorder benzos won't appeal to you. For those of us with anxiety it's like an overwhelming feeling of freedom. A vacation from the hell of our mind. Same with alcohol.
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