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2017-07-13 at 3:13 PM UTC in Besides benzos, how can I cure anxiety?
Originally posted by aldra immersion therapy
put yourself in situations where you have to socialise; I would suspect the anxiety mostly comes from uncertainty, so it won't be such a problem when you know what to expect from social situations.
take a class at community college, learn a trade or something. kill a whole flock of birds with one stone
This is generally awful advice. While exposure therapy does work to a degree, for someone with serious anxiety and mental health/neurological disorders, it will not work at all; this type of person will end up in negative feedback loops from exposure to society, either generally due to negative reaction from society (due to person's aura), or negative reaction to society from person (due to person's distorted worldview).
Step 1 for this particular person is medication. If medication alleviates symptoms, then exposure therapy is the next step.
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2017-07-11 at 3:30 PM UTC in Speaking of reddit posts, I also want to share a post from reddit
Originally posted by Sophie I can has summary?
I found a post from him on Reddit a year and a half ago. I related to some things and asked him about nootropics, he recommended Nardil and some other noots. A year later after a really bad lethargic period, and severe passive suicidal thoughts, I was inspired to read Malice's story on r/psychonaut (https://www.reddit.com/r/Psychonaut/comments/3u9gak/lsd_for_introspection_on_severe_depression_and/?utm_content=comments&utm_medium=user&utm_source=reddit&utm_name=frontpage) and it hit home for me, mainly because we've both been at least generally socially isolated for over a decade. Even though he was far more isolated, I started feeling that there was a possibility my life could be more pathetic, mainly in the long-term, for specific reasons - one of which, he seemed to have a far higher IQ. I really started basing my self esteem on intelligence. Because I found Malice's story interesting, I started going through his posts on Reddit. I ended up finding his Zoklet username, and out of curiosity, I googled it and found his posts on here. I was motivated to create an account because I had some questions for him and other similar members. I saw some posts from Malice on IQ/psychometrics, which prompted me to ask him a question on the subject, which he didn't respond to. That prompted me to ask him on Reddit. He took a fairly long time to respond, which prompted me to ask subreddits I thought would be able to provide a similar perspective.
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2017-07-10 at 3:27 PM UTC in Speaking of reddit posts, I also want to share a post from reddit
Originally posted by Sophie Hey by the way, how'd you end up on our website Twistquest?
I explained why in this post: https://niggasin.space/thread/12585?p=184#post-214098 -
2017-07-10 at 2:59 PM UTC in Speaking of reddit posts, I also want to share a post from reddit
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2017-07-10 at 2:51 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Captain Falcon twistquest should avoid Malice because Twistquest himself is convinced of himself being a genius, and Malice's delusions of intelligence are rubbing off on him.
Actually, I'm not convinced I'm a genius at all, far from it in fact; I feel like it's quite unlikely at this point. I just had questions about IQ testing and psychometrics for him since he actually seemed to be one of the most knowledgeable people I've seen on the internet regarding this subject, and I figured he wouldn't sugarcoat anything about it. On those Reddit threads, one thing you see in some responses is a variation of "IQ tests are meaningless, they only test how good you are at taking tests. >Insert Stephen Hawking quote about IQ here<" which is utterly missing the point, especially regarding my concern; why I was concerned about it. So many people seem to underestimate the importance of IQ tests and what their purpose is, something I see people with high IQs do as well. I knew Malice wouldn't sugarcoat anything, and he'd be able to provide a more realistic point of view. So I talked with him about my concerns regarding the issue on Reddit, and he was (generally) able to give me a quality perspective.
I don't know why you're taking our interactions so seriously.
Matter of fact, Malice - I actually did have another question about IQ/psychometrics. I'll get back to you later because I'm quite busy right now. Btw, long ass reply, haven't read the whole thing yet.
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2017-07-10 at 12:46 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSDoes sploo have a legit diagnosis of Asperger's/HFA? I'm just curious. I can't be arsed to search the forum for it; if he's legitimately autistic.
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2017-07-10 at 11:52 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
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2017-07-10 at 11:47 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by sploo I thought about it and…
– Wow -_
…You were right - _ - _
Okay?
Why do you have to be such a dick? I hate to be so judgmental, but you have this really patronizing attitude; like because you have a certain degree of intelligence, everyone else who's below that scoring range is pathetic and should be left for dead. You realize that attitude will hurt your ability to succeed, right? At least make it far more subtle. You have to understand why certain intelligent people on here think your IQ score is invalid. -
2017-07-10 at 11:40 AM UTC in Speaking of reddit posts, I also want to share a post from reddit
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2017-07-10 at 11:38 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Kolokol-1 If you're not going to read a post, please just ignore it instead of making a big deal about how you didn't read it? Thanks.
Yeah, I gotta agree with this. It's essentially just a shitpost, a total waste of space. Also pretty self-centered too in a way, if you think about it. -
2017-07-10 at 10:15 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Malice Let me give you a tip: If you wanted to hide this from me you should have used a far better strategy. Simply making the post blank is too suspicious and easy to notice. I would have written a false response to the post you quoted making it seem like you had stated or asked something else, something plausible and fitting, that had nothing to do with requesting them.
I absolutely realized this, and I can't remember if I considered editing the post or not, but I essentially didn't really care about it because of other shit in my mind, and just felt like leaving it blank. The reason why I edited it was because I revealed myself in this thread (https://niggasin.space/thread/14290) and I figured you'd see it, be motivated to look through my posts, and I thought you would stop taking me seriously since I asked someone for that psych report. I just didn't think you'd find it that interesting; I thought at the most you'd certainly wonder about it, but I didn't think you'd be motivated to consult me about it. I found your posts on here about the psych report before I found the post on totseans.
About the other shit (catfucker, micropenis), I found your posts revealing those were trolls before I found them, as well. I didn't really give a shit about it, honestly. Though your stories about it were mildly funny.
The only thing I thought was true were your posts about mass murder and such (though I just chalked it up to occasional homicidal thoughts, I didn't think you were seriously considering or planning on killing a bunch of people), I could have believed that because of your viewpoints about humanity. But for some reason, I didn't really give a shit about that, either.
Come to think of it: reading your posts, I've sometimes wondered if you're trolling/not being serious about certain things regarding biology and politics.
Originally posted by Malice How did you find place? Did you find this site first and then my one of my extensive posts on Reddit or the inverse?
Okay, so I found your post "Towards a Neurology of Loneliness" on r/nootropics precisely a year and a half ago. I found it interesting, and I also found some posts from you explaining how socially isolated you were, which hit home to an extent. I was inspired to message you with my main Reddit account (supercrepe was an alt) for some advice on noots and such. You responded back a few times, I took your advice regarding Nardil (still can't believe I was prescribed right off the bat first try. I wasn't even lying to her about anything, I was straight up. Man, I'm incredibly fucked up.) which certainly generally helped.
Two months later, I ended up reading your post about your story regarding social isolation. This one: https://www.reddit.com/r/Psychonaut/comments/3u9gak/lsd_for_introspection_on_severe_depression_and/
While I felt like I wasn't as bad, overall the post hit home - especially regarding social isolation and the like; while I wasn't as exclusively isolated as you, generally speaking, it was something that was definitely present in my life. Didn't have a genuine friendship with someone since age 12, inconsistent communication with school acquaintances, etc. I found it really interesting that you'd drive yourself to social isolation based on your viewpoints on humanity at such a young age, though. So I found your story and worldview quite interesting. I'd check up on your Reddit profile and see what you were posting on there every once in a while.
Months later, sometime early this year, I started becoming even more suicidal and lethargic. I went through a period where my self-esteem started getting really bad, was becoming even more hopeless about my life and my endeavors, didn't think LSD/psychedelics would help me and such. I was motivated to read your post again, in a way it resonated with me even more, and I started to wonder if my social isolation, my life, was just as bad, if not worse, than yours. I ended up referencing your story in emails that I sent to my online friend in CA to further explain my situation to him, why I was suicidal, etc. I started checking your posts on Reddit more, ended up reading every single comment/submission. Then, I saw a comment you posted that was seemingly referencing TOTSE/Zoklet culture. You revealed your username. So I googled "malice zoklet" and found your profile and posts here. I noticed you were posting a lot about your recent bout with suicidal depression and Nardil, and the like, so I ended up deciding to read every single post you made on here, just out of curiosity, for the fuck of it; because obviously I have nothing better to do as a general shut-in/hiki. I think I've read every single post. I know that sounds utterly ridiculous but for some reason I'm fascinated with you and your life, overall.
Why am I fascinated? Well, I can relate to your social isolation, to a degree. I also find it interesting that you decided to shut yourself off at a young age, and how Asperger's tendencies influenced that. As a person with Asperger's myself, that's interesting to me. Your knowledge of drugs/substances is also of interest, speaking as someone who is developing an interest in drugs. Matter of fact, I find your knowledge base overall and how you utilize your intelligence to be very interesting; in a way, you're like a jack of all trades, but master of some - due to your Asperger's fixation on certain things. That's actually something I admire, something I want to become. I probably disagree with some things you write here and there, but with other things, mainly regarding mental health and the like, I think you really get it. That's why I find your posts interesting to read overall.
What I find interesting though, is the way you clarified those things about TOTSE and Zoklet to me, and how you wanted to reassure me that you're not that fucked up; that you're not a potential mass murderer, and the like. Don't get me wrong, I believe you - to an extent at least. I find it interesting because it sounds like you're concerned about what I think of you. You have to understand: pragmatically speaking, I'm just as fucked up as you, or at least close. I wouldn't judge you about something like that. And yeah, some things you post about (if you're not trolling) are perspectives I find pretty fucked up (even though I haven't done my research, and I think there's always a possibility you may be right), but you have to understand, I do have sympathy for you; I can understand why you'd come to certain conclusions about humanity. So it's not something I would condemn you for.
I joined NIS two months ago because I figured I'd have some questions for you regarding certain things, and even about other things as well (like, I found the whole scuffle between you and Bill Krozby interesting; I was kind of staggered that Bill Krozby seemed to think his presence on this forum had any value, so I wanted to consult him about that). I probably won't be a regular poster, because I really don't have anything of intellectual value or anything interesting to talk about due to me being uneducated/crippled by athletic abilities and concentration issues, so I'd essentially just be another shitposter. Guess I'll keep lurking, overall - sorry if that bothers anyone.
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2017-07-10 at 9:20 AM UTC in Speaking of reddit posts, I also want to share a post from reddit
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2017-07-08 at 5:48 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Malice Anyway, I helped a suicidal person with aspergers who contacted me on reddit. He read one of the really long threads or posts and related to me, thought I was the one that could give him the advice I needed. Sent me multiple very long posts about his life starting from an early age, what fucked he felt fucked him up, his thoughts, critical information, questions, tons of stuff. A multitude of serious issues.
Anyway, I got around to writing some extensive posts with just the information he needed, by expert autismal analyze, and he told me it was exactly what he expected/wanted from me.
I think I properly addresses every concern he had, made some recommendations as to what path in life he should take, used my wide knowledge base about specific/uncommon subjects, my aspie hypermemory (actual term, it really is related to asperger's) power to recall everything I had learned about these subjects and was relevant, even did some research and linked him to the studies etc.
Maybe years from now he'll look back and see this as a turning point in his life.
Thanks again man, I appreciate it. -
2017-07-07 at 1:51 PM UTC in Speaking of reddit posts, I also want to share a post from reddit
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2017-07-07 at 12:43 PM UTC in Speaking of reddit posts, I also want to share a post from reddit
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2017-07-07 at 10:04 AM UTC in Speaking of reddit posts, I also want to share a post from reddit
Originally posted by sploo i bet this is malice on an alt
LOL, why?
Even better: why would he do that?
Originally posted by sploo your main reason for suicide shouldnt be your IQ, your main reason for suicide should be because you're AIDS patientic
It's funny, that was the first thing that triggered suicidal thoughts in my life, which happened four years ago. I actually wrote about it on a forum once, if you want to see it, PM me. Or hell, I could post it here, but I guess I shouldn't be pedantic.
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2017-07-07 at 9:56 AM UTC in Speaking of reddit posts, I also want to share a post from reddit
Originally posted by aldra is that you?
Alright, I have a confession to make: yes, it was me, I was the OP from reddit. It's something I'm very concerned about, and I thought it was relevant to this forum, especially since the member sploo seems to have been in a similar predicament in his life.
Basically, can you understand why I'd be so concerned about IQ as an autistic person?
Good news is, I've managed to find some clarity on the matter from certain sources.
It's funny, I actually slightly modified my text/grammatical structure and worldview/viewpoints to try to make it look like I was a different person on this forum. I guess I have a tendency to overthink things (or should I say, overfeel). -
2017-07-07 at 1:50 AM UTC in Speaking of reddit posts, I also want to share a post from reddit
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2017-07-06 at 7:45 AM UTC in Speaking of reddit posts, I also want to share a post from reddit
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2017-07-06 at 7:40 AM UTC in Speaking of reddit posts, I also want to share a post from reddit