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2020-01-31 at 3:02 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
Originally posted by WE SMOOTH it’s the boredom/groundhog day feeling. when i smoke and it hits me just right I can’t stop walking around my crib feeling grateful.
I know that feel. its difficult to punch through. Whenever my meditation actually works, it does help. As does going one new place every day. Work out- even for a half hour. Drive around with a chick.
weed really isnt shit, but i guess the whole point is that if anything is a crutch,its keeping you from developing your full potential -
2020-01-31 at 2:55 PM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..
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2020-01-31 at 2:07 PM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..
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2020-01-31 at 1:37 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get off that bus editionItd actually make me tremendously happy to see you guys do well. If i go awol and you remember nothing else- let it be that.
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2020-01-31 at 12:56 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get off that bus edition
Originally posted by Sophie Terry's new lawn mower is really quite a shower.
It does what it's meant to do.
Terry's new lawn mower is better than my mower
and it got flame decals too.
There's nothing in the world that i could want more is to have that lawn mower
My girl would be so proud, i'm positive she'd love me more once i show her
I snuck out late at night while everyone was sleeping tight i tiptoed up to Terry's shed.
I flick on the light and my hair stands up in fright because i see Terry out of bed.
He started up is mower and i screamed and he ran me over
I shed a single tear because i am just so glad that i got to know her
Terry's mower.
I had to search Google to make sure this wasnt some Primus B-side -
2020-01-31 at 12:55 PM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion 💩🖕hi
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2020-01-31 at 12:52 PM UTC in Corona Virus doubles global infections & deaths in 24 hoursDeaths now at 213.
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2020-01-31 at 12:47 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)oh my god im going to fucking kill you both
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2020-01-31 at 5:17 AM UTC in Favorite Soundtrack Songs?
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2020-01-31 at 5:17 AM UTC in Favorite Soundtrack Songs?
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2020-01-31 at 5:14 AM UTC in Favorite Soundtrack Songs?I guess it doesnt have to be a film score, but ....yeah. He’res a few of my favorites off the top of my head
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2020-01-31 at 4:37 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get off that bus edition
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2020-01-31 at 4:32 AM UTC in Corona Virus doubles global infections & deaths in 24 hoursDude the number of confirmed just jumped by 1,200. we’re about to crack 10,000 confirmed cases.
Ron paul gif time? -
2020-01-31 at 2:48 AM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
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2020-01-31 at 2:36 AM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)^^ This doesnt sound like a solid plan to get clean. This sounds like something i wouldve concocted to justify smoking heroin in the bathroom at work. lol.
You need to find something more long acting if youre still going to be using. Short acting/compulsive redosing is always bad juju. -
2020-01-30 at 8:03 PM UTC in Corona Virus doubles global infections & deaths in 24 hoursI'm registering for Uber right now. Probably not the best time to be ferrying people back and forth from LAX
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2020-01-30 at 6:58 PM UTC in Corona Virus doubles global infections & deaths in 24 hours
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2020-01-30 at 6:54 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
Originally posted by Dregs in my mind i am a lesbian sex worker
trapped in a gay mans body
emotionally non binary..at the same time like a smurf
if you need details on this i can not give them to you as it would confuse you quite considerably. sorry for the inconvience.
Its cool bro-dette. Gay dudes are pretty chill. Buy a bunch of meth. I wish i had a gay bestie to choose my clothes for me and pick my haircuts. -
2020-01-30 at 5:48 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
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2020-01-30 at 1:25 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
Originally posted by Dregs that in can remember in 29 yrs…the longest was 5 and half months..i was working on two crews construction and renovations. i worked 6 days/well over 60 hrs a week during that period and about 3 months when i went back to drinking. i am a fat bastard but i was such a work horse then i hardly was ever tired. maybe 2-3 hrs tops a night sleep and that was more than enough. my right wrist and back were a lot stronger then too…i could take the punishment/grind and than some. arthiristic…whatever sp? in the wrist and a chronic back problem developed i needed the booze to deal with it…docs were suggesting surgery and taking off x amount of time off work THAT I COULDN'T AFFORD TO DO..and the booze helped…than with all the pills…don't aks what i just took whatever i could get my hands on…than i got fired from both jobs
even when both bosses fired me…each was like i'm drunk and high right now…why should i care? i probably had that expression my face too. didn't effect me at all…even losing all that money i was just making over like 8-9 months…i saved up most of what i made during that time too. all i cared about was..i was drunk and high again…well more so numb…at least i still felt something
one thing that always bothered me when i was working like a mad man…everything during that period like birthdays, parties, being around friends, all the good shit in life…sober me was just a fucking zombie. i barely reacted to anything good going on around me or with myself…some fam would be like smile so they can take a pic…or smile enjoy yourself..
i couldn't. it really bothered my father going back many yrs before that…he'd often observe and criticize me for that shit too…everything would be good at home as a kid. i rarely smiled or seemed to him i wasn't enjoying the good things…i just didn't feel much. much of the good shit was like whatever to me. yet when i first started drinking in my early teens my whole mood, personality..whatever wanna call it i was happy..he couldn't shut me up or anyone..didn't make sense to him and i always felt like i was being myself. that bothered him and it bothered me…too much history but i really became a real piece of shit to him and everyone and i just didn't care
fuck this thread. no offence bro but time to do what i do best in life…and time to forget about all the seriousness and bullshit in life. peace. send the bill in the mail. no doubt you're gonna charge me like i charge everyone else.
Sounds like depression right off the bat. I was the same exact way as a kid...and still am to an extent. Its kind of just a question of how long you think you can continue living that way. If your answer is indefinitely- and it actually does something for you- then more power to you. I just didnt even think there was an alternative, but addict brains are fucking sneaky like that.
