Enigma
African Astronaut
[memorize my carmelite sway]
Folks growing up I used to just feel so much anxiety around like 5-6pm and for the rest of the night. I remember being like 9 or 10pm and making myself puke so my mom would finally say "Yeah you can stay home tomorrow." that was the dream. I used to be so scared of not waking up for school on time, for not doing well in school the next week, how I'm gonna fuck up in life the next day.
And like so how things work as a kid, you stay up all Friday night, then I sleep in till noon on Saturday, then I stay up till the wee hours of Sunday morning, then I sleep till 2-3pm, so when it's like 10pm I'm fully awake and can't sleep.
Shit hurts my soul. Even now as an adult I worry about the next day even though I know I'll be fine. I just feel these deep feelings of sadness, loneliness, and like fear. These nights are always the worse for me, tomorrow morning I'll be fine, every other night of the week I'm fine.
But Sunday nights just remind me of depressing, emptiness, death, and feeling like shit.
Enigma
African Astronaut
[memorize my carmelite sway]
click crispy on the top right, it'll load another screena bout halfway down it'll ask you to upload it, the picture must be 75x75 pixels or small, upload it then click accept and it'll be changed.
Enigma
African Astronaut
[memorize my carmelite sway]
best soda I ever had so far was this monster that is called orange dreamsicle, truly a godsend
also I really liked in prison we used to get these packets of juice that were super cheap like 20 for a dollar so everyone always had s hitload of them, and I'd put 1 part cold water, 1 part milk, 1 orange juice packet, 2 sweeteners into like a big water bottle I liked that a lot
people also did protein powder (vanilla) witht he orange juice packet, but I didn't have enough money (protein powder was like 20 for a 12 scoop bag)
