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2017-07-07 at 2:54 AM UTCI'm not so much afraid of needles as much as they gross me the fuck out. I can get an injection or get my blood drawn without too much problem but the idea of that needle sliding into me gives me Dexter intro like visuals. I really just don't want to deal with needles at all. I'm not trying to bulk up anyway. I just want to be stronger and feel more fit, and also I really enjoy the exercise itself.
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2017-07-07 at 2:56 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Imagine being on LSD, out in nature, and becoming the wind, like Guru Laghima (you've probably never heard of him). The experience must be incredible. A cry of exhilaration and exuberance leading to an explosive ecstatic transition into ego death and universal unity is how I imagine it.
i can remember years ago being in a nightclub on a very strong acid trip, a green microdot, and felt very vividly like i evaporated and was floating around the dancefloor. people were actually breathing me in, i was going into their lungs and getting breathed out again. i just sort of dissipated throughout the entire club for a good few minutes. that was a very awesome trip.
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2017-07-07 at 2:59 AM UTC
Originally posted by NARCassist they love sugar daddies coz they're rich, so i doubt he could afford that tho.
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If malice put half the effort he does researching into something like the stock market he could probably make considerable money. I've been playing around with it myself. Right now I'm 7k down (fake stock market, started with 100k) but if my estimates are right I'll be shooting up somewhere around September/October. I've got some release dates for products and other notes written down. Wanting to try some ETF stocks. China would probably be an obvious choice for me. -
2017-07-07 at 3:44 AM UTCReal niggas IV Oxy. Instant KO.
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2017-07-07 at 3:51 AM UTC^ Dude, don't invest in individual stocks! You'd better not be serious. Do you know how hard it is to beat the market? Professional investors, with years of schooling and decades of experience can't even do it consistently; on average they don't all. It doesn't matter how well you've done in the short term. There are so many psychological biases and traps people fall into.
I recall that around 18 I had the same idea and was researching it. One of the books I picked up from the library was A Random Walk Down Wall Street. I can't remember what else I read, but after some research and analysis, ruminating on it and the multitude of aspects, it became clear that:
#1) This was a horribly unenjoyable, unpleasant, time and effort intensive, and extremely stressful way to make money. You have to do so much research, have a high level of understanding of so many related aspects/fields, human society being, having become, incredibly complex and interconnected. You just have to constantly be engaging in research and, worse, you can never really take a vacation and stop, it has to be every day if you really want to be an investor. All it takes is missing one critical piece of news and you're fucked. You're also competing against countless other people that are bound to be far more skilled than you, have advantages in knowledge, information you don't. This is just a very simplified overview, just a criticism of investing in individual stocks would be incredibly extensive.
Oh, fuck, I just reread it. Missed that you said fake. As if you'd invest 7K, or even have it.
Well, I really must be burned out and tired for today. Fuck it, I'll post this partial critique anyway. I can't even remember what #2 was. -
2017-07-07 at 4 AM UTCAnyway, I helped a suicidal person with aspergers who contacted me on reddit. He read one of the really long threads or posts and related to me, thought I was the one that could give him the advice I needed. Sent me multiple very long posts about his life starting from an early age, what fucked he felt fucked him up, his thoughts, critical information, questions, tons of stuff. A multitude of serious issues.
Anyway, I got around to writing some extensive posts with just the information he needed, by my expert autis*mal analysis, and he told me it was exactly what he expected/wanted from me.
I think I properly addresses every concern he had, made some recommendations as to what path in life he should take, used my wide knowledge base about specific/uncommon subjects, my aspie hypermemory (actual term, it really is related to asperger's) power to recall everything I had learned about these subjects and was relevant, even did some research and linked him to the studies etc.
Maybe years from now he'll look back and see this as a turning point in his life.
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2017-07-07 at 4 AM UTCYes malice, that's why I was looking into ETFs. Last time I did this (~2012) I came out on top after playing for a year, but I don't remember what I invested in. Probably lucky.
Lol'd at you getting confused and thinking I went into this with 100k. I probably won't ever play the stock markets for exactly the reasons you've stated. I can't afford to lose the kind of money you need to play with. -
2017-07-07 at 4:03 AM UTC
Originally posted by 霍比特人 If malice put half the effort he does researching into something like the stock market he could probably make considerable money. I've been playing around with it myself. Right now I'm 7k down (fake stock market, started with 100k) but if my estimates are right I'll be shooting up somewhere around September/October. I've got some release dates for products and other notes written down. Wanting to try some ETF stocks. China would probably be an obvious choice for me.
my business studies tutor used to have us playing the investing game. i remember him telling us that you should always look to invest at around september time and exit around april for best results. i can't remember exactly why he said this was tho. i know it was april because of the end/start of the tax year. -
2017-07-07 at 5:21 AM UTC
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2017-07-07 at 5:38 AM UTC
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2017-07-07 at 5:44 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice I woke up feeling unusually good today. I'm happy as a clam right now and have good energy levels, enthusiasm, an anti-anhedonic effect, lack anxiety, cognition; possibly other things traits I missed. I wonder if it's because I took all (Or at least 3/4, I wasn't sure if I had taken one earlier) my Nardil at once around midnight to make up for having missed it throughout the day.
I saw the "pulsing" strategy mentioned a while ago, where you only take your pills every other day, doubling the daily dosage on those days. Seems to work pretty well for people, and it does have a long half life, although there are acute effects I was worried about missing, primarily the effect of its main metabolite PEH, which I found some good information of in a patent detailing the % increase of GABA-T inhibition and GABA levels by periods of 3 hours. It's possible that long-term use could modulate this. Maybe it isn't as big a deal as I thought, I didn't feel depressed or anxious yesterday.
The masturbation marathon could definitely have an effect.
Tried fapping again when I woke up and couldn't do it. Apparently my ability to get an erection is so weak, likely due to my T levels being the lowest they've ever been (and they were already abnormally low before), that I can't even get a full erection or stay hard if I'm on my back, I have to be on my side. Pretty sad at my age. Fortunately nothing was seriously inflamed or damage, just some discomfort in the area below the head covered by foreskin with it's not retracted, pulling down too much was too uncomfortable, but it didn't really matter. The standard up down dry method was also ineffective. Only the lubricated hand humping method worked, which didn't cause discomfort.
Inorgasmia actually isn't that bad, it may even be enjoyable. Normally people have problems with premature ejaculation, because, like the vast majority of animals, we didn't actually evolve to last that long. Why would we? Well, bonding is one potential reason, but healthy individuals, hunter gatherers having the highest potential to be close to optimal (without drugs), could simply replace that with a greater frequency of sex, which would also increase the chance of pregnancy. Interestingly a study demonstrated that the average length of penetration is only 3-5 minutes (We should all know men tend to be goddamn fucking liars about these matters, or utterly deluded, with inaccurate self-perceptions), and their wives/partners reported the estimated length of it as being twice as long as it actually was (The power and importance of perception). Of course, there's always variation, some people are naturally long lasting (Although it could be a product of a disorder, a disease of modern civilization), and others train for it.
I generally found orgasms to be a nuisance (Although with my perfected masturbatory technique, pre-mental breakdown, I was able to last long and it felt great, great orgasms every time) because I found the act of masturbating to be far more enjoyable, at least in the cumulative, than the short fleeting burst of intense pleasure that an orgasm brought, bringing the experience to an end. This time, as an attempt at a substitute, I simply adjusted my fantasy to reach the climax in alignment with peak physical pleasure and to orgasm in the fantasy at the same time I intended to end the act, maximizing the power of visualization and mental auditory quality, the general fidelity of the experience. It was a surprisingly good and satisfying substitute.
i dont understand how people can jerk with a lubricant though, i cant ever cum. pussy works just fine, i nutted fast as a motherfucker when i lost my vcard last month. after a nice shave around the base and shaft where its smooth and i can get that yung grip, i can yank my shit like a true master -
2017-07-07 at 5:53 AM UTC
Originally posted by Wasp Sugar Oh wow, um, two part answer.
Why would I jack off using a tiny ass screen unless I was scared of my parents coming in? Do you even open multiple tabs? Phone meth wanking is like a desperate last resort. Something you do in a Jack in the Box bathroom, not in the comfort of your own home.
Having a big screen to watch porn on is always better. Not to mention the full keyboard so you can type perverted compound phrases as fast as your brain can think them up.
Also, bringing a laptop to bed for fapping is more than possible.
I actually did do that a lot, but after a while, laying on your bed for 17 hours straight while masturbating and craning your neck can be rough on your back and neck.
Sitting in the upright position, intermittently leaning back in a reclining office chair, is the optimal position for meth fuelled masturbatory sessions.
you'll learn.
step 1: get a comfy bed
step 2: put a pillow behind your head so you dont have to crane your neck like some kind of retarded gay idiot
step 3: dont phonejerk on a shit ass phone. i prefer using my phone to the computer, a 1920x1080 monitor is too much screen to look at. i can see the girl getting rammed in the ass better when i can actually see it happening instead of looking at a big fuckoff screen like im reading a mapThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-07 at 5:57 AM UTC
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2017-07-07 at 6:14 AM UTCone thing thats cool about working at a restaurant is that when the post-amphetamine endless hunger kicks in i can just eat shit there. i pass up so many fucking opportunities for free food usually, but not today. i took literally all of the food offered. currently eating a fat ass bowl of chicken fried rice and didnt pay a dime for it. thanks for making me food chase, you a real nibber for life
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2017-07-07 at 6:28 AM UTCanother cool thing is that every waitress has a nice ass
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2017-07-07 at 6:46 AM UTC
Originally posted by cerakote scum of the earth
Originally posted by cerakote i dont understand how people can jerk with a lubricant though, i cant ever cum. pussy works just fine, i nutted fast as a motherfucker when i lost my vcard last month. after a nice shave around the base and shaft where its smooth and i can get that yung grip, i can yank my shit like a true master
sorry what what??
edit: you lack the experience to either advise or judge others.
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2017-07-07 at 7:07 AM UTC
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2017-07-07 at 7:10 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sophie I like to have music on while i do stuff. In fact i always have music on.
It's pointless for me to have music on while reading and doing other cognitively intensive activities or things that require concentration because I end up blocking one or the other.
Could be due to the hyperfocus aspergers can have, or it's possible that due to a neurological difference or some deficit my brain just doesn't properly multitask. I also have some auditory processing irregularities. Hmm, the sensory hypersensitivity probably also plays a critical part due to the unnaturally large amount of information I take in from sight and sound, along with the lower sensory gating aspect.
Originally posted by cerakote i dont understand how people can jerk with a lubricant though, i cant ever cum. pussy works just fine, i nutted fast as a motherfucker when i lost my vcard last month. after a nice shave around the base and shaft where its smooth and i can get that yung grip, i can yank my shit like a true master
I'm usually the same way and never liked using lube. My penis head becomes desensitized too quickly from overstimulation and I also have trouble coming. Lubeless feels better and is faster.
I'm using it because I can't get an erection from lubeless and lube feels better right now due to the medication. Aside from inorgasmia I also have trouble developing and maintaining an erection, remaining aroused and reaching normal levels of arousement, and it may be desensitized.
Grr, trying to jack off only incrementally makes the problem worse! Mild blue balls, and the desire to masturbate and orgasm/ejaculate along with mild sex drive/arousal, a desire to fap and view porn, increase every time.
I need to get a fleshlight. If that doesn't work, my prostate could eventually swell or become sensitized enough that stimulation could work. I may need to go as far as getting pegged by a girl if this continues. Making a post on reddit about being interested in experimenting with this fetish for the first time, no strings attached, along with an interesting story so it doesn't seem like I'm some weird (Well, of course I am, but I mean in a different way) random person or pervert, potentially dangerous. -
2017-07-07 at 7:16 AM UTCThe theoretical/simplified standard (with our current knowledge) process of assimilation by AI provides a fascinating framework for the problems of identity and conscious, thought experiments related to them.
It's probably either already been written about somewhere or there are analogous thought experiments, ones that address the same aspects that this would. At least I would hope there are.
I've mentioned before that for the assimilated it may make no difference whether this occurs or they die prior to it. It's likely going to be very difficult to properly convey why I believe this is, especially concisely, and it's not something the vast majority of people will be able to grasp, there are too many prerequisites and it requires specialized knowledge in uncommon subjects. -
2017-07-07 at 7:25 AM UTC
