Posts by The Self Taught Man

1. 2015-06-25 at 5:33 AM UTC in Your most memorable drug experiences?
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   Part of the saga of §m£ÂgØL developing schizophrenia. That really isn't healthy.

   
   Honestly, this is what kickstarted it. From then on, I was never the same. My continued drug use definitely fed it, namely psychedelics. I have not taken a piss in a non-breathing toilet in about 2 years now. Everyday, the walls breathe. Today I saw a really cool bug in the bathroom, it was silver and green, long, moved with agility, I was going to capture it and look it up- I do that kind of thing. Upon closer inspection, it was a little piece of wood, which I'm not sure how it got there but it was wood alright. A still, boring, brown piece of wood. 100% thought it was a bug. Normally my hallucinations aren't so vivid or steady.
2. 2015-06-25 at 5:26 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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   All that time out of BLTC and you remake the new TRT in HB… why blood, why?
   
   Also yeah, I assumed hydro accidentally killed you when you tried to rape her on RCs or something.

   
   I got used to it in HB, plus HB is at the top of the boards and what not here. If you wanna move it mr.admin, your call but I'd rather not scroll?
   
   Doesn't really matter where it is, anyway.
   
   And nooo, I didn't try to rape her- I think I just thought we were in the middle of having sex and her clothes were in the way, or something- she says my dick wasn't even hard. Psychotic breaks due to psychedelics are pretty fucked. I really don't remember much of it, just bits here and there, I do remember being really, really fucking scared. I still have scars healing from my battle with the barbed wire. The ones on my arm in particular won't turn skin color, they're fucking red and ugly >:( Hope they lighten up soon.
   
   I've also gained full function of my hand again.
   
3. 2015-06-25 at 5:21 AM UTC in The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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   I've always thought TRT should be in Spurious, stickied, and named "The General Thread", which sounds lame, so something more creative designating it as a place for general discussion of things that (you) don't (feel) warrant a separate thread.
   
   ​Where have you been §m£ÂgØL? It had been a bit over a month since you last posted on redfern. I looked through your posts and saw that the last one you had made was about the weed you bought giving you a panic attack. Speculated (hoped) that it may have caused an ambulance to be called and you to finally be institutionalized long term. Noted that cannabis can exacerbate and accelerate the manifestation of schizophrenic symptoms, particularly the low CBD/high THC strains, the one you had likely in this category, especially if they cause strong anxiety. They could have led to a psychotic break, psycho/schizo-mimetic symptoms, particularly as you had noted that this had been much worse after the bad trip where you ran into the woods naked and got caught up and mangled by barbed wire, attacked hydro when she tried to subdue you.

   
   The weed panic attack was months ago, back when I was still living with hydro. It was "Cheese" apparently, smelled like it, one big bong rip and boom, panic attack. I have only smoked weed once since I've been back and I didn't get a panic attack.
   
   I've been just existing, trying to find a jerb. But a jerb with decent hours, not some grocery store shit. My mental things are actually getting better, so that's good. I could still do with the occasional benzo though but the last time I had benzos I fastforwarded into 2015 so i don't really trust myself with too many of them.
4. 2015-06-25 at 5:17 AM UTC in Welcome Faggots (rules and updates on site features)
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   No Flora and Fauna section? :(
5. 2015-06-25 at 4:54 AM UTC in how I keep up with other forums
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6. 2015-06-25 at 4:01 AM UTC in Guess the user above you thread
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   my favorite space nigga on the internet.
7. 2015-06-25 at 3:53 AM UTC in how I keep up with other forums
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   First I type in "Raw" to get to rdfrn
   Then I type in "Taint" for taintedbrowser.
   
   Epic, no?
8. 2015-06-25 at 3:50 AM UTC in y u use vBulletin 5?
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   because we space niggas now.
9. 2015-06-25 at 3:03 AM UTC in So
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   niggas live forever in space
10. 2015-06-25 at 3 AM UTC in Why can't I just win a shitload of money?
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    I'm used to poverty and hardship, it's all I know.
11. 2015-06-25 at 2:15 AM UTC in I suggest the removal of the "comment" feature
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    So it basically makes it Reddit except instead of discussions being ranked by upvotes, they're just tiered by when the top comment of any string is posted. This is bad, because if the first few replies are shitposts, they'll constantly be shown above any better replies that might show up afterward. Let's stick with the forum style of conversation, not reddit-style.

    
    This. There's no reason to try to be something else. I like this style. Keeping the comments would make it just like reddit, but shittier.
12. 2015-06-24 at 11:51 PM UTC in *resurrects thread*
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    YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
13. 2015-06-24 at 11:49 PM UTC in What's your favorite frozen pizza?
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole
    cheese stuffed digorno
14. 2015-06-24 at 11:45 PM UTC in Why can't I just win a shitload of money?
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    [FONT=Tahoma]Why can't I just win a shitload of money that would the best feeling ever man when you find out you got all that money and its nothin but good times ahead…I WANT IT. [/FONT]
    
    [FONT=Tahoma]Shit, winning just ONE million would be awesome. Thinking of all the sweet shit that would buy. Why can't I? That money is just sitting in some account not belonging to anyone just sitting there going to waste when it could be mine! Come on God PLEASE, just let some of that money out of the vault and get it to ME! [/FONT]
15. 2015-06-24 at 9:51 PM UTC in I fucking love space
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    thanks
    
    
    
    
16. 2015-06-24 at 9:43 PM UTC in muh sigs
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    thanks!
    
    10 char bonus:
    
    SPAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACE
    
    
17. 2015-06-24 at 9:14 PM UTC in I fucking love space
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    how do you post two videos in the same post?
18. 2015-06-24 at 9:13 PM UTC in Rocklin is on suicide watch
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    I have 0 post an 27 Thanks over there now which makes me the best user of all time according to the post/thanks ratio law.
    
    Eat dicks, Rocklin. I win.
    
19. 2015-06-24 at 9:13 PM UTC in I fucking love space
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    Theme song for niggasin.space
20. 2015-06-24 at 9:08 PM UTC in I'm tired of feeling like a fucking refugee.
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole

    I'd say we all lucked out pretty damned fine to get a full-fledged VBul BBS even before the old place closes. It's fast, full-featured and best of all, there's no power hungry lackeys like fang and Rocklin running it.

    
    True. At least we got rid of the totse2 cancer.
    
    Can't wait for new drama, though.