Posts by Sophie
2020-07-14 at 9:08 AM UTC in Gf is stroking my cock
2020-07-14 at 8:50 AM UTC in Is it me or youtube?
While that may be true, it is also true that there are ways of making malicious cookies. The example i always like to give is Samy Kamkar's Evercookie API implementation. Bad enough on it's own but highly malicious if purposefully weaponized.
2020-07-14 at 12:09 AM UTC in My cousin has a peanut allergy...
2020-07-13 at 11:45 PM UTC in My cousin has a peanut allergy...Shit can be fatal, yo.
2020-07-13 at 11:43 PM UTC in How to slide through DWI checkpoints.
Originally posted by mmQ Youd like to think so, but I think theres enough evidence to the contrary at this point.
Also it's a different cost/benefit analysis if you're an alcoholic, not you specifically but in general. Maybe you have to drive to get to your job, maybe you're only a functional human being when you're drunk. Gotta drive to the likka store. That sucks. Especially in America, where everything is huge and far apart.
Like having to drive for 8 hours straight to go see your mom or your friends isn't within the realm of my day to day experience if i drive for 8 hours straight i'll be close to Spain or halfway through Germany.
2020-07-13 at 11:37 PM UTC in Suicide is for the weakI don't say this often but Spectral did make a valid point. Everyone has the power to change something in their life, even if it's a small thing. Even if you're in prison, or are missing limbs you still have the power to change yourself for the better by trying to change your mindset on certain things.
2020-07-13 at 11:34 PM UTC in How to slide through DWI checkpoints.
Originally posted by mmQ They really should just make it mandatory for vehicles to have one of those dealies that wont let your car start unless you blow below the limit.
Most really drunk people and especially blackout drunk people dont actually mean any harm and they arent choosing to drive because 'hehehe I'm so fucked up right now I just wanna put others lives at extra risk.' They are impaired and that means their judgement on thinking they're impaired is also impaired.
You'd imagine that even when hammered people still have the wherewithal to know they could kill themselves in a drunk driving incident too. I mean, that's the reason i don't drive around drunk.
2020-07-13 at 2:58 PM UTC in Easiest way to kill yourself besides an overdose
2020-07-13 at 2:19 PM UTC in Easiest way to kill yourself besides an overdose
2020-07-13 at 2:08 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
2020-07-13 at 12:50 PM UTC in The New York Time is tabloid trashTough spot to be in for the federal government. Do the right thing, or do the popular thing. Unless he pissed off the wrong people and everything was Gucci until they dredged up the murder allegations.
2020-07-13 at 12:39 PM UTC in Easiest way to kill yourself besides an overdose
2020-07-13 at 12:32 PM UTC in The internet has become very gay
2020-07-13 at 12:26 PM UTC in Easiest way to kill yourself besides an overdose
Originally posted by Greek Style The disposable BBQs refers to the charcoal method - it usually kills with carbon monoxide from what I have heard, although carbon monoxide will make you nauseous, and the carbon dioxide will make you feel like you are suffocating. Combined with pills and booze it could work.
Nausea and choking are both uncomfortable in my book. So it doesn't really matter how many O's your carbon has, it's going to suck. Inert gas, or a bullet to the head.
2020-07-13 at 12:19 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)Also, i've just had a think. Because i have these OTC pills, with acetominophen, aspirin and caffeine in them. I just take 'em for the caffeine really. But a funny thought went through my mind like 15 minutes ago, i thought, i'm gonna take all of them in one go. It wouldn't kill me but it would give me one hell of a heartburn. And i thought, nah. Why would i do that? That's Sploo tier. And then i thought long and hard about what i meant when i thought 'Sploo tier' and i came to an interesting conclusion. Or theory if you will.
You know how Sploo was always doing shit drugs, that actually make you feel pretty shit? And he'd go on about how great they'd be. And everyone just thought he was a lunatic? Well, i think he wasn't a lunatic but a personality disorder diagnosis wouldn't be out of place either. I figured what if the shit drugs was actually a form of self-harm. And not in the obvious way like yeah drugs are bad and OTC binges maybe even more so, but in the psychopathological self-harm kind of way. Like a person that cuts themselves? But as opposed to cutting yourself, with drugs of whatever kind, you generally can't just stop once you're in the middle of it because it takes a while for your body to clear that shit, nahmean?
2020-07-13 at 12:09 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
2020-07-13 at 12:06 PM UTC in Easiest way to kill yourself besides an overdose
Originally posted by filtration Some disposable BBQs in a room or a mask and helium. Or a dressing gown cord so and get on your knees, lean forward and you'll go unconscious and die.
Helium is the one i'd recommend out of the three. CO2 poisoning will make you feel very uncomfortable before you die, as will leaning into a noose you psycho.
2020-07-13 at 11:54 AM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
Originally posted by CASPER Started taking cymbalta. Cant tell if it helps or not. Physical therapy got cut off bc Medi-Cal did some wonky shit, but i dont feel like im entitled to free services and i was really doing the bare mi imum anyway.
Just kind of numb. I dont enjoy anything right now. I try to sleep as much as possible. i wake up early every day and then take all my pills together and ansleeping pill to hopefully knock me out another few hours. I just dont like being awake. But even my dreams are kinda sad.
I just had one where it was apparently the birthday for 2 friends i had early in hs. We were older now. Some kind of big facility and everyone like 150 people were millimg around drinking and stuff. I guess i was supposed to order food for them and everyone else. Only idk if i forgot or what, but all of a sudden i look at the “clock” and its like 3 hours after i was supposed to be back with the food. I go to the place and they dont even have record of me placing an order. I place it and it takes forever and i hurry back to the place but everyone is gone.I figure out where everyone went, and track down my friemds and apologize. I think I try to tell them the place fucked up, but they know im lying. Everyone is just obviously annoyed and dismissive of me, and they say “Its all good dude we never expected you to follow through on anything in the first place. “. I tell them i feel super bad, and try to give them a wad of money, but they just say im embarassing myself and should leave.
Thats a pretty accurate summation of how I feel. Unable to do anything right. Irrelevant, unable to own up to allmy fuckups (or at least resistant to). Feel like a burden.Like i missed the bus and am constantlyplaying catch up.
Just feel kinda numb. Which in a lot of ways is kind of preferable. Gore stuff used to bother people and make me feel sick bc im naturally really empathetic. But ive been watching a lot of ot last gew days. Wanted to see what kind of pain people seemed to experience after being shot in the head, hung, etc. It just doesnt bother me near as much as it did.
Still avoiding my sponsor. I dont know if i should even call him that anymore. Ive stopped answering the phone in general bc im paranoid that someone is using an alternate number to try to call me, and all get roped into an uncomfortable conversation. I just want to forget other things and people exist. Nuked Facebook and instagram. Not that i ever posted there anyway really.
Im super fucking tired. Never been this tired in my entire life. Its like being underwater and your lungs burn and your muscles ache for oxygen. Only its just like that all the time. Just being slowly squeezed out like a sponge.
this is fucking gay but its mythread do ill be as big a faggot as i want to be.
Read cymbalta as carfentanyl for some reason, been craving the fent today. But who gives a shit i'm not trying to quit. I'm more annoyed by intermittent bouts of mild withdrawal than anything. i can keep my mind off it generally but today is one of those days.
I like dreams though even sad ones. It's kind of an unconscious reflection on what you've been thinking. But if that's true, IDK wtf my brain is trying to tell me. I had a dream two nights ago. I was walking on a long road near some waterways and everything was kind of sandy. I can't remember if i was walking alone or with someone but at some point i came to a hill. I went up the hill, and at the top it went down again but only a little bit so you'd be out of sight of the road but no further. As i walked over the top i could see like a group of people. They looked homeless but they were kind of having a party up there. So i just walked over looked at the people, sat down on a slab of concrete that was there around some kind of concrete pipe that was turned up to make a crude fireplace. And i sat there and smoked a cig, as i was looking around there was this girl buried up to the head in the sand in front of the fireplace pipe. She wasn't dead or anything, she was just stuck there for some reason. like she spawned in the floor. I thought "that's a little odd", however it didn't strike me as odd that there were just these homeless people and a head having a party in the dunes or some shit for some reason. So i scanned the place for a cute girl to talk to, and i found one and so i did.
And that was basically it. I woke up confused, but i can't get the image of the girl buried in the sand out of my head. I suppose i assumed she was buried in the sand, but i didn't really know, all i know was that her head was there and she was moving her eyes around and making facial expressions and it was a little unsettling, lol.
2020-07-13 at 11:33 AM UTC in My ex has moved on from me :(
2020-07-13 at 11:28 AM UTC in I dream of freedom
Originally posted by Nonce All your posts are about guns cause you're a sad pathetic loser with no gf.
Ugliest girl from Russia would beat whatever passes for decent in the shithole you live in. Unless you're talking about babushka but it's weird to talk about babushka like that. So don't even try it.